Someone needs to write a story about long distance relationships. Not me, though. I just broke up with my boyfriend because he lived two hours away. I love him;he loves me, and every time he walks away from me my heart breaks once again. I couldn't take it any more. My hearts has been ripped and stabbed too much-I can't take one more go, just to know it will happen again the next week.1
I told him, we can see each other only if you never walk away again, otherwise I'll be breaking your heart and never seeing you. It's just too hard. I think he understands. I hope he does. Oh, God. Please say he does. He says he doesn't want me out of his life, but he has to walk away. He lives two hours away, right? He'll always love me, and once he can walk away; once he can move, he'll come straight to me, and I'll be there. I'll always love him, too. 2
I can never not love him. I just met him a month ago, and he has given me more happiness in this short amount of time than most people get in their whole lifetime! He has no means to take care of me right now, and he just doesn't want to run off foolishly. Plus he has other people up where he lives, like his own family, that he has to take care of. Sure, I understand that. But...I mean, I can't take it anymore. I see him once a week, and I'm really happy for a couple of hours, and then I'm triple times as worse when he walks away-as I said, every time it's like he's ripping and stabbing and tearing and pulling and hating and.3
I have that feeling for a week, then I see him again. Then it happens all over again. I couldn't take it anymore-I love him, I want to be with him. He is the same way. But its too hard. I want him-can't you see? Please slap me. Pinch me. If I'm still just sitting here, crying, do something more, like beat me. Take a knife and stab me. Do something! Make me realize how stupid I am to let him go. I can barely breathe right now, that's how hard I'm crying. Why do I have to be so dumb?4
I don't know what else to say. I wish...I don't know what I wish. I just want him back. But that's not possible. He lives too far away. Oh, God. Why can't he just come and sing "Far Away" by Nickleback to me, and mean it? 5
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That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
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Oh, I wish he would sing that to me! Maybe I should go sing it to him, and move up there? No, that wouldn't work. I would be living on the streets. Ha, like I care? I might go do that now anyway; I don't really have anything to live for. I hate myself. I hate this god-awful world. OMG, I miss him soo much, and I just broke up with him like ten minutes ago! Why do long distance relationships have to be this hard??!!!! Please; why?7
Please! Just tell me...I don't know. Don't tell me anything. Tell me to get a life. Tell me to go kill myself. Tell me; whatever. Just make this pain go away, please!!!!!!!! Tell me something...anything. Please!
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Yes, this is true. I really don't know what to do. Oh, God...
~~Song in story is "Far Away" by Nickleback~~
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What do you think of long distance relationships??!!!!!
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IVE HAD A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP AND IT SUCKS THAT YOU CANT SEE HIM EVERY DAY BUT SOMTIMES IT JUST DOESNT WORK OUT..IF HES NOT THE ONE HES NOT THE ONE.
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I'm just starting out in a long distance relationship. We're not going out officially yet but hes coming to my home coming in two weeks. It's hard. There' s always a little guess work involved. Just remember he's always there...
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Okay, I can relate to your story. Its the same with my boyfriend and me. I talk to him atleast 6 hours a day on and off on the phone, and chat with him on msn, but the only difference is that I haven't actually got to meet him yet. Though I haven't I'm anxiously waiting the day that I can, because like you...I've never had anyone make me this happy in my life in the short time I've known him either. As for telling you how to take this, I can't.
I can only tell you what I've done ..and hope you can find some kind of inspiration or sign of what or what not to do. lol My boyfriend and I were on and off for the last two years. My heart would break each time he left ...since it was always him, but for some god forsaken reason I held on and wouldn't let go each time. I only let go once...and we quit talking for about 5 months. I regret that everyday. We talk now like we had never been seperated, and our friendship and relation ship is stronger than ever. I don't know how I wake up every morning and deal with not being able to be with him entirely, touch him, see him, kiss him. I guess its my unbreakable hope keeping me hanging in there, but even though it hurts to not see him, I'm haning in there, because I don't want to loose him ever.
But....here is a statement for you to think on.
...If it is really true love you feel with him, and you both are truly in love with each other, then you two can wait to be together. If its true love then it will pass the test of time and anything that comes along.
From what you said in your story, it sounds like it to me. So I hope things turn out good for you, and don't give up hope on him. I'm not saying hope with everything that you have then you would be a fool, but don't give up hope on him, nor yourself. And that should help keep you strong somewhat in the mean time. well it did for me. lol
And reading your story has given me the urge to write about my own long distance relation ship. so I will do that! lol
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I understand
I lived in Germany and married a German man. I loved him so. He left me while I was still in Germany and got his own apartment. I was sooo angry and sounded a lot like you do here. Then I found out he was going through a bout of Severe Depression, so I backed off and waited. We were on good terms after some time passed, but then it was time for my Army tour to end and I was to go back to the U.S. He chose not to go. Believe me, that hurt. I kept praying and praying for him to be healed of the hurt and that he speak to me like he used to. I also remembered what I've been told more than once, "If you let him go and he comes back to you, it was meant to be. If he doesn't come back, then it is not." That was hard for me to accept, especially since he was an ocean away and wasn't speaking to me.
I kept praying and one day, out of the blue, he called me and sounded like the man I married again. We talked and he called more often. We realized we had grown too far apart and we went through a very peaceful divorce without bitterness. He'll always have a place in my heart, but sometimes you just have to let go, not worry, and things will fall into place as they should, which is not always the way you want. There are many people crying out for love, and loss can be heartwrenching, but as a Celine Dion sang, "Love will find a way on wings of angels."
God (Love) be with you.
Write On!
Beth
beginning: 4, language: 5, plot: 4, ending: 4.
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Thank you for your kind words. I just want to comment on the phrase, "If you let him go and he comes back to you, it was meant to be. If he doesn't come back, then it is not." I left, and came back, so it was obviously meant to be, yea? Lol, but really, when I 'came' back, he took me back, which is more important than me just wanting him back. If I try and go back to him, and he refuses, then we are still in the same position. He WANTED me back. Thank GOD! I just spent a wonderful weekend with him, going up to visit on Friday, staying over at his house (with his parents eye's watching us very careful so we wouldn't get too close
), and today his mom drove us back to my area and we spent the day together until his mother had to return. I won't be seeing him for at least the next two weeks now, because of work and school, but that won't faze me. I'm never leaving him again.
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Whoa whoa whoa. Before you start thinking this will kill you, think about life for a minute here. You basically have two situations: plain ol' life, and life PLUS having him there. If you think of it as something beyond what you really need, maybe you'll be okay. I'm not very good at just saying something, but I've dealt with a lot of people's trust when they tell me their stories and want me to listen or whatever. If you're interested, message me and we can talk sometime. Seriously. Some people on here (XDeadClownX-bree in particular) think I'm a real hero for it.
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really you have little to complain about, you're only two hours away and see him regularly. Imagine if you were across the world from your lover, you're lucky if you get to talk to them on the phone once a week, even luckier if you get to see them more than once a year if that. Imagine not having the benefit of thinking to break up with them because you're married to them and have kids. Imagine how worried you are every day and how it felt to say good-bye that one last time. Every day thousands of people are dealing with this because their husband or wife are in the army (or other service), half a world away.
I've personally had two long distance relationships. If they didn't work, it wasn't because of the distance. Keep with it, because the time I've had with those people were the best in my life. -
Once a week? You are so lucky. I only see mine like a few times a month and he lives 45 minutes from me. We're a year now. Anyway, good story. You conveyed your feelings well. When I think long distance I think like a thousand miles.
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awww
i'm so sorry you make me think it's going to be hard for me if that happens between me and this guy that i like.
beginning: 5, language: 4, plot: 4, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.
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Long distance relationships are hard, i'll agree with you there, but if you love him, you can make it. I've been through it too, and now i'm living with my boyffriend. I'm lucky. his parents let me live with them until he's out of school. Just keep faith and remember that in the end it's all worth it. Maybe it isn't too late to get him back.
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*Smile* It almost was too late to get him back. I texted him yesterday, begging him to forgive me and that I was an idiot, and not being with him was far worse then him breaking my heart every time he walked away, and you know what he said? "Of course I'll take you back. I love you. I can't live without you. In fact, you saved my life today. I was about to get on the wrong bus to get to [this one freeway] and throw myself over when I got your text." Thank you for all your nice comments, and I'm never letting him go again (well, at least like that). I almost threw myself over, too. I'm not ready to live without him...
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I don't think they are truely possible
I think that if you follow how you feel, everything will fall into the right place. If the distance is making you unhappy, even for a moment, then that is a moment of wasted life to live. Life is so short and time flies by too quickly to spend it sad adn waiting. Believe me, i know I don't think long distance relationships work. Namely because they are just that, long distance. I think that most human beings need the contact that comes with love, even if it's just a glance.
I do hope that no matter what you choose, you find happiness in the end. Again, life is just too short to waste.
Great write! Very thougtful and sad
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You need to do what you feel is right. If he means that much to you, and your love is true, things will change to allow you two to be together, but be strong and realize that you have a great love... something only people aspire to get.
Don't let distance come between you if you believe that your love is true. Only if being away from him makes you love him less and not happy, then do you break away, but if you run into his arms whenever he shows up... that right there should tell you what you should do.
I hope that my words help.
DarkOne
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