Struggle, Sin, and Love

We all struggle with our own sins; some more than most. We go to God, half crying that he will deliver us, but Satan presses the urge against our minds, and we struggle until we cannot struggle anymore. We need our "fix" whatever it may be. I'm with you, people! I knew I was going to slip up as soon as the door was closed, and I was on my own. Why? Because I've had someone to lean on when I struggled, but as soon as I was alone, I had no one (thus the definition of being alone, I guess).1

Yet in the process of you slipping into your struggle to the point that you have failed yourself in trying not to fall, somebody emails you, calls you, or messages you. You stop your sin to check that email/message or to answer the phone, and it's one of your Christian friends. You can't believe you have been so dumb as to slip back into your struggle; your sin, and you stop; at least I hope you stopped. I did after getting an email from my RA of all things (curfew report, though I've been getting in like 2 minutes early according to my cell phone). I knew I had not only failed myself, but my boyfriend as well... What was wrong with me?2

I got off of my computer to grab something to eat, and I felt sooo bad that I had sinned again; falling back into the past I threw away when I came to Grace University. I had failed. Yet, there is still God's grace. God still wraps His arms around me with love and speaks to me, "It's okay. I still love you. Always will. You are my child. I forgive you." And I feel better. He knows I'm truly sorry, and He forgives me. Now THAT'S true love!