God Is In the Radio

"Okay everyone, it's six o'clock and it's time to get ready for work. It's time to get up and move on. Time to get ready for the day..." The radio said in a cool voice that was too awake for this hour of the morning. Six o'clock was an hour I considered to early to be alive. Jason always laughed when I said that.11

I was glad that the alarm had gone off. I had been having a nightmare that I couldn't seem to wake myself from. As I opened my eyes, I had already forgotten the dream and was glad for it.22

I grumbled as I turned the radio off and pulled myself out of bed. Jason was still asleep beside me so I pushed him a little to get his attention. Why didn't that stupid radio ever wake him up? 33

I sighed deeply, pulled my robe on over my night clothes, and headed to the kitchen to start the coffee. If me moving him didn't wake Jason up, the smell of coffee certainly would.44

Jason wrapped his arms around my waist as I flipped the eggs in the pan. "Good morning, darling." He said in his sweet melodic voice. He pulled away after kissing my cheek and got two mugs from the cabinet above the sink. He poured our coffee and put the sugar and creamer in like he did every morning. I wouldn't know what I would do if he wasn't there every morning. We had such a ritual going on in our life that I hardly made it through the day when he had once had an early meeting at work and had to leave the house before I even woke up. He was as much a part of my life as the air I breathed. 55

My family had been pretty mad that I wanted to marry him only a few months after graduating high school and had told me that I would have to give up my family to do so. I spent a few day mulling over the pros and cons but in the end I chose him. That was over three years ago...66

He was my life and I couldn't live without him. No matter how much it hurt, it was worth losing my family for him. I would do it all over again just to live this life with Jason.77

I looked at the calender on the wall and frowned. It was my mother's birthday. The last year when I had tried to call her she had told me that I wasn't her daughter and hung up on me. The tears built up in my eyes but I brushed them away with the back of my hand. Jason frowned and hugged me tightly.88

"I'm so sorry darling. I know it gets harder each year." He said in a soothing voice. He was lucky. His parents hadn't wanted him to begin with so when he decided to marry me they didn't care. They had hardly talked when he was living with them, so moving out wasn't all that hard on him. Not like me, who had been very close to my family and had to leave everything.99

I looked over towards the front door to our apartment and saw that we had a new message on the machine. Why hadn't I noticed when the phone rang last night? I went over to it and pressed the play button after setting the eggs on the table and listened to the familiar voice of my doctor. 1010

"Hello Kara, this is Dr. Remus. I just wanted to let you know that your test came back and it seems that..."1111

I got distracted from the message as Jason came up behind me again and held me close. "I have to get going. I'm going to be home late tonight." 1212

I frowned but knew that he always worked a little longer to give us a little extra money to go out on special occasions or just get out of the apartment for a while. He kissed me on the lips, said "I love you", and walked out of the door with his briefcase in hand.1313

I did my normal things throughout the day; cleaned the apartment, messed around on the computer, got some art done, and did some sewing for my part time business of making one of a kind dresses for special occasions. At around five I went to make dinner for myself and noticed that Jason had left his on the counter. I picked it up and grabbed some money for a cab to take him his dinner. 1414

When I got there I called his cell and told him to come down and get his dinner from me. I didn't like going into his building. The people there didn't care for me much for some reason or another so I never went in. Jason, thankfully, understood that. He came down and took his dinner from my hands.1515

"Thanks, darling." He said happily. We talked for a few minutes but he had to go back inside before his boss got upset. "I love you, Kara." 1616

"I love you too." I turned to cross the street at the crosswalk and heard Jason yell after me. I turned and saw him running towards me. I looked to my left and saw a car coming straight towards me. Why wasn't he stopping? It was a red light! Why wasn't he stopping?! Then it clicked. "Jason, no!"1717

It was too late. The car was getting closer and closer and so was Jason. I felt his body's full force as he pushed me out of the way of the car. I heard the earsplitting crack as his body was hit my the car that hadn't slowed down.1818

"JASON!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. I could feel people staring at what had happened but no one was helping. Except one person. A man dressed in a leather vest and jeans went over to the car and pulled the guy from his seat.1919

"What the hell is your problem?!" The man yelled at the driver. It was obvious that the driver was drunk. I didn't look, but I could tell by his slurred words that he was drunk. I was to in shock to look at the man responsible. I knew that if I did, I would probably kill him. I pulled myself from my shocked state and ran to Jason.2020

He was already gone...2121

I held him in my arms; I wasn't going to let him go. They would have to pry him from MY cold dead fingers. No one moved around us. They knew there was nothing they could do, nothing they could say, to make this situation better. The only movement on the street was the shaking of my body as I cried. Not even a car moved on the normally busy street. The only sound besides my sobbing was the radio from that car. The low murmur of the voice of the DJ echoed in the quiet. 2222

This wasn't fair! Why did it have to be Jason?! Why couldn't he of let it hit me!? Why him!?!?! 2323

"Jason!" I screamed. "Jason! Jason, please!" 2424

I knew that no matter how many times I screamed his name he wouldn't come back. I knew that no matter how hard I prayed he would still be gone. I cried for what seemed like ages, but I heard the sound of sirens approaching in the distance. As they pulled up the blue and red lights cast eerie shadows across Jason's black face. 2525

The tears from my eyes fell and landed on his now cold face. That face that had been smiling only an hour before. The face that I had held closest to my heart. That face that would never smile again. 2626

What was there to live for now? What did I have that was worth living for anymore? I had given up my family to be with him and now... now he was gone. 2727

I gasped and put my hand on my stomach...2828

What had the message said this morning? I thought for a long moment and began to cry even harder.2929

"Hello Kara, this is Dr. Remus. I just wanted to let you know that your test came back and it seems that... congratulations, you are with child!"3030

Finally the police showed up next to me and attempted to pull me away from Jason. "No! Please, he can't be gone! He can't be!"3131

They pulled me away and set me in the back of an ambulance to get a quick look over. I had a hard time answering their questions through my crying, but I did my best hoping that if I finished soon enough they would leave me alone. Soon they had to go over and pick up Jason and they left me alone in the coming darkness of this winter night. 3232

I tried to block out the voices of the reporters and policemen but one thing broke through. The radio from the ambulance was on and I listened to the familiar voice of the DJ I woke up to each morning... 3333

"Okay everyone, it's six o'clock and work is over. It's time to get up and move on. Time to get ready for tomorrow..."3434

He was right... 3535

I put my hand on my stomach and cried again. I DID have something to live for. I still had two pieces of Jason with me. One in my stomach and one in my heart...