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Sitting alone in his pitch dark room at 2:30 in the morning, Brian was just wishing he could die and not have to deal with this shit. His mom was bitching at him every time she saw him. His dad was always to drunk to bother trying to help him. 1

He just sat there in his dark room thinking about suicide and trying to find something in his life that was worth living through this constant crap that his "parents" put him through. He was just about to give up and find something to slit his throat with when he remembered her.2

She was the only person that he gave a damn about. She was the reason he had lasted this long. If it wasn't for her he would have been dead a long time ago. But now his family life was getting worse every day and he didn't even get to see her very often, usually only at school. He really loved her but he didn't know if that was going to be enough to keep him alive this time.3

His life has always been hard but he had never had it this bad, ever. He couldn't even remember it being close to this bad. I mean he'd been hit and yelled at and grounded all his life but never anything like this. his father had started drinking more his mom wanted him to stop but couldn't tell him so she took it out on Bryan.4

He really wanted to live but he needed something to keep him going and he wasn't sure he had anything. Just as he started to go down this train of thought his cell phone rings. He knew immediately who it was, no one else would call this early. It was Tahiri, he had made her promise to call him when she needed help no matter what time and no one else would even be awake at 3 in the morning.5

"hello." i said just in case it wasn't.6

"hey Bryan, its Tahiri. Sorry if i woke you up."7

"no i was already awake. whats wrong?"8

"its my parents their fighting again and its not like before this time its worse. They aren't even trying to hide it i mean their screaming and screaming and cussing each other out and not even worrying about who sees."9

That's when i realized it. If for nothing else i have to live through my problems so i can help her. I really dint want to live right now but I'd rather live through hell so i can help her then die and make her go through this alone.10

"Why dint you come over and well go somewhere?"11

"its 3 in the morning i cant go anywhere."12

"sneak out you've done it before!"13

"alright ill be there in about 15 minutes."14

as soon as we hung up the phone i went looking for it. i had been saving it for her birthday but i figured she  needed something to bring her spirits up right now so why not. It took most of the 15 minutes just to find it and then i had to get dressed so i just barely got ready when i heard her knocking on my window.15

"hey," i said opening the window "you ready?"16

"yea I'm ready lets get out of here."17

after that we took off. we started off by going to the park and walking around there for a little while talking and pretending everything was fine. we do that a lot me and tahiri. both of us have really screwed up lives so its fun to pretend that were just normal teenagers and nothing is wrong.18

once we left the park we headed off towards the movies to catch the 6:30 show of The Ring 2. we loved to go see movies. were both pretty heavy movie freaks and never get bored of seeing the really good ones. we hadn't seen this one yet and we both thought it looked retarded, which for us is more of a reason to see it.19

their day was starting to look up. they movie ended at about 8 and then they went to some random restaurant for breakfast. they both knew that sooner or later they would have to go back to their parents and get yelled at for being out all night but for now it was just them.20

just two kids in love hanging out and seeing the town without a care in the world. sadly some people don't want you to have a good life some people don't care about love and happiness all they care about is making peoples lives miserable.21

This is the kind of person who ended their happy imaginary world with nothing but a car. This is the kind of person who ran Tahiri over this is the kind of person who made Bryan's life worse then it used to be. These are the people who helped Bryan to make his decision.22

he didn't have any reason to live anymore but he was also not going to let her death go unnoticed. He was going to make her murderers pay first. he walked around the car and found a wooden plank and was getting ready to start beating the shit out of the murderers but...23

"don't do it Bryan."24

"what Tahiri, they deserve it look what they did to you" i said after recovering from the shock of her still being alive25

"yea i know but then you wont be able to live. you have to live and have fun. you have to use your freedom and live both of our lives you have to..."26