Let down, a story about my life (part 2)

i'm already putting up another memory, since some persons thought i should. just a random memory about my life with my mum.1

Well. there was a night when my mum actually was awake, and not in bed. i was watching tv with her, and suddenly someone knocked on the door. she walked to the door, and looked through the peep hole, then told me to lay behind the couch. i didnt understand what was going on. but she told me in a very..very calm but serious voice. to lay behind the couch, i did as i was told. and she joined me there. the one that knocked. knocked harder and harder, i didnt understand a thing. and my mum was calm. so i wasnt scared. just confused, and it knocked and knocked, harder and harder. and then suddenly it stopped. but i wasnt allowed to move. i was still behind the couch. for maybe half an hour. and my mum was getting more and more nervous. she was shaking. but after half an hour. she told me that could play some i totally loved playstation at that age. so i started to play my fav game. and it was really calm. she sat in the couch, with a lighter in her hand, she i remember that because, she always played with a lighter when she was nervous. spinned it in her hand.. and stuff like that. and i played for maybe 20 min.. was totally into the game, when my mum started to scream. i didnt know why. but in less then 5 sec.. i heard our glass door that went out to our small front yard broke. shattered glass flew everywere. and it sounded really loud.. i don't remember what i did. but i remember what happened. one of the people that used to sit with my mum during nights. that used to smoke n drink with her, was standing there with a steel bat. and she started to hit my mum, while looking atme and screaming things. something about.. were is it? what did you do with it? why did you do that? i hate you, i hate you. and stuff like that.. while bashing my mum with the bat. not in the face, she hitted the stomach, my mum didnt cry or do a single thing while the other person bashed her stomach. she just layed there. totally quiet, she bashed and bashed and bashed,i could see that my mum started to shake.. whole her body shaked, and then suddenly, the woman, stopped bashing, and walked towards me and the tv, "my mum was still laying on the floor shaking". she pulled the VCR out. my playstation was connected to it. and i had watched while she beated up my mum.. so i was just . sitting in the couch. i don't know if i cried, but i was in shock. it all did happend so damn fast. but she took the VCR and walked towards my mum again, with the VCR in her hand, "she dropped the bat b4 walking to me and the tv" and when she was right over my mum, mum looked up on here, and the woman yelled, you got this from him! i know it! i've seen it before, and then she threw the VCR in my mums head, my mum said with a very weak voice.. David. call the police, please. i picked up the phone, but the woman saw it, so she picked up the bat again, and walked against me, she looked into my eyes, her eyes were red striped, you know,, the way eyes look when you just woke up. or are really drunk, but she wasnt drunk i could tell. maybe stoned or someting, but she looked into my eyes. and said, you are not going to call anyone are you?.. no why would you? i havent done anything wrong. it's your mum that did. blame her, so you can put back the phone again. i didnt, so she did hit my hands with the bat, it hurted so much, i still got a mark on my knuckle after that, then i just remember the woman walking out the same way she got it. and my mum tried to get up. but she couldnt. so she told me to get the Tina, one of her friends, also a drug junkie, our neighbour, so i did. i was crying.i didnt say a word. i just did what i was told, while holding my hands close to my body, and the tears ran through my cheeks. like a mighty stream, but i knocked on Tina's door. she opened. and i told her that mum wanted to see her, that she wished tina to come. so she walked with me back to mum, and talked to her. in a really hysterical voice. i didnt understand a word, but Tina helped her up. and they walked out the door. i was still there. i was still there by all the blood and shattered glass. i didnt know what to do. so i closed the door, and walked to my room. and layed on my bed. still crying.. crying as never b4. and i must have felt asleep fast. because that's all i remember after that, the next day when i woke up. i walked to the door *still wearing the clothes that i had used for about 1 week* but i walked to the door, and then i noticed, a hole in the door, from a gun shot. and i wondered how it got there. but i didnt think so much of it, i walked to Marcus, and he made me breakfast, and asked if i would like to play some playstation with him, so we played for a long period of time, i felt better after getting some food, i didnt talk much. Marcus did understand even though i was quiet. and when i finally got home again. the glass door was fixed, and my mum was laying in the bed again. with bandaids and stuff all over. it looked like it was made really clumsy, but i walked to her, and asked how she was. she said that she was perfectly fine. and then i said.. mummy, there's a hole in our door. why is it a hole in our door? and she just said, it's a warning david. we have to move soon. don't think about it.2

well, it was quite easy to write about my memories, so here i go again. and remember, this is from my real life, so please, no comments about bad story or such things. 3