More of Love Bite

“Can I see what you’re writing”? Asked Courtney.1

“NOO!” Shouted Nikola as she quietly covered the notebook she was writing in with her hands and pulled it close to her so that no one could see anything. 2

Courtney was Nikola’s best friend. They had been friends since 1st grade and now they were both sophomores and still friends. They had a lot of their firsts together; first concert, first drive in movie, first camping trip with friends, first beach house vacation and first crushes. Though they shared lots of things together and talked every night on the phone, Nikola never shared her true feelings with her. Nikola was tall, slim and on the darker side of things. Her hair is a dyed black, long and curly while Courtney, who is slightly pudgy, has medium blonde hair and big brown eyes. They are nothing alike but they are the best of friends. 3

Both girls were hanging out in Nikola’s room that she shares with her little sister Ellie. Courtney is sprawled out along Nikola’s bed texting guys on her cell phone and Nikola’s writing in her notebook like she usually does. She carried her notebook everywhere with her and was constantly doodling or adding little quotes into it. She liked poetry, it felt like the only way to get her feelings out on paper because she constantly felt isolated from everything, or without something, but poetry filled that hole deep inside her, the hole of nothing. Ever since she began 8th grade Nikola had changed dramatically. She used to be the kind of girl that never worse make-up and always wore bright pink and things with sparkles. Then she woke up a completely different kind of person. Now she circled her eyes in dark, smoky eyeliner and wore dark colors or things with skulls. What everyone would call emo, she just called herself. She hated labels almost as much as she hated people that acted fake for attention, and that’s why she had changed. She was sick of being just like everyone around her and putting herself out there so much. 4

Somethings breaking, breaking apart5

Im feeling so alone and empty6

And so very far7

There's nothing to grab onto8

To keep me from falling apart9

Maybe God is up there10

But I know hes laughing at me now11

Cuz I gave up on trying12

To believe in him somehow13

And ever since I gave up14

Ive been one big disaster15

Living just by breathing16

With nothing Im after17