Do you know what it feels like?1
To know your best friend is going to die2
That he has it planned out3
and nothing you can say or do will stop him4
all the thoughts you think5
all the pain and confusion you feel6
knowing every day is one day closer, 7
one day less you have with him, 8
one day less until the best thing you ever found will be gone forever9
you think about how it will feel with him no longer there10
you think about going with him and ending it too11
you tell him over and over again you need him12
but it doesn't work13
you keep trying everything you can14
but he doesn't listen15
he yells at you asking if you want him to live in pain16
he can't see it, but your crying17
your heart clenches in pain as you give your answer18
"No,...No I don't"19
you start to remember things he has said 20
the time he told you he thinks your going to be the only one who will know what to say to keep him here21
when he said he believed you were the only one who was going to need him22
you sit there for days thinking about what you will say23
you want to say the right things24
becuase his life is in your hands25
and you don't want to let go26
you want him to know that you won't be the same without him here27
that you need him28
hes the one that keeps you sane29
the one you depend on most30
the one you don't thank enough for all he does for you31
the one you hope will read this and see what you can't say normally32
now that your back at school33
all you do is think about him34
you wonder if you will be enough for him35
enough to keep him happy and here36
you wonder if you will be able to stop him 37
or not..38
Even to this day I do not know what to say39
I know how I feel, you know how I feel40
I've told you over and over again41
but now...at the time its needed to be said the most..42
im speechless..43
I'm sorry i'm not what you thought i was44
I'm sorry i let you down..45
Please don't leave...your needed to much, by me and others..46
I love my best friend..as a best friend..and always will...47
My life will never be the same if I have to add you to the list on my page..48
please...>.>
A contest entry
- Your Saddest Story by K.CTheDyingReindeer.
225 points, ended October 11, 2008, 6 entries
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Comments
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Wow! this is seriously awesome. I absolutely loved it! Ifelt what you were feeling and i could see everything. Awesome job!
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Waaa!
im crying this is so great. Thanks for entering my and Danica's contest. I hope you win it since this is the best so far.
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holy shit bree.
this gav eme chills.
you need to mail this to him -
awwww this is soo sad and painful
i know how it feels but just stay strong and you will be ok bree. this was amazing. David
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oh bree.. im seriously near tears after reading this.. maybe its cuz im already depressed.. but this is beautiful bree.. im really sorry.. hope everything turned out ok... you really brought your emotions out and i really felt your pain... and how much this friend means to you... and being in that situation where you really dont know what to say but you oh so want to say the right thing... but its hard to express it.. without tears.. man this whole thing is bringing me down.. feel better bree
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Yes, I know what it feels like. I have had three best friends pass, one by suicide and two by accidental overdose. Also, I sat with my dad while he died from cancer. This is an amazing piece of work.
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oh... this is so sad. I am so sorry if your best friend is thinking about this. But you probably don't want my pity do you? Send him the link to the poem, so he can read it and see how much he is wanted and needed.
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