I love you

Her eyes were full of tears, trying to read the blurred words on the pages of her book,...Unsuccessful, she closed it and began to speak to herself in a sorrowful manner..."Why can't I sleep...? I have to be up in five hours..." She sighed and laid the book on her bedside table and slipped beneath the covers, after she hesitantly turned off the dim lamp. I watched from the corner of the lightless room, as her breathing became shallow; her body giving way to sleep. Tears wanted to fill my eyes, but I un-intentionally fought them back. "If only I could let her know how I feel" I thought to myself, as tears, once again, threatened to fall from my grey eyes..."There's no way I could let her know I'm here"...All I could do is watch as she slept, her chest rising in falling with every breath she took...I hoped she was dreaming of me. "If I could sleep, my dreams would be of her" I thought again...Ashamed at myself, for not being able to keep her warm as I watched her shivver underneath the blankets in the cold room. And it was as if someone flipped a switch in my mind, when all of the memories came flooding back to me...The beautiful moments we had shared, kissing in the rain, and every other great time we shared together. This helped relieve some of my pain, and stress...The stress that shouldn't have been weighing on my heart...I was stupid for doing this to her...1

The time flew by, faster than I expected, and I held my breath as the mornings light cascaded into her bedroom. The angel opened her eyes, and she layed still, trying to collect her thoughts...A soft knock at the door, told her it was time to go. I watched as a single tear fell down her cheek...And then she began to whisper..."How could you do this to me? How could you run away, when I wanted to run away just as badly as you did? Why couldn't you have stayed here with me,...I loved you, unconditionally...And now, here I am...Dressed and ready to go to your funeral...This is the last time I'll see you...This is the last time you'll recieve those beautiful black roses you love so much...You broke my heart...And now I'm dying..." Tears gave way, as she wiped her eyes...And I hated myself for not being able to cry... 2

I sorrofully watched her leave..."I can't believe I left without telling you how much I loved you...And how much I cared about you..." My final word, before I left forever...She's better off without me...She's better off without the burden of everyday, watching my cry...3

"...I love you..."4