It's just a tiny speck when I wake up,
A little dot of black inside my chest.
It grows as I look in the mirror's glass,
And grows some more as I am getting dressed.1
At breakfast it swells into a balloon.
The silence feeds the anger and the hate.
They cannot see it at the office though,
They only see me if I show up late.2
If I have time to think about myself,
It might fill up my lungs and close my throat.
I push it down a bit so I can speak
I try to make it leave me but it wont.3
By evening when I take off my day clothes,
The black speck has engulfed my body whole.
My heart beats black, my eyes cannot see out.
A selfish evil sits upon my soul. 4
And so, I have no choice. I dress in white,
Bright sequins, colors, stars banish the night.
For once, they see me-- not my skin, but me .
I climb on stage and step into the light.
This is autobiographical--what do you feel is the story behind it?
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i've just read your comment below, and i sooo thought it to be about a drag person to begin with..but i was scared i'd be wrong!!
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lol, I can understand the worry. I'm much more literal in my poems than I probably should be. But I'm glad you liked it!
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Brilliant
I found this poem to be inspirational - admittedly i know it seems about self-esteem etc, but if you cant be yourself with yourself, then who cares what other people think?
I thought the rhyming (if thats how its spelt!)worked really well and it made it flow well!
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I must say that by the title I thought it was gonna be a Rocky Horror tribute since in that film they have a floorshow in the middle of the night. As I read it though to me it seems as if the character in this poem has a longing to be more that what society allows them to be. That sounds really pretentious but you know what I mean. They have these dreams of being spectacular and in the spot light but feel like they are stuck in their nine till five job where no one appreciates them and no one sees beyond their physical appearence. Maybe this person is not all that attractive on the outside and they wish someone could see them for all the colour they have on the inide.
Im probably totally wrong but thats how it came across to me.
X Amber X
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I'm so glad that different people are getting different stories from the poem, it's what I was hoping for. I guess I might as well say, it was specifically about taking part in a drag show and how it frees me from the secrets I have to keep throughout the rest of my life. So, yeah, it is rather Rocky-ish. X)
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At first, I thought it the writer suffers from low self-esteem, but as the poem drew to a close, especially the last verse, I somehow got an inkling that this has to do with 'colour' or race ... maybe that's just me though. It was as if the writer is only 'acknowledged' in white ... maybe I'm just talking nonsense, but nonetheless, I enjoyed the simplicity of the words ...
Well done!. Rewarded 6
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My idea when writing it did have a lot to do with self-esteem, and physical perception...I hadn't even thought of it in terms of race, but I see how that works really well. Thanks!
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I know, I know now! I read someone else's bio on here and found the story I heard that this reminds me of.
Frank E. Peretti wrote a book called This Present Darkness and a companion to it called Piercing the Darkness that uses the same theme in this poem, with a different twist though. Thanks for reminding me that I need to put these books on my reading list. They are both about spiritual warfare. -
This is very good, and sounds very similar to a novel I've heard about, but not read yet. Dang it! I can't remember the author's name either. The black spot in the heart is a part of the main plot.
Other than that, I'd have to say that when people allow things of the Enemy to creep into their lives, the darkness of heart grows bigger and bigger, unless the person uses the authority God gave to cast it away, to cast the Enemy away. Submit to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
God bless you.
Beth
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Sounds like the Scarlet Letter, though I know it's not.
Thanks for reading, and for actually considering it! And for looking at my other stuff. You rock! I'ma go look at your stuff now.
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