Destroy Me

I can't keep my tears from falling, which I can always do. Warriors don't cry, and I am a warrior, but who am I kidding, I'm scared. Again, he puts pressure on my flesh with the knife.1

"I can change your life," he promised in a throaty whisper. My hands around his wrist tighten, and I try to pull it away.2

"No Rob, no you can't. Your at the end of the rope, and so am I." The people bent down around us stare at me with wide eyes, and I can't say I wish they weren't here, because now everyone sees that the crazy one was not me, and never will be.3

"But, Andrea..."4

"No, Rob, no. I told you before, this is the end. I don't want to be cursed at anymore, I don't want our baby to go through your shit. You need help." Rob pulled me so tighter to his body and I felt the knife slowly cutting the soft skin of my throat.5

"Your wrong, Andrea. You just don't want me to be a part of your life anymore. You sick bitch, I love you." 6

He's crying, Robby Dick Mayes, my tough, abusive, ex-husband is crying. I can't take this agony. Is he going to kill me, or is he just going to kill himself? I'm 8 months pregnant, please God, just let my baby live, that is all I can think. This knife is slicing deeper and deeper into my flesh, how can I live after this? How are the police going to be able to shoot him? Are they going to shoot him? He is high off herion, I can tell easily. Why, oh why hasn't he quit yet?7

"Rob, listen to me. I can tell you have had at least two shots of herion, but don't end it like this. Stop what your doing..."8

"No, Andrea, your wrong,"9

"ROB LISTEN TO ME!!!" I felt the knife fall slightly, and it was no longer under my skin. Sighing silently to myself, I finish what I was trying to say.10

"Rob, its not worth it." I felt his arms leave me and I turn to see him pick a gun out of his pants pocket.11

"Your right." He said as he placed the gun to his temple dropping the knife.12

"I could have changed your life," he repeated in a throaty whisper. I felt horror well up inside me.13

"No," I screamed as the gun went off and Rob's blood splattered on my face.14