Have you ever loved someone more than anything in the world yet knew you'd never be with them? 1
Did this thought kill you inside, even though you always smiled and pretended on the outside?2
Did you constantly have butterflies in your stomach and felt the need to cry at the thought of the impossibility of the relationship?3
Were you unable to sleep or eat and did you stumble around in the routine you call life hoping, just hoping to God that you would stop loving them just to ease the pain?4
Did you think about them all the time when you were alone, but had to fight them out of your thoughts when someone walked in the room for fear your eyes would betray you, or that somehow they could read your mind?5
Did you desperately want to to tell everyone in sight, yet the thought of anyone knowing sent shivers down your spine at the humiliation it would cause?6
Could you picture yourself with them 20, 30, 40 years down the road and it seemed like the the most right and natural thing that could ever happen to anyone?7
Did seeing them give you both the most piercing agony and utter joy you thought you'd ever feel?8
Did you fail to realize any way to keep yourself from smiling like a fool when they looked at you?9
Did you love their flaws almost as dearly as their perfections?10
Did your most painful thought include them rejecting you?11
And, most of all, did you know without a doubt that there wasn't a single thing in the the world that could make you give up hope that someday they would look at you and simply say, "I love you"?12
Yeah, me too.13
Author notes
I don't expect anyone to really understand, or even care, but I had to get this out, it was getting in the way of a lot of things, especially my writing, so I had to vent. I guess this isn't really a story, but whatever. So, here we are, my emotions on a page...enjoy.
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I totally understand...utterly completely understand because I have been through everything you've said...thanx for reading my story "Love life blues"...what you've said here pretty much sums up how I felt about the 2nd guy in that...anyway keep writing...I think I might add you to my faves....Luv Caz
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Well, I do understand this, quite a bit, in more ways than one. I did dream of this happening with a girl, it did, but then I lost her...unfortunatly, and it was all my fault. What -Jessica- said is sooo true, even though I am one myself, guys suck, we do. Good luck with the situation your in! It was a good write by the way, I like these ones that make you actually think rather than just sit down and read it, if that makes any sense at all.
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lol, thanks Jess.
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this is good, alicia. This pretty much sums up what i feel about micheal. but guys suck we don't need 'em. We're tough independent chicks.
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