Way Too Much About Aivery Schafer (Done, Finally!)

Part 1: The Basics1

1. What is your full name?
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Aivery Schafer. I guess I didn't need a middle name…?2

2. Where and when were you born?
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November 17th, 1992 in Owen Sound, Ontario, though I moved to Toronto when I was about six.3

3. Who are/were your parents? (Know their names, occupations, personalities, etc.)
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My dad's George. I'm not exactly sure what he does… He tried to explain it to me once, but and plays on the computer half the time.
He tries his best to make sure I'm happy and comfortable, and he's pretty understanding about most stuff. He liked to know where I was, just to make sure I was okay. I had to call him if I'm about to be late, or something, but as long as he knew I was fine he almost didn't care what I did, as long as I stayed sober and could get to school in the morning.
Mom is Pamela something. I don't know if she changed her name back after we left, and I don't really want to ask her. I haven't really been here long enough to sneak a look at her mail, or anything. She works in a restaurant with these stupid little uniforms, but she gets to bring stuff home and their garlic bread is good. She still has the house we lived in, and Dad still sends her money so she doesn't need the best job ever, obviously.
She's okay as a mom, I guess. She could be worse, but she's kind of like a kid. She tries too hard sometimes, just to get me to like her. I think she forgets that she's my mom and that should be enough.4

4. Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like?
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There's Aileena. She's only two years older than me, but she's… really intimidating. Like… whoa. She's smart, and really cynical. She's going through this 'mad at the world' thing, where she hates dad for leaving her behind, and hates me for getting to go with him, and hates mom for being so prissy and childish.
It sucks because we used to be friends when we were little. Dad said all the time that she 'enjoyed having me'.5

5. Where do you live now, and with whom? Describe the place and the person/people.
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Since about ten months ago, I live in Owen Sound with Pam and Aileena. It's okay, but I'd rather be in Toronto with dad and my old friends. It's hard here, because it's a smaller city with a bigger house (which is creepy-empty when I'm alone) and Pam had the great idea of sending me to a private high school. The uniforms are alright, but I'd rather not wear them every day, no matter how classy they are. I've met people, but they're not really as open-minded as my old friends, and everyone's pretty clique-ish. It's kind of unnerving.6

6. What is your occupation?
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I am a student. I applied to jobs back in Toronto, but I had to move here before I got any callbacks.7

7. Write a full physical description of yourself. You might want to consider factors such as: height, weight, race, hair and eye color, style of dress, and any tattoos, scars, or distinguishing marks.
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I am boring. And short.
I'm only about 5'7" (but I'm only 16 and my dad's 5'11" so there's about 4 inches of hope). I have kinda wavy darkish brown hair (which I straighten) that's sort of jaw length, and when I last went to get it trimmed, she may have layered it. I have brown eyes, and in summer if I'm out a lot I can get a nice tan. I can get awfully pasty in December, though…;.; I'm skinny. You can see my ribs when I lift my arms. When I'm not wearing a top, I mean. If I were to get a tattoo, I'd get something quirky, like a barcode on the back of my neck, or my own logo. But I probably wouldn't get one…
I really like hoodies. I have them separated into winter hoodies and spring/fall hoodies based on fabric thickness. I have enough to properly coordinate them with almost every other item of clothing I own. I also have a bunch of those jelly bracelet things form when they were big in grade six. I didn't actually buy them, though… Chelsea gave me a bunch. They're pretty cool. They match all my hoodies~8

8. To which social class do you belong?
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Depends. Dad's place or Pam's place?
Dad is middle class, I'm guessing. Whatever the condo is. It's not like one of those fancy penthouse things, either – it's got two rooms with the common space between them, and a kitchen and laundry room. And bathrooms.
Pam's is definitely upper-class. My bedroom's HUGE, and I have tons of space even with the little-kid stuff still there. The roof in the front entrance is so high… It's as big as I remember, which is crazy, 'cause I've grown since then.9

9. Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses?
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I'm allergic to cats and strawberries. I have low iron so can't give blood. When I was little they had to double-rinse my clothes and not use dryer sheets because of sensitive skin, but I'm over that now…10

10. Are you right or left-handed?
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I'm right-handed, like most people. I tried to write with my left hand a lot in fifth grade and I may have been getting better, but then I gave up.11

11. What does your voice sound like?
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…Okay? I don't have a particularly deep voice, but it's not high and nasal, either. Imagine the voice of a normal guy, except a prettier face to go with it~ 12

12. What words and/or phrases do you use very frequently?
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"Sort of" and "Kinda". Also "Um…" and audio ellipses (which masquerade as awkward silences)13

13. What do you have in your pockets?
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Folded up song lyrics. I like to print off words to songs that I just downloaded, so I can learn them better. There's money in there occasionally, for the times when I can't eat the lunch Pam makes or I don't bring my own, and sometimes there's candy, but usually I eat it all.14

14. Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics?
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I haven't eaten meat since I was six. Um… the inside of my wrists and the palms of my hands are super-sensitive. They also get itchy and strange if I'm nervous or scared, or stay up too long. You'll see me roll up my sleeves a lot, especially if I'm writing, and push bracelets up, too. Watches make me feel weird, so I never wear one. I use my graphing calculator to tell time.
I'm definitely gay, possibly transgender. (I'm working on that…) I think that would count as a defining characteristic.
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Part 2: Growing Up16

15. How would you describe your childhood in general?
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Good enough. Besides the divorce and the move, I got to live with my best friend (Aileena!) for about six years, and after I moved I met more. Dad worked really hard to get me into school and activities and talk to me a lot so I wouldn't feel lonely away from Leena and Pam. I owe him a lot for that, because I'm not bitter, I guess…17

16. What is your earliest memory?
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Playing picnic with Leena. We'd grab all our toys and go to the backyard and drink invisible tea.18

17. How much schooling have you had?
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I'm still in high school. I'm in grade eleven right now… I think I will fail physics. 19

18. Did you enjoy school?
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I liked it better in Toronto. For one thing, no uniforms. For another thing, I had friends that I've lived with for, like, eleven years. I've had to start making friends all over again, and it's so much harder in high school when you don't share the same backstories.20

19. Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities?
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I took piano lessons from seven up until thirteen until I got too cool and quit. That was stupid, 'cause I write my own stuff now and wish I had stuck with it. I remember a lot of stuff I did during lessons, but every so often I have to dig up the theory or chords books just to get something down.21

20. While growing up, did you have any role models? If so, describe them.
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My grade 6 music teacher. Even when everyone was stuck practicing the recorder, he recognized my piano talent and gave me extra challenges. He fed my love for music, and even though he was bitterly disappointed when I quit lessons, we still kept talking through the rest of grade school and kept in contact until about grade ten. I still have his email. 22

21. While growing up, how did you get along with the other members of your family?
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I got along fine. Everybody loved me.23

22. As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
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Um… a bird-catcher. I was like, four.24

23. As a child, what were your favourite activities?
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Going to the park with Leena, Playing hide-and-seek with Leena, Playing snakes-and-ladders with the family (not just Leena!) and, um… 'Aivery-Checkers.' This game involved me breaking the rules whenever I felt like it, and winning every time.25

24. As a child, what kinds of personality traits did you display?
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I was naïve, inquisitive, dreamt big and tended to form strong bonds. It's kinda like me now, except I was kinda shy if I didn't know any of the people I was surrounded by.26

25. As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like?
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Uh… no? No one's popular in grade school. There's only about twenty-two kids in a class. I was mostly friends with everyone, but in grade seven, there were some girls I wasn't allowed to talk to… I didn't have any actual enemies, though… so in a way I was popular?27

26. When and with whom was your first kiss?
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Girl-kiss? Grade seven. Lily asked if she could and I was all 'sure, why not?' But then Chelsea got mad when Lily was bragging about it after, so she said I wasn't allowed to talk to her or her friends. And Chelsea's cooler, anyways.
Boy-kiss? Jamie when we went to his house after the grade ten English exam. 28

27. Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity?
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Yes. Yes, I am.29

28. If you are a supernatural being (i.e. mage, werewolf, vampire), tell the story of how you became what you are or first learned of your own abilities. If you are just a normal human, describe any influences in your past that led you to do the things you do today.
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I do what I do to keep my friends and not get into fights. Dad and Pam’s breakup showed me that 1. fighting sucks and 2. you’ll lose people that way, whether or not you’re the ones fighting. I try to avoid it, if I can…
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Part 3: Past Influences 31

29. What do you consider the most important event of your life so far?
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The divorce. It was a huge pivot-point for a lot of things, and I guess if I was miles away, my life would have turned out a lot differently.32

30. Who has had the most influence on you?
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Dad, 'cause he raised me, practically. Between him and my friends, and their parents (which I only sorta know) he was there the longest and did the most work to make sure I was happy.33

31. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
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Coming out to my friends in Toronto. Passing physics.34

32. What is your greatest regret?
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Coming out to one of my Owen Sound friends.35

33. What is the most evil thing you have ever done?
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In grade ten, this kid kept following Krys around after school and calling her house trying to get her to go out with him. When that didn't work, he started to call her mean names and talked about her. He had the same last period gym-class as me, and when he was in the shower I stole all his stuff (clothes, towel, bag… you name it) and chucked them in the outside dumpster. 36

34. Do you have a criminal record of any kind?
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No Not yet… *evilgrin*37

35. When was the time you were the most frightened?
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I was six years old and it was a couple weeks after the move and Dad thought it was a great idea to bring me to a shop where you could pick your own chickens. You know… like to eat? But I had never really thought about where meat comes from, and it kind of… woke me up. I cried alot…38

36. What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you?
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Getting caught by my dad when Jamie had his hand up my skirt.39

37. If you could change one thing from your past, what would it be, and why?
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See No. 36. But only the 'getting caught' part.40

38. What is your best memory?
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From when? There are alot of things to pick from… To be fair, I guess, I’ll say the day after grade 8 grad, when the four of us went cloud-watching in the back field like little kids. We were all worried we’d get split up and go to different high schools (even though in the end we didn’t). I guess I count it as a ‘best’ memory (opposed to like… “when I’ve been most happy”) because we were together then and even though we were all sad and nervous, we pulled through ‘cause we were cool like that.41


39. What is your worst memory?
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Not knowing what was happening when Dad drove us away from Leena and Pam, packed bags in trunk. I remember being very weepy the first few nights after we left, and wanting to go back 'home' and asking when Mommy and Leena were going to come with us. It was hard to sleep in the motel beds, too…
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Part 4: Beliefs And Opinions42

40. Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic?
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It depends on what. Some things, I find, are dead set wrong, or just never going to happen. Others, I'm really hopeful about. Though I usually, try to see the best in everyone and everything unless I'm proven wrong…43

41. What is your greatest fear?
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That dad will disown me because of my sexuality. That Leena will never get over Dad choosing me and will hate me forever.44

42. What are your religious views?
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I don't really have 'religious' views. Religion is kind of exclusive and hypocritical. I just think that you should try your best to be nice and not hate. Hate is the embodiment of death and therefore the antithesis to life.
*swoons* Whoa… smart moment.
Ha.45

43. What are your political views?
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I'd vote for NDP (in Canada) or… Democrats in the U.S. if I got the chance. I don’t have much of a head for politics, but I think Obama's got a revolutionary thing going there, with the whole 'not bribing the overlords for campaign ads'.46

44. What are your views on sex?
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How far you go should depend on how much you're in love. It's kind of sad, I think, if you don't love the person you're doing, or at least you're not friends, or something.47

45. Are you able to kill? Under what circumstances do you find killing to be acceptable or unacceptable?
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I don't think I would. But if I had to, like if someone hurt my friends or something, I hope I would be able to. But otherwise, I couldn't.48

46. In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do?
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Kill someone's baby.49

47. Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love?
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No. I mean, you can get close, but you always have to work at it or you'll never get anything to keep going forever.50

48. What do you believe makes a successful life?
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Love and money. Maybe partying?51

49. How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings (i.e. do you hide your true self from others, and in what way)?
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I like to be around people I can trust, so that's never really an issue. When I meet new people I'm a bit quiet, but I can usually think of some non-committal nonsense to spew.52

50. Do you have any biases or prejudices?
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Seriously quiet people unnerve me, and people with weird voices and cocky attitudes. But I'm trying to get over the quiet people thing; the other two are just annoying.53

51. Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it?
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Two things: 1. Sex for money and 2. Funny little pills.
Like I said, sex should be only for people who love each other. I can't imagine not loving the person you're with, and the people who are stuck in a lifestyle like that should never have to. There should be another way.
Also – the first (the only) time I did weird pills it was at one of Chelsea's older friend's house. I imagined spiders crawling in my hands and into my veins for hours. It was not fun. I can feel them if I don't get enough sleep. 54

52. Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)?
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My Dad. Jamie. Krys. Krys because I've known her longest and she's stuck with me through everything. Also, she'd beat people up for me if I wanted (which I never have. Lucky them. But it’s nice to have insurance). Jamie because he helped me discover myself, and he never judges me, which means a lot.55

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Part 5: Relationships With Others57

53. In general, how do you treat others (politely, rudely, by keeping them at a distance, etc.)? Does your treatment of them change depending on how well you know them, and if so, how?
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At a first impression, I'm always nice, but I wouldn't tell them my life story, or anything. I know a lot of people but only a few of them are my friends, and those four are privileged to a whole lot more. They probably know most of the stuff on this questionnaire… except question 36.58

54. Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
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Right now? Probably Jamie. I came out to him first, and he was going through the same stuff, too. We fool around, but that's never messed with our friendship, and we told out friends about us at the same time, too. Because of him, my life was had a lot less high pressure than it could have. 59

55. Who is the person you respect the most, and why?
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Dad. I mean… he practically raised me by myself, and had to leave behind Leena and almost all of his entire life savings (well, up to when I was six) to placate my mom. I bet it was really hard for him, but even though it was I never really understood that until recently, because he did such a good job keeping my environment positive and under control. Even when he was struggling to find jobs and get us a place to live I was in school and had neat activities and playdates and stuff.60

56. Who are your friends? Do you have a best friend? Describe these people.
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First, my Toronto friends in order of appearance:
Krys: (It's short for 'Krystelle', but she hates it. It's like… Kris-TELL) I met her in grade two, and she's my best friend of all time. She has long, straight hair that she dyes black, and tends to dress towards the punkish, moody side, with fingerless gloves and all that neat stuff. She can be a bit cold to most people, but if you get closer, she's just cynical. She's ultra-defensive, though. She's just one of those people who you're glad are on your side.
Ron: I met him in grade two, too, and he was Krys' friend then, because their parents had playdates for a few years, and Ron was too energetic for most of the other kids to stand. He has bright red hair that he does in spikes, and only sometimes pays attention to how he dresses. One day he'll be really cool, but then the other you think he may be colour blind. He tends to pull it off, though, because he's so crazy anyways. He's a bit like Krys in that he's ultra-defensive, and he'll get into fights easily.
Jamie: I met him in grade five. We needed an extra person for four-square, I think, and no one else was free. Krys forced him to play, and we stayed friends after that. I'm thankful to her, because he was so quiet the first few days that I wouldn't have talked to him otherwise. He's always been tall and sort of lanky, and he's about 5'11" or 6' now. He has nondescript brownish hair and he's kind of reserved, and then he's got these electric blue eyes that are almost unnatural.
Chelsea: I met her in grade six. Another new kid, she was just really preppy, but not in a stuck-up way. She had cool hair, like kinda short with spikes in the back and highlights. Her and Lily didn't get along, but the rest of us did. I think she started hanging out with us because she had a crush on me, but we all got to know each other better and got to be really good friends.
People I hang out with in Owen Sound:
There are Finn, Erin, Cora and Dale. They're okay. Finn kind of looks like Jamie, except his eyes are brown and I think his reservedness is probably just him being clueless. Erin dresses emo (she has cool hair!!), but she's happy and feeds me sometimes. Cora has a physique like a dancer or one of those under-weight gymnasts (even though I'm sure she isn't) and gets her hair done (like, cut, dyed… the works) like once or twice a month. I don't know how to describe Dale, really. I don't think anryone does.
There are a few people who hang out with us that I don't really know (Laura, Hannah, Toby) and Toby is… awful. I don't know how he's Finn's friend. I don't even know why I mentioned him in this question.61

57. Do you have a spouse or significant other? If so, describe this person.
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Jamie's my… somewhat complicated friend with benefits. I guess he'd be my 'boyfriend' as far as literal terms go, but not by usual standards. We haven't gone, like, 'out' or anything. I'd trust him with my life, though, and if it weren't for the occasional makeout or whatever and the fact that Krys already is, he'd be my best friend.
Even though we're not actually 'dating' (because laser-tag and pizza with three other people would *not* count) there's no way I'd drop him to get real dates with any other guy, or do what we do with any other friend. It's just 'cause 'friends with benefits' sounds like we're just with each other until something better comes along because we're good enough friends to understand that, or something… That's not the way it is at all. Like I said, I'd probably die for him, which is more than what I could say for most people.62

58. Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened.
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Jamie, I guess. There's nothing passion-hot, but there's something important and unbreakable there, I'd like to think. We've known each other since grade five.63

59. What do you look for in a potential lover?
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Friendship, at least. I'd say 'smokin' hotness' but you can't have everything.64

60. How close are you to your family?
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Which parts? I mean, I'm close with my dad. Pam's just… distant, even when I moved there. She doesn't know a thing about me, and it shows. Leena doesn't *want* to know anything about me, which kind of kills me, but it's… understandable, y'know? I hope she gets over it, though.65

61. Have you started your own family? If so, describe them. If not, do you want to? Why or why not?
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No, 'cause I'm too young. Yes, 'cause it would be neat to share my infinite knowledge. Maybe I'll skip, like, conventional child-obtaining and just clone myself. Could you imagine little Aivery-clones running all over? That would be the coolest thing ever. 66

62. Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help?
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Krys or my Dad. Dad has connections and Krys, like, dropkicks people.67

63. Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why?
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Krys, Dad, Jamie. Because they're level-headed, and think with their minds, too. You know I'd protect them with everything I've got, and I'm hoping the feeling's mutual. Nothing against Ron and Chelsea, but Ron acts like he's constantly on speed and Chelsea's too much like me sometimes. That's *bad*68

64. If you died or went missing, who would miss you?
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All the people back in Toronto.69

65. Who is the person you despise the most, and why?
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Toby. He's stupid and cocky (opposed to something better, like… smart and cocky) and after I told Finn and told him not to tell anyone about me being gay he went and told Toby, which is the worst person imaginable EVER to go spilling a life secret to. Of course, Toby's not going to keep that quiet because he's stupid and cocky. He didn't have a reason to hate me before, but now he does. He didn't even have a chance to get to know me (not that I'd let him) before he decides to ruin my life.
He likes to steal things and talk about me, so I can't go anywhere without watching to make sure no one's, like, standing around the corner or something to jump me, just 'cause Toby told them shit. Let's not forget – everyone here's known each other since at least grade nine, so no one's gonna stand in the way of their friend if they want to fuck with the new kid. 70

66. Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?
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I'll argue for what's right, or what I feel strongly against, but otherwise I won't pick fights just for the hell of it. I know I couldn't hold my own.71

67. Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?
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What? Like… "Hey, guys, let's go to the park!" When no one else can think of something? Or maybe "Let's not beat up that guy because he's not worth it"? Well, as far as the first one goes, Yeah, I guess. Though I usually pick laser tag and Ron usually picks the park. As far as important things go, (i.e. second example) it's probably Krys talking down Ron, or Ron talking down Krys. They're tightest, and the rest of us kind of balk at anything having to do with actual fights.72

68. Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Why or why not?
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It doesn't matter, really. As long as I can drag someone with me I'm okay. Most conversations only take place between two or three people anyways.73

69. Do you care what others think of you?
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Yes… My friends not so much (because they don't think that much of me anyways~) but in a way more than anything because if I don't have them I don't have anyone. Same with Dad.
As far as strangers go, I just try not to be on a sugar high when I'm meeting anyone.
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Part 6: Likes And Dislikes
70. What is/are your favourite hobbies and pastimes?
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Music: listening; writing. Webcomics. Indie bands.75

71. What is your most treasured possession?
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My notebook. I don't really take notes… I just write down ideas for poems or whatever (they suck, but meh…) and songs. I write stuff that bothers me, and things I don't want to forget. It even becomes my backup agenda when I loose my school one, so…76

72. What is your favourite color?
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Green. But that's only because of dinosaurs and apple martinis.77

73. What is your favourite food?
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Skittles. Because skittles are a food. They are in the 'Other' section of the FOOD pyramid, and therefore they are a FOOD.78

74. What, if anything, do you like to read?
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Um… books? I don't know. It's hard to find them, but if I can get a good book, I'll be happy for a few days. If I can find an awesome webcomic, I'll do that, too.79

75. What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)?
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My mp3 player with a full battery and a bunch of songs Jamie sent me. He likes everything (which is a lot of things) and it's neat going through the stuff he finds, even though about a third gets deleted… But it's cool if someone ever mentions some obscure band and you're like 'Yeah… yeah, I've heard of that.'80

76. Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If so, why? Do you want to quit?
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I'll drink at parties, so it's only social and there's nothing to quit. I am never doing drugs, though, because of those pills and the spiders. Like… NEVER AGAIN.81

77. How do you spend a typical Saturday night?
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Homework or parties or the movies or hanging. 82

78. What makes you laugh?
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Ron's 'puppy dog eyes' (because he looks kinda possessed), Chelsea being mature (because she fails), Krys attempting sincerity (once again, fail) and Jamie's lame seduction skills. Also, Dinosaur Comics.83

79. What, if anything, shocks or offends you?
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Racism, homophobia, jokes about disabled people, child abuse. Like, what the hell? If you're going to mess with someone, mess with someone who can fight back. If you're going to get pissed at something, get pissed at something you can change.84

80. What would you do if you had insomnia and had to find something to do to amuse yourself?
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Sneak outside, if it was warm enough. Maybe I'd throw rocks at Jamie's window, if I wasn't so far away and could get to his house in under an hour by plane plus lots of driving… Stare at the stars, maybe. Think about stuff. Listen to music. Read. Mope. Eat something, maybe. CANDY.85

81. How do you deal with stress?
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I don't. I like to hide and wallow in it. (Well, not 'like', really.) I'd bite my nails or listen to alternative songs really, really loud. Or cry in secret, unless Chelsea followed me…>.<;;86

82. Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan?
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I go with the flow, I guess. Normally, my life's not that interesting, so if or when I need to adapt I can. I've had to learn how to escape the vengeful, as of late (which not only sucks, but requires quick reflexes and thinking) so I can plan as I go…?87

83. What are your pet peeves?
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People reading over my shoulder, staring at me, trying to cheer me up (unless it involves candy), and tickling me.
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Part 7: Self Images And Etc.89

84. Describe the routine of a normal day for you. How do you feel when this routine is disrupted?
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School day: 1. Wake up 2. Take shower and 3.Get dressed 4.Do hair 5.Eat 6.Brush teeth 7.Go to school 8.Home, or the corner store for slushies. On Fridays, No.8 would be 'Go to Jamie, Krys, Ron, or Chelsea's house' or (in Owen Sound) 'go to Finn's, Dale's, or Cora's.'
Weekends are for sleeping, homework, parties, movies etc…90

85. What is your greatest strength as a person?
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I think with my heart, so I can spread the loooove. I'm trustworthy enough and I hate seeing people sad. 91

86. What is your greatest weakness?
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I think with my heart, so it can get easily broken. (Oooh, double-edged sword.)92

87. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
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I'd say 'my stupid hair' but that's superficial. Instead, I'd say 'the mistakes I made because of trusting someone only because they remind me of someone I love instead of anything substantial.'93

88. Are you generally introverted or extroverted?
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I'm not super-quiet, or anything. I'll be bubbly to anyone, but I might not say anything important.94

89. Are you generally organized or messy?
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I'm just neat enough to find things if I'm looking for them, but sometimes I slack off. 95

90. Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at, and three things you consider yourself to be very bad at.
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I am good at:
1. Cooking. Well, cooking pasta. I do pasta sauce too, like chopping up the actual vegetables and stuff. I put pizza sauce in it…
2. Music. Well, I can't sing to save my life, but I write songs. It would be easier if I could sing because I wouldn't have to show Krys or Chelsea my lyrics.
3. B.S.ing. Well, on English essays. I can make a whole lot of insincerity sound really smart. It's a secret hidden talent of mine.
I am bad at:
1. Talking to Pam or Leena about anything important. Because they got shocked enough when I told them I didn't eat meat. Their brains would explode if I told them I was gay. Funny mental image, but I don't think I can feed myself without someone to drive the bags home from the grocery store.
2. Lying. It's because I don't have that much practice. I wish I did, because then I wouldn't fidget so much.
3. Crying in secret. When I feel like I am about to cry, I have a two-second biological warning before my eyes start going like mad. It's embarrassing as hell and it likes to happen when I can't get away.96

91. Do you like yourself?
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Sometimes. Just not when I'm feeling the consequences of confiding in someone I only knew for half a year.97

92. What are your reasons for being an adventurer (or doing the strange and heroic things that characters do)? Are your real reasons for doing this different than the ones you tell people in public? (If so, detail both sets of reasons...)
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Everyone I ever had, I want to keep. I'm kind of possessive that way, and all my friends that I ever have I intend to keep forever. I'm willing to do almost anything to stop them from being taken away, or leaving me, and let hell come to those who stand in my way. My friends are everything to me, and I'd rather die before letting anyone hurt them.98

93. What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?
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Stay alive, maybe? At least… find a nice someone to spend the rest of my life with. Get 'married' (or whatever they're calling it) and get kids. Or a kid. Or maybe just a cat…99

94. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
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I'd be 22, right? So hopefully in a good college or Uni, studying to be a veterinarian. I'd be living in one of those cheap student-friendly apartments, maybe with my special someone; maybe with just a roomie to split costs with?100

95. If you could choose, how would you want to die?
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Asleep and gently, with no regrets.101

96. If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left.
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I'd get back to dad and apologise. I'd throw the biggest party ever and introduce Pam and Leena to my friends in Toronto. I'd lose my virginity, and it would be good. 102

97. What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death?
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That I was kind and had a lot of friends. Probably that I was trustworthy and caring and loveable and all that, too. Maybe even 'The Greatest Parent Ever'?103

98. What three words best describe your personality?
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1. Compassionate, maybe. I don’t think that's the right word.
2. Protective
3. Naïve (still, unfortunately) but I'm getting over it FAST. 104

99. What three words would others probably use to describe you?
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Which others? Out of Dad and all my Toronto friends, it would all be different. But if they were all to get together and have a 'pick words to describe Aivery' meeting, they'd pick
1. Special, for lack of a better phrase. The 'important' kind of special. Like, special kid, special friend, and special friend with benefits who is deeply cared for.
2.Uncommon. As in 'one-of-a-kind' except only one word. There won't ever be anyone like me.
3. Adorable, unfortunately… With Krys, Chelsea, Jamie and Dad (OMG, Dad!) among the majority.105

100. If you could, what advice would you, the protagonist, give to your antagonist? (You might even want to speak as if he or she were sitting right here in front of you, and use proper tone so he or she might heed your advice...)
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You're judging. Always judging… Judging me, the world… you judge and you condemn and spread so much hatred to everything around you. One day it will all be gone. One day hate will consume it, and *you'll* be judged… you'll be judged by everyone you've ever pushed down or spat on or punched or kicked or violated. And us? All the people you've ever fucked with, or fucked up? We'll condemn you to a lifetime of wallowing in your own hatred.
You're welcome.