Save me- 4

I finally pulled myself out of bed once my mom had left me to my thoughts. I threw my hair up into a pony tail and quickly turned on some music. It was one of my favorite bands, evanescence and even though most people thought Amy Lee was copying someone else. I still loved her voice. I sat down at my desk as next weeks homework sat before me. I would be free for the next week if I did it today, like I always did. It seemed as if I just went to school for the extra pionts.1

Math was my favorite assignment over anything else, but it just wasn't what I wanted to do. The English assignment was weighing in on me. The paper that was going to be due in two weeks time was about attraction. This made me grin slightly, because the paper could be anything I wanted it to be. 2

I panned over it for a second, looking down at the requirements, it could not be lewd or suggestive. It was one of those assignments were you had to be completely mysterious with metaphors. Mrs. Brinkely always seemed interested in assignments like this and had us going back to back with them. Brinkely and I weren't exactly each other's favorites. She often told me I wrote like a scientist and thus would be great in that field. I often told her she was more eccentric than her writing. She found it complimenting sometimes and other times rather condescending. I was unsure of how I was meaning it really.3

This was probably one assignment that I could really make her wonder where I was going with it. Maybe she would like it, and make me the star student. Although, I was uncertain that Kelcie creed would be really happy about it. I was always tempted to ask Kelcie if she really enjoyed Johnathan or if he was her cover up. Funny, how I could see so clearly that she was headed straight to my neck of the woods and no one else could. I didn't even think Kelcie could see it too.4

I stared over a blank sheet of paper and thoughts ran through my head.5

'Attraction is it the soft sweet smell or the harsh roughness of cologne? Does the softer fingers make it burn or is it the dry skin?' I chuckled at the two burning questions. These were thoughts that often went through my head. Yet, even as I wrote them down, I knew the answer. I liked the touch of a woman much more than a man, and for some reason I couldn't just say I was lesbian. I liked the roughness as well, so it was a concluded discussion with me. 6

"Bekah!"7

I heard my mom calling for me, I opened my door just to stick my head out.8

"What?"9

"Someone's here to see you."10

I raised my eyebrows, no one ever came to see me and especially not on a Saturday. I padded down the hall and down the stairs to see Cassie Woodlynn standing there with Michael applegate. I about laughed at myself. 11

"What's going on?"12

I eyed Cassie then Michael, who only smiled back as friendly as possible. Michael was one of the nicest guys in our school and I never understood his motives for anything.13

"Well, I thought you'd like to come hang out with us. Michael, had an idea of were we could go."14

I tilted my head at Michael, then stared down at Cassie.15

"Alright, but it's my homework day."16

Cassie wrinkled her nose up.17

"Don't you just do it the day before it's due?"18

I raised my eyebrows at her.19

"If I was normal, maybe...but to answer your question no."20

She chuckled a little, and for some reason it made my heart jump.21

"Well, I think you should change your plans today."22

"Yeah, come on Bekah when are you going to get to hang out with us again?"23

I looked up into Michael's eyes.24

"Let me ask you this Michael when is the next time, you'll want to hang out with me?"25

He cocked his head at me in a look toward defiance.26

"Who's to say I never wanted to hang out with you?"27

"Michael applegate, we have been in school together what? 10 years?"28

"Yeah so?"29

"When in all that time did we play together?"30

His smile broadened and it confused me.31

"Second grade, every 3rd recess."32

I blinked, not really recalling it, but it seemed to fit. Michael didn't look like he did as a kid, he had been more round and rather slow around the lot. He had been my secret friend, at the time I had actually cared what people thought. Yet, I still enjoyed our time mulling around in the back of the playground talking about when we got older. Surprisingly enough Michael and I had rather philosophical chats for children.33

Still even if he was right about us being friends or playing together as children. I couldn't help being a bit bitter. When we had gotten into middle school Michael had shot up in height, taking care of the roundedness. He had grown into his features and took advantage of it by joining some of the sports teams to keep himself from ever becoming round again.34

"So, not like you invited me to any of your slumber parties."35

"Not like you asked to come Bekah."36

He bent down smirking at me, and almost asking me to smack him. I laughed then uncontrollably so. It had been a long time since I had talked to Michael. When the laughter died down and Michael had straightened back up. I knew then that if anyone could break my bitterness it was him. Cassie cleared her throat breaking the spell of Michael and I bickering playfully at each other.37

She was staring at me as if she was hurt by us having some sort of secret that she never knew was possible. It was a rather big secret between Michael and I, that we had been childhood friends. There was also a look of jealousy in her eyes that burnt a hole in my heart. I smiled at her as best I could.38

"Sorry Cas, didn't mean to make you all angry...you see I haven't really talked to Michael since the 6th grade."39

Cassie's eyes widened as the realization came over her, that I wouldn't ever see him as anything more than a friend.40

"Oh no. I am just wondering if we are going to get out of this house."41

I looked down at my pajama bottoms which were sporting my favorite cartoon character bugs bunny and my white tank top. My hair was down and messy, I looked like I had just gotten up.42

"Cassie, when do you put into the equation that I haven't even gotten dressed?"43

She looked at me then, and it made my heart pump a little as she assessed my clothing.44

"Right...maybe you should go change..."45

I smiled as best I could, and all the while I was fighting not to go over and give her a kiss. I knew that Michael could be trusted as a child, but who was to say he hadn't changed since then. 46

"Alright, I'll change...but first..."47

I looked up into Michael's chocolate brown eyes.48

"Tell me where we are going first."49

He bent down to me, cooing into my ear.50

"The thing is I wanted to thank you for getting Cassie to finally admit her sexuality to herself. She called me last night and I told her we should go to the boons."51

My eyes widened, the boons was basically a club two towns over. Rarely anyone from this town knew about it and those who did were rather different. It didn't surprise me then, Michael was possibly bi or gay or just open minded. It didn't matter to me but I had to know.52

"Are you...?"53

He was still at my ear.54

"Bi...yes...I am...just as you are funny right?"55

He then straightened himself and I chuckled. I knew that it wasn't going to cause Michael any distress. I walked over then tugging Cassie close to me.56

"I'll get dressed and go, but I need something..."57

I kissed her on the lips and she kissed me back. I could tell that she had put on cherry lip gloss which only made it more fun. I pulled away after a moment turning and padding my way back up to my room.