Wedding Night

Our Wedding Night1

I’m left alone for the first time today. Finally all our wedding festivities are now completed. I breathed in deeply, wishing in a way that time would stop. Wanting somehow for this moment to be frozen in time. 2

My wedding has taken a toll on me. I'd never realized how much there was to do to prepare for a wedding. I've actually grown weary and the wedding night is yet to come.3

Now had came the time for me to be made ready for my husband, "yet am I ready," I thought to myself? This is the beginning of a new journey for me. No longer will I be a child. I'll finally become a woman; a married woman!4

It seems my fear of failure has crept back in. Lost in my thoughts, I think to myself, "what will I do if I cannot please this man?" My heart feeling heavy in my chest.5

This man I have now taken as my husband, till death do we part, just what if? We hardly know one another, having been an arranged marriage. 6

Standing here, all alone in our room waiting for my new husband to arrive, I find I have tears in my eyes. Such heaviness lies deep within my heart. 7

I start to tremble once again. "Why," I question myself? "Why am I feeling this way? What am I afraid of, after all he is my husband. I had prepared for all of this."8

My hair is still pinned up; still entwined with the wild jasmine flowers I wore for my wedding, small delicate white ones; so beautiful against the darkness of my hair. 9

The fragrances I was bathed in seemed to permeate my skin. I did this in preparation of my husband. 10

Looking around our room now, I see so many treasures and gifts from family and friends.11

Candlelight flickering on the walls, dancing, creating shadows. A lover's paradise, I think to myself feeling a warm blush wash over me. Remembering he will be here soon. 12

Then upon the door I heard a knock. My body stiffened with fear. My heart was racing and my breath came in short gasps almost choking me! I barely could manage to whisper, "who is it?" The words seem to stick in my throat.13

"It is I," a tender, yet deep and masculine voice replied from behind the door," your loving husband." 14

"I've come to claim you, my wife," he stated so respectfully. His voice seemed to calm me so.15

"Then you may enter," I say to him. Almost hesitating from my fear. Unsure of what the night held.16

As I stood back, I watched him enter, feeling an array of mixed feelings beseeching me. Unable to move as the heavy door swung open wide. 17

I am mesmerized by each step he boldly takes, bringing himself closer to me. He shows no fear. I am amazed, for it seems I'd married a brave man. 18

As he entered the room, my heart began pounding so hard. I was almost sure he could hear it's beats.19

I took a deep breath to slow it. But here I was, alone and standing near a corner hiding in the darkness of the room, still trembling so. Somehow I felt safe there. 20

Light from the candles were flickering and dancing like magic upon the walls and as I looked into his eyes I saw the flames dancing there. Almost as if I could see love and tenderness emitting from his eyes.21

My husband; this man I barely know, walks toward me and reaches forth his hand once again.22

I notice, in the reflections of the candle light, he has also changed his clothing; he has removed his wedding clothes and now comes to me draped only in dark blue silk pajamas tied with a golden sash. 23

I instinctively respond to him by reaching my hand out and placing it into his. Taking my hand so gently in his, I felt somewhat embarrassed, for I know he must feel my trembling. 24

But then I noticed upon my finger the ring he'd earlier placed upon my finger, making us husband and wife.25

He stands there, looking deeply into my eyes, as if he were searching for the reason I was trembling. He must of knew it was because I was a virgin. Suddenly I felt as if he somehow was piercing my soul, extracting the answer he sought. 26

With his eyes looking into mine, the softness of his deep voice, I find myself able to calm down. 27

He then gently, with such ease, he takes his hand and cups my face. He pulls me ever so gently toward him. Again, he looks deep into my eyes and kisses me! With my body stiff, my first urge was to run, but then, my body gives in.28

A moan escapes my lips as he ignites a fire of intense passion. It seemed to travel to the core of my being, reaching deep inside my very soul. 29

I closed my eyes at first, surrendering in whole to his kiss. I was feeling my body losing all it's control and succumbing to his. 30

As I look back deeply into his fiery dark eyes, I was mesmerized by the intense desire he held for me. I watched as the reflections of flames flickering from the candles. That mixed with the fragrances, and the new feelings inside my body had intoxicated my all and wonder does he feel the same?31

Ever so gently he places his lips upon mine, caressing my lips with his; almost as if he was tasting a fine wine. 32

Running his tongue ever so lightly, doing so, somewhat teasingly across mine. As he does this, the intensity of the kiss increases to heights I would of never been able to imagine. 33

I am now so filled with such a wild passion, something I had never known. "Is this it," I wondered to myself. 34

I returned his hungry kiss, with a new found need. A feeling of great desire. I felt a sudden need to please him. He leaned me, leaning hard into the kiss. A hungriness upon my lips in which I returned,35

I felt such warmth wash through my body, intensifying my own desire. My body now yearns for his every touch. I ache to feel his body against mine. I want to know this mans touch!36

I think to myself, was this the feeling the young girls were whispering and giggling about? 37

If so, they were so wrong, I laughed inside. This feeling I am experiencing now is nothing to giggle about. 38

My body feels a great warmth, a need to be full filled; my heart is racing in anticipation of what’s to come next. 39

Our passion mounts so forcefully; all this from all from a simple kiss. 40

Oh no, I can in no way describe that as a simple kiss, it was far from a simple kiss. I now know ecstasy will soon be known to me. I will share a great passion with this man. 41

This man now, just saying the words, I felt as if something vibrated through my body; strange feelings I'd never felt, right to the center of my being. I know soon my husband will soon take me as his wife. 42

He then reached behind me, finding the clip in my hair. So slowly and meticulously he unfastening the clip that held my dark, long and thick hair up. 43

I then shook my head, flowers dropped to the floor. I allowed my long dark hair to fall about my shoulders, spilling over my white gown. 44

He so tenderly and lovingly run his fingers through my hair. Teasing with each strand. Raising it to his face, smelling it. A smile creeps across his handsome face.45

It felt was as if he was caressing each and every silky strand of it, partaking such enjoyment from it. Inhaling deeply it's fragrance. I noticed a softness had over came his handsome face.46

So much pleasure I am starting to feel, as he moves from my hair to stroke my neck so slowly with just his fingertips. Each touch leaving behind a trail of hot intense fire. 47

My body shivering, responding in ways of new found desire. Trembling now from all the mixtures of desire he is building inside of me.48

He leans into me as he kisses me once more. His touches so gentle, yet with such an urgency. 49

I could tell he had such desire to take me tonight. A patient man he seemed to be, for it seemed he was forgoing his needs, just to ease my fears. 50

Finding myself also yearning to reach ouch and explore my husbands body, having never seen a male body.51

With him wanting to consummate our marriage and to make me his, he proceeds with such tenderness and patience. 52

Virtues he has drawn upon from the love he has for me. He truly seems to love me, regardless of the fact we had an arranged marriage. 53

My body melting, giving way to his caresses. We seem to melt together, blending as if we were one. Our hands intermingling.54

With our kiss remaining unbroken, he reaches to untie my gown. For now, I was only aware of his lips upon mine. The room seem to spin, time stood still. 55

As he breaks our kiss, my gown falls open, exposing my nude body to him. He seemed so pleasured by this, my breasts heaving from breathing so hard. 56

He kissed me once again, his tongue parting my lips, sliding his hands under the gown, now caressing the curves and shapes of my young body. 57

My skin on fire from each touch, as if I was being awakened from a long sleep. My breathing becoming so ragged. 58

I am now learning what it feels like to be touched by a man. The gentleness, with the urgency that follows.59

He then breaks our kiss and steps back. I am puzzled as look into his face, unsure of why he stopped. Had I done something wrong. 60

Was I not pleasing my husband. Thoughts ran rapidly though my mind. I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do. Maybe I responded in a vulgar way. Then, I received my answer.61

He placed his hands upon my shoulders, caressing them so. Lifting my gown completely away from my body, dropping it onto the floor. I am so filled with desire, I truly had not noticed62

My breasts were swollen with such need to be touched by him. The nipples hard and dark, rosy in color. 63

Just then, he come very close to me. So close his silk top brushed lightly across the tip of my breast, bringing forth another sensation. I felt such a jolt! 64

It seemed like sparks shot throughout my body. He looked down at me, his face glowing, filled with such desire.65

Slipping his arms around me and kissing me once again, his tongue parted my lips. In return, my tongue went searching for his. 66

His arms then separated. He placed one upon my shoulder and slid the other down my naked back, caressing all that he touched, making my back arch forward. 67

I did so, as an offering of my body to him. I was ready to please him.68

He whisk me up off the ground, holding me in his arms. I notice too, at this time, his breathing is uneven and somewhat raspy. 69

He then leaned forward once again, into a far more demanding kiss than before, taking me with such intensity, forcing me backwards while carrying me to our bed. 70

Gently he lays me in the middle. I am at his mercy. I now want what he wants. I need what he needs.71

He watches me, my every reaction; his eyes burning with unleashed and unbridled passion.72

He lays next to me, just watching me. Looking up and down my body as if he'd never saw a woman naked before. 73

He reached over and brushed my hair from my face while looking deep into my eyes, searching deep into my soul. 74

I felt as if he was asking, was I ready to become his wife? I thought to myself, oh yes, I am ready. 75

I am so on fire from you many touches! I am also so willing to learn to please him in every way I can. 76

With each and every touch, every stroke upon my body, he was bringing me closer to an impending rapture, total ecstasy. 77

He touched my body with such a need, one I'd never known. I was now relaxed and succumbing to each touch, my back arching to meet his body, my legs parting, inviting him to take me. I was his wife.78

He runs his hands down my hips. I shiver; he seems so pleasured by my reactions. I indeed was finding pleasure in all he did.79

Our bodies finally united, entwined together, becoming as one. There reflected in the candlelight.80

He as my husband, now making me, as his wife in every way. A feeling of rapture overtakes the both of us. Total completion had been found.81

Now laying here in his arms, he soothes me, for our breathing was still ragged, our bodies still feeling the fires that burned so deeply. I am now sure I pleased him.82

As the candles burned out, I watched as he fell asleep, remembering the moments of the night. 83

With a smile upon my face, I soon found myself falling asleep too. But not before I whispered something I had not felt before, I whispered to my husband, I love you! Somehow I just know I love this man. 84

While drifting to sleep, I take and I hold his large strong hand in mine. I now know what a man’s body feels like. 85

The warmth of the touches, as they burn fire into your skin. The pleasure from the combination of a man and woman’s bodies.86

As I dream, I realize all of the wonders I'd found tonight. Our bodies being immersed in a fiery passion, joined together as one. 87

Such gratification from my body rising to meet his in an unison. Feelings of total completion, as I his lover and his wife. 88

I had experienced such ecstasy tonight, a total fulfillment of what it is to be a woman. To feel all this passion for the first time in my life as we come together as lovers. 89

For tonight I was his. I was his wife, he my husband. I just love the way that sounds! I have learned of pleasures, that are far beyond my imagination. 90

My body still all aglow, yet totally satisfied. Our heavy breathing, almost musical, as if a prelude to a lover’s melody. 91

I wish our wedding night could last forever. As I lay here basking in his arms, filled with total euphoria. 92

I awakened for a moment, hearing him breathing next to me. I turn to look into his face. Still holding his hand in mine, my husbands hand, that had taught me the pleasures of being a woman. A total completion.93

As I drift off, I think to myself, how much I want to feel like this all of the time. While feeling such an urgency to learn even more, I fall asleep.94

On that night, unknown to us, I conceived our son and did so with great love. That was the beginning of our long life together as husband and wife. 95