Your guardian knight

It's amazing,
you said you loved me,
you'd never leave me,
well that's a lie,
You once said you'd never leave me while you were breathing,
so where's the death certificate.1

I did say I loved you,
but you never said it back.
When you said it,
you murmured it,
like you were wishing you could take it back.
And I did say I'd never leave you, while there was breath in my body,
but I'm still hear. I haven't really left.2

So I said I loved you, murmuring it in your ear.
I thought it was a meaning,
of something that we could feel.
Not harsh words and yelling.
Or laid back and slack.
But deep and meaningful,
I never once had a look back.3

You think you know what I'm feeling.
But really you know you're lying.
You make up vicious rumors,
to make you feel like your flying.
But on the inside your dying.
Like I did when you said the words.
That shattered my heart into a million pieces.
Crunch it, crushed it and threw it to the world. 4

I never said I stopped loving you.
I said I'd given up,
my feelings were left dejected,
untouched, unloved, and unseen.5

You never asked how I felt,
how I feel,
to be told,
that, that was just a spiel.
To never look upon your face,
or smell your sweet perfume.
To hold you in my arms.
You were as precious as my pearl.
So never forget the feeling I thought we once shared.
For I've never gone back on my word.
Not never, not then.
Keep that in your mind as you sleep tonight.
Keep it as a comfort, me,
your guardian knight.