School is coming around. 1
School treats me differently than it treats most people. When school decides to confront me, it is never without its most famous groupies; Anxiety Attacks, Depression, and Self Injury. 2
And, believe me, whenever school comes up to me and decides to taunt me, it always makes sure to give the others their share of time. 3
Everyone tries to tell me things. They all try to give me that medicine will help. They all try to make me take different pills and try different medications, "Take this, it'll help with the anxiety", "Take this, and this, and this, it might get rid of the Seasonal Affective Disorder!" 4
Yeah, well, I have only one thing to say to that. 5
No way am I going to let you drug me into submission. 6
You're not trying to help me, you're trying to make me normal.7
And there is a difference. 8
And trust me, it's not to be normal that I'm seeking. It's to be able to get through the day without wanting to die. 9
You don't want me to be happy, you just want me to be normal, because anything out of the ordinary scares people. You want to keep peace in society, and people like me always end up disturbing it somehow. So, you hand pick us early on and try to get as many drugs into our systems as you can, you try to change the chemical balance in our brains as drastically as you can, so that we'll conform to your perfect little society. 10
Yeah, well, it's too late for me. I've already gotten in touch with reality. Go find another victim, I'm already too far gone. 11
If someone is having an anxiety attack, it's not the anxiety attack that needs to go away; it's the thing causing the anxiety attack that needs to be eliminated. When you find out that your precious school system is messing with kids' minds, you insist that it's the kids' minds that need to be fixed, not the system. 12
Because the system is just so perfect, isn't it? 13
So, you drug up the kids and you mess with their heads until they're just not coherent enough to understand that the schools are even messing them up anymore. 14
And you call me a junkie. Half the world is drugged up at birth, and you're calling me a junkie? Sure, I have a little heroin now and then, but what's that going to do to me? I can tell you this; I've never gotten a shot in my life. I've never taken prescribed medicine. That's quite a thing compared to most people in America... did you know that nearly half of all the people in the United States take at least one prescribed medication, and one in six take three or more different kinds? In 2003, 141 billion dollars were spend on brand name drugs, along with 36.6 billion spent on generic drugs. You're all bloody junkies. 15
The only difference between prescription/OTC drugs and illegal drugs is that the prescription ones have the desired effect. If LSD makes you happy, everyone will take it, and then what do you think is going to happen to all the companies that sell the anxiety pills, the depression pills, the personality disorder pills, the mood disorder pills? None of them get money. 16
They'd rather that you all spend a lot of money on things because you're sad than have you spend a small amount of money on things because it makes you happy. 17
How do you fix that? You make the good stuff illegal. That way, if someone discovers that they can be happy for a week for fifty bucks, they can throw you in jail and convince everyone that you're a horrid person for ever doing such a thing. Shame on you, you were happy.18
Pills like that, they don't make you happy, they make you normal. They take away the sadness, but they don't give you happiness. You've gotta find that on your own. 19
This generation, "happiness" is what you feel after you get plastic surgery and your nose finally looks how you wanted it to, or that feeling you get after you get liposuction and now you can wear a bathing suit without wanting to cry. "Happiness" is starving yourself and throwing up every single piece of food you've eaten so that you don't feel ashamed of how you look. 20
Screw your fascist beauty standards. I'm fine the way I am, thanks.21
That's right. I said it. I'm fine the way I am. 22
But what about you?23
When's it gonna be your turn? 24
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Author notes
This started as an emo, write-out-your-feelings thing, but I got carried away and it sounds like it might be good for a story XD It stopped being about me when heroin was first mentioned. Yes, the statistics are true.
Even though it isn't about me, it's still how i think. It's still my thoughts, and still my true outlook on things, this is really how I perceive things. This is the truth. I understand.
What about you?
Are you in touch with reality?
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Omfg! I really liked this! It has much emotion! Good Job!
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Wowie. I totally agree with this. I know what you mean for most of it, and the heroin bit kind of struck me at first. Your AN cleared it up, but I was going to say, that's true. I love that paragraph. I read this the other day without commenting, but it's kind of been mulling around in my head and I really realized that this is so from the heart. Like, it's not heartfelt, but it's like jagged truth. Ooh.. I like that phrase.. jagged truth. Anyways, good job! I should really be reading your other pieces or writing... So adieu!
*scurries off*
-Sarah.
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I can't say I agree that illegal drugs are "good stuff." But this was an interesting piece, and I like how you made the narrator really speak (his? her?) mind here, and not mince words. S/He has a really strong, stubborn personality. If you write a story off of this, I'd like to read it. ^^ Keep writing!
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Loved It
It totally puts it in the form from a students life.
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Wha. I'm with you on the overmedication of our society. You gotta wonder about the effectiveness of people on daily multiple prescriptions, compared to someone who occasionally smokes something illegal...
Even caffeine is a drug. Death by chocolate, anyone?
This was a good story. You wrote in good points. I liked the whole, we don't want our citizens to be happy, bit. Seriously, the pharmaceutical companies in this country are way out of line with their money and power. It's terrible, and you've pointed out the result with a big spotlight.
I'm not sure I buy the "heroin is a panacea for all ills" angle, but it sounds good in the story. Or heck, any medication for that matter. I use medication sparingly, and only as a tool that I might better be of use to those around me. Cuz it's all about me, just not in THAT way, if ya get me.
Also, just to be persnickety, I don't agree that any given statistic is true, or false for that matter. They're not a big enough part of the picture to be true or false. But that's just me.
Do they really offer to get kids on prescriptions in schools? Gah. That's terrible. No way am I putting my kids on anything, man. I'm not normal and I never want to be, nor them either. Uniqueness is so much more INTERESTING. Like yours, for instance. If you were normal, you would never have written this. -
I want 2 know :D
This was a great write but my mouth was wide open about the heronin part until I read your AN.
This was really interesting and the title captured me.
If you were to continue this I would DEFINITLY read it.
I would say continue it but give us a background.
I want to know more lol it might jst be me being nosy lol- but I want to know
-Missi
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This is really touching. You definately have talent in writing! I love the way you say 'you' all the time, it really draws me in. You write with such deepth and emotion, and all of this stuff is true. Well done.
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