diary of a broken soul

Hello Diary,1

Imagine with me if you will for a second, a world of war and destruction. Though your family lives on the light side trying to support them, where everyone is losing their life and dying where there is almost no hope. There is no money for food and clothes or really anything for that matter. Your father has died in the war and your mothr is unable to get a job. There is nothing you can do to help If there is no money by the end of the month your mother will have to work for the government while you and your siblings are sent to the orphanage. Every day at school they treat you like crap cause your not as high in class as the others. It's one day till the end of the month when the money is due. A man, you've never met or seen, someone from the dark side, comes to your door speaking to your mother he says this,"I will buy your oldest daughter the 14 year old for $150,000 this should hold till the end of the war." You miss what your mother says next, but you knowing your the oldest so you hope she says no. You sit with your siblings when the man breaks through the door. "Hello pretty girl." you try to fight thinking that he was trying to go against your mothers response and take you anyway. He suddenly pulls a knife to your neck, your mother comes in speaking, "your his now we needed the money i'm so sorry." You can't even look at her now for the way she has hurt you. You glance at your siblings, Flora, Lilly, Orian, BB, Constello, and Zeus, they are crying for you. The man takes you away, away from everything you've ever know and trusted. He brings you to the dark side of things to a huge tent with the words 'Generals' writen on the top. There the other four men sit as if waiting for you to arrive. You lay on the floor feeling to tired to move. They tie your hands behind your back and chain you to the bed post. The man who seemed to be the main general walked over he cuts your wings so they are only 2 inches long this way you can't fly away. Then they each take turns violating you. All you can do is sit in the tent and cry you know that they had returned and killed your family, you are alone, you have no one. Two years later the war has ended and they have nothing to do with you. Your wings begin to grow back quickly but before you can leave, they say you trespased. You are instantly thrown in jail were you are told you will stay for eternity. So now broken and alone you sit scratching marks in to the floor. Getting to skinny to survive.You have been in this cell now since you were 16 years old. Now what? I know that this isn't your life but this is mine, I am Rose. 2

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I shut my diary and stare at the ground. The markings still ever present. A guard walks by and laughs. Then slowly opens the door. Noticing the great length of my wings, almost 16 feet now, he pulls out a knife. He smiles as he approches, Setting the food on the bed.4

He runs his fingers through my hair trying to act all sweet but I know the pain that is about to come. "You stupid girl. You and your stupid wings. Angels are in Heaven but then we have the dragon seekers, bird ventures, Lul Backs. Each that have wings. So which are you." 5

I give a slight laugh and fluff my wings out. "I'm a Lul back. Dragon seekers and bird ventures died years ago in the war. It was your fault they died. I'm just lucky you didn't kill all the Lul backs yet."6

"Yeah yeah alot like an angel but your born as human. Stupid Lul back your kind will be dead soon enough. After all conting you there are only three left. Two are guys and they are being tortured for information on others that may be hidden right now. But they will die soon. Then only you will be left. Only problem is the stupid boss won't let us kill you, thinks you'll be helpful in providing children to strengthen our army one day."7

I turned away from him at that notion. I was 19 I was surprised they hadn't started that sooner. I was glad I would get the chance to live but in pain at the fact of why. 8

Since my back was to him he took his opportunity grabbing my wings and beggining to take the knife through them. I began to fight back. Grabbing the knife from him and slashing it across his face. He tried every possible way to take me down, and I tried everything to stay up. He finally managed to get the knife from me. Now that he had marks going up and down his arms, stomach, and face. He grabbed my wrists and wiped me around so my back was against his bleeding stomach. He pulled the knife to my throat and I froze. 9

"You little missy are going to the boss. Let's see what he has to say about this misdimenar. The eighth this week. You best stop soon or those whip marks across your back will continue to get worse." 10

"They already dig into my spine I think I'm fine. Besides it was my ninth time acting out this week. Plus I have no chance of freedom so why should behave like I may." 11

He snorted and chuckled at this and dragged me along to the bosses chamber. Bowing as he entered and kicking me behind the knee so I nearly fell. Close enough to a bow though for him and his guards. 12

The boss, Aranion, listened to his guards crys about the way I fought back. Then all the other guards who had delt with me before began to express their dark thoughts. 13

"Sir she did...." "Sir she...." "Sir..." "Si..." was all that could be heard. Finally one of the guards voices broke over all the rest, "Sir she needs to be delt with now. We can't just keep blowing her off and shoving her into her cage." 14

He nodded and looked to me. "Have you been causing trouble for my guards." I smiled and nodded simply treating this as a game that I would hopefully be free of soon enough. 15

"Get her set up. We will take care of her tonight. She shall learn what her job is from now on." The guard holding me smiled. He had told me this in my cage and now I tried to fight against him avoiding the knife by my throat. 16

Aranion grabbed me and threw me to the cold metal operating table. He held my arms above me head and began to take off the shirt. Once completly off he took out the whip and dragged it across my back again and again. 17

Tears steamed down my face. I noticed Azor one of the guards and Aranions son hanging his head low. He was the only guard I could trust here. He always promised he would set me free.18

I lay completly still as the guards gathered around the boss. Each asking if they could help punish me. I moved my hands, not tied down. Then I tried my feet they too were free. I fluttered my wings and carried myself to fly above them. Wrapping my wings around my body. 19

"To bad you forgot that I have wings and hadn't tried to tie me down. Big mistake." 20

Suddenly I saw the boss pull out a gold sword. I froze in mid flight to the door. Gold was the one thing I knew of that could kill me within seconds of touching it. "Come back here or I throw this, and I never miss." 21

For that moment I believed him and came right to where he stood. Two guards held me back as one came over to my wings. Just about ready to break them I noticed blood sputter from his mouth. 22

Azor looked at me and smiled his angelic smile, holding a knife full of the blood from the guard that had just fell. I spun around hitting the two guards with my wings and knocking them to the floor. 23

I ran to the corner where my clothes lay on the ground from earlier. Azor took out the rest of the guard standing with his father ready to kill him if necesary. 24

I grabbed his wrist and pleaded for him to come with me. I took off in a brisk run down the dark cement hallway. I saw the door, my exit, only feet away now. Azor close behind me, I would finally have my freedom back. 25

Then I saw that dream slowly come to an end. A high knight appeared in front of me. These were the men who would show no mercy. He held a new gold sword, nearly touching my throat. 26

"Azor, son, if you walk keep going she will die understand." I knew instantly who was speaking. I felt Azor give me a small kiss on the neck then turn back to his father and walk. 27

The high knight backed off alowing me through. "Of course Rose you could stay after all you wouldn't want Azor, your poor boyfriend to die alone." 28

I looked back in his eyes, telling me to go. So I took off out the door breaking into flight instantly. I turned around once more to see the wretched building that I would never have to worry about again. 29

Azor stood at the door, as the high knight came on the side of him. Taking off his head with the gold sword he had held to me just seconds earlier. I let out a shriek. I couldn't go back, what good would that do. I would be right where I started and Azor would have died for nothing. 30

I felt myself free falling to the ground. I was to sad to try and fly any more. I let myself go. Collapsing into a river. Letting myself sink to the bottom. If only I could drown then I could join Azor where ever he was now. 31

I noticed the raft sit above me. Two lines lay in the river, which ment fishers. I came up to greet them hoping not to frighten them to much. Apparently that failed though. They both gave a girlish scream. I forced my wing into hiding, so I was just human for the moment. 32

I told them I had been swiming here and needed a ride back to shore because the current had carried me a little to far. They glad me gave me a ride. 33

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I watched the sun set in the west. The beautiful colors streaming in the sky. It was like a party up there. I stretched my wings and took off. My wings had gotten so much stronger since I had left that place.35

They now extended the sky with a full 20 foot span. The pure white glistening in the sun. They had no more pain in them physically, nor did my body. But the pain I still felt for Azor everyday was never ending. It tore at the inside of me like an angry lion. 36

I flew to the top of the building where I had been a prisoner for so many years. "Rose," it took me awhile to regognize the voice coming from behind me. I darted around to find the high knight who had tried to stop my escape only one year ago standing there. 37

I flinched and approched him cautiously. I had to be extremly stupid to go toward an enemy. "I'm glad you came. Where is it." I tried to keep my voice calm. 38

He reached to his pocket, I expected him to pull out something, and he did but not what I was thinking. I saw the golden sword shine in the light that was still left in the sky. 39

This had been the same sword that Azor had gotten killed with. "I thought you were going to help me. You said you could communicate with Azor even though he was dead. I need to talk to him. You said you could help with that, so can you. Tell me are you really here to help?" I nearly was screaming the final words out. 40

"Of course I am here to help. You wanted to conntact Azor and Azor is dead. Therefore the only way to conntact him is by being dead too." 41

He charged at me sword out. I dodged the sword for now. Praying it wouldn't touch me. Two other guys came out of the shadows. High knight had buddies since last time I saw him, great. 42

I tried to get a good look at them while dodging the sword he stll flung around like a child. I knew if i touched that sword it was the end of me. I went to back up, falling flat on back instead. I stared up at him. The sword pointed down ready to strike into my heart. 43

As if I had a heart right now, it seemed to be racing out of my body. I saw the sword come down, then stop. I looked up to find the sword bent into a circle. I tried to see the person who had just saved me, but it was hard to see. The high knights buddies where already down. Weak children I supposed. 44

But the high knight wasn't he was fighting someone, someone I regognized, Azor!45

Chapter 2.46

I watched the hight knight fly past my face and over the edge of the building to his death. I stood up, not putting to much pressure on my left ankle, and went to the edge. The body was smashed into the ground. I looked away nearly wanting to throw up now. 47

The one who had killed the high knight wore a black cloak. The first look I got at him earlier his hood was down, now it was back up and hard to tell if this was really Azor or not. Knowing my stupid emotions it was probally my imagination. 48

He walked over, "are you alright Ro......Miss." I glared at him still wary and unsure. 49

"My name is Rose. Thank you so much for saving me. I really appreciate it." 50

"Well if you weren't so stupid and trying to get yourself killed by coming here then I wouldn't of needed to save you." His voice was cold. Deffinatly not Azor he was never that mean to me, or anyone else for that matter. 51

I nodded, "Sorry I'll be more careful from now on." I glared at his shadowed face. Why did heros always have to be in costumes and hiding themselves. 52

"Why, why were you here any way, Rose." 53

"It's none of your buisness." I stretched my wings and flew down. So that plan had failed, but I had promised myself I would find a way to bring Azor back, or kill myself. Living without him was getting to be to hard to deal with. 54

I dance in the sky, the sun shinning on my back. I thought about my options again: kill myself and be with Azor or make a deal with someone else to bring Azor back. What if he didn't want to be back though. Was I being that selfish to not consider that but I wasn't exactly ready to die yet eaither. 55

I continued my sky dancing while thinking about this. Why had I wanted to be free then. It was no good now. If I had just stayed quiet and delt with my punishments and figured out my own way to survive everything would be fine now. 56

I finally decided I had a third option. I would return to the prison cell. I would be quiet, take my punishments as they came, and suffer for what I had done. After all that is what I deserved. 57

I flew back to the prison. The sun was begining to set as I headed to the door. I flung the door open with such force it nearly slammed the cold hard stoned wall. I walked in making my way down the halls to Aranions room. I walked in quietly almost to quietly. I made my way to the bed and he didn't flinch. 58

"Hello Aranion. It's Rose your old little prisoner. I ran......flew away a year ago when your son set me free. The sun you killed. But now I'm back, if you still want me here."59

He jumped awake smiling like a little child on Christmas. He grabbed my wrist making new bruise marks. "How do I know you are telling the truth. Prove it to me?" I stared at him confused. "Get into uniform and let the guards cut your wings." 60

I nodded spinning my wings around myself and changing while I was hidden. I now stood in uniform as two guards entered both holding swords. Did these people ever hear of scalpels, scissors, knives, or anything other than swords. 61

They grabbed me behind the back and began trimming my wings. When they were finished they threw me into my old cell. I found my diary right where I had left it the morning before I had made my escape. 62

I began writing in it. Planning not only my new escape, but a way to take down this place. No one else would suffer in here. Even if it killed me to do this it would not kill anyone after me. I smiled to myself as the pen started scratching the plan onto the paper.