Could you admit this?

i'm obsessed with a guy i haven't seen in 3 months and know i can't have. i think about him constantly. it eats at me every second of everyday. i hide it as deep as i can but it consumes every layer so badly that I can't keep myself from talking about it drunk to friends who already know the story. i look for new people i can tell just so i can relive the summer in my head. For God's sake foam soap and grape flavoring remind me of him! i would give anything to relive the moment when he was so frightened that my older brother (ps his age) might walk in on us. I'd pay money to have him in my bed laughing at my temporary tattoo. i still listen for the stomps of feet walking down the stairs from his house outside my window. i imagine their his feet coming downstairs to me, as they were so often this summer. i want him to know how he completely stole my heart. in a month my heart became his. its ridiculous i know but i find myself getting lost in the thoughts of him digging around inside my foot with a tack looking for a splinter. i dream of what it would be like to visit him in Newport. He would pick me up from the train station, give me a hug, and carry my bag to his car. He'd pick one of my all time favorite songs1

and i'd wonder if he was on my music brain wave. he'd ask me how school is going and i'd tell him i was happy to be there. At his house, he'd offer me a soda and I'd tell him I wanted to see his room first. He'd have the familiar baby blanket that looked oddly like mine but his computer would be upgraded. i'd sit on the new bed and look at the pictures near the desk. My neighbors, his friends, would smile back at me in their frame. he would sit down next to me and laugh at them. I would turn to him, we both would smile and i would kiss him. He would kiss back so passionately.2

would you tell the person you know you can't have that you have these feelings?