The reason's my heart hides me

I have allowd my heart to stay in the shadows for far to long it's hard to notice it,1

Sometimes,2

I'm left wondering if it's still there,3

It's beat so soft bearly noticeable4

It used to pound out a harsh lash of passion and love 5

Making me scream and shout the name of my beloved one at first sight of his handsome face6

Making me cry tears of joy 7

My fears of never seeing him again force me to wrape my arms around him and never want to let go8

This is how i felt9

Now this is how i feel10

My heart has been ripped out by the one i once called mine 11

He was ment to be mine forever 12

But fate decided other wise 13

And now he will never be mine 14

I fake the smile that people see15

I must show strength 16

When really i want to bring him into my arms and kiss him deeply17

Letting my tears of want and pain18

Loss and love19

Anger and passion all run down my cheeks and fall onto his comforting shoulders20

Many have tried to replace the ireplaceable21

They have not loved and lost as harshly or as painfully as my love and my heart has had to suffer22

The terrors of heartache it felt it would never know 23

My heart makes me push away any who try and love me24

Not giving me a chance to open to the old but new feelings that are being pushed on me25

Day by day...26

Night by night...27

Each day is a step closer to reopening old feelings and wounds 28

Each night is a step back into the comfort zone you have created to keep your heart from getting hit with the over ruling feeling of pain29

Hurt and loss30

Let your heart be free31

Don't waste your love on someone who you can't have when there are plenty worth loving