Venting, If you will ._.

Darkness.1

Where does darkness ever end?2

When the moonlight glints off the sparkling blade that is soon to be surged by red?3

When the sunlight blinds the eyes of the young girl that is forced to push herself through another day?4

When the artificial light shines off the mirror that shows the fat beast in the mirror as she tries and dresses for school?5

Or is it when the fluorecent lighting of the school shines off her tears as she is running to the bathroom to throw up her lunch that they made her eat while the kids at the table glared at her, calling her fat and mocking her?6

Oh I know, Maybe it's when her "Friends" think that they can shead the light on the subject, making her feel better by saying things they don't mean?7

The one thing about this darkness, is that it never does end.8

No matter what light may come into the picture, It never ceases to blind, choke and consume.9

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X-Sighs-X11

Look carefully,12

Stare right into me,13

What are you seeing?14

Can you bear to tell me what you see?15

Do you see a friend?16

Do you see a foe?17

Can you see what they do?18

Or do you really know?19

Can you see the scars?20

Can you see the slashes?21

Can you see the stains of blood?22

Can you see the lashes?23

Do you see the "Emotionally Unstable" soul they do?24

Can I count you on that list too?25

Do you know when it begins?26

Can you tell me where it ends?27

The only that you can say,28

Is that I always turn the help away.29

Do you know the whole truth about the girl in hiding?30

Do you know the real story about her falling apart from the binding?31

Do you know about the father she was born to?32

Do you know about the awful things he used to do?33

Can you see why she's been so defensive?34

Can you blame her for seeing everything as offensive?35

Do you watch her hide from the kids at school?36

The ones that take a look at her and decide she isn't cool?37

Can you see the look on their faces?38

When they saw the bruises in all the places?39

Do you dare blame her for lashing out?40

With her mind in a fog and her heart left in doubt?41

Have you looked even deeper than that?42

To watch her look in the mirror and see nothing but fat?43

Can you watch her try to take the pills?44

To be disappointed when they wear off before they can kill?45

Can you watch her tear herself apart?46

Trying too hard to stop her heart?47

The drugs never work and the blades grow old,48

Will you hold her hand while her blood grows cold?49

Take the knife from her back and cut her apart,50

Take the blade from her wrist and pierce her heart.51

Take the dagger from the bedroom and let it sink in,52

Take the chains from the table and lash them across her skin.53

Pull her last breath from her while she whispers your name,54

Pull her last breath from her while a single tear falls in the same,55

Listen as she breaths her last breath of the world,56

Watch as she fades into darkness unfurled.57

Listen to the wheeze of blood in her throat,58

Look at the weariness of her fleshy coat,59

When you get down to it she has starved herself thin,60

Trying to be accepted, for once wanting to fit in.61

Alone for so long she has fallen out of place,62

You can tell by the dark circles and bruises that mark up her face.63

Death come quickly and heart be still,64

For the poor little weakling who has bled herself ill.65

As you rest in bed but struggle to sleep,66

You think of her and her last desperate weep.67

“To all of you that just can’t understand,68

Why I am the monster I am, 69

It all began quickly and all began fast,70

I never was made to attempt to last.71

To those of which I was gruesomely slaughtered,72

To those of which I was their daughter,73

To those that think it was an untimely event,74

To those that think my days were well spent.75

Do you see what I really was?76

A suicidal time bomb and all just because,77

For hours I would treat myself bad,78

Because I was hated by myself and my dad.79

To all of those who actually express sorrow,80

In knowing that you can’t snub me tomorrow,81

I’m sorry that I ruined all your fun,82

But tomorrow my revenge will have begun.83

You all should look into a mirror,84

And let your heartbeats quicken in fear,85

For while you dress up with your makeup and nice coats,86

I’ll be right behind you with a knife to your throat.87

Let’s see how you all can cope with the gashes,88

The stabs and the sneers and the self inflicted gashes,89

Can you handle it as long as I did?90

If not, can you say I was a cowardly kid?91

For years I was fighting a monster you see,92

The monster that lived deep inside of me,93

And for all you that say “PFF Monster’s aren’t real,94

Try living my life and see how you feel”95

With that your body relaxes and your eyes close,96

But deep inside your mind always knows,97

That even though you’re a hero for getting rid of her,98

Deep inside you’re a murderer.