Here I am once again sitting at a computer trying to write something that I hope someone will read and of course like. however, I fear that might not be the case.1
I really have no confidance in my writings and I should by now. You think after having been printed in several fanzines, letterzines, and fan club newsletters over the years I would be used to people reading my work. 2
But that just isn't the case. I always have this sudden cringe and then want to run away and hide somewhere. Only to be stopped by a smile. A nice comment. A thoughtful phrase. 3
People can really be very nice when you least expect it you know.4
So here I look back at what I have written and see that the screen is no longer blank. That there are some words, lines, and phrases on it that I have no idea where they came from. 5
Must have been that little fairy that lives in my brain and gives me these idea's when I least expect it.6
Anyway, before this becomes a rambling I guess I'll stop.7
Hope this is what you wanted.8
trekkergirl at work. Sitting at a computer when she should be up doing something else. shhhh.
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Love this, trekkergirl. You have no need to feel even remotely embarressed about anything. You are a wonderful writer as is shown in your Startrek works. This write was something that i feel a lot of people feel, but confidance is all you need and i believe you have the heart and soul for this. You have a gift and use your talent well. Listen to those around you and grow with the words, but always leave room for improvement, which comes from the criticism others give. Without criticism, you will not grow. God bless you.
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haha
this was cute!
i often feel like that, although i haven't published yet.
(notice that i said 'yet'! yes, i have hope)
don't fear for people not reading this or disliking it, i read it and i liked it!!
cheers!
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oh you'll get published. I happen to be really into star trek and got involved with a friend of mine who introduced me to editors of fanzines. When she thought I was good enough she convinced me to send some of my work into the editors. And they liked them. I wrote for a few years then quit for a while... and a few years ago started up again. So sometimes being printed in only done because you know someone who knows someone... and of course you have to have talent to go along with knowing these people. But I have confidance... you'll get there.
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Very true! I remember when I used to write poetry in a "special" little booklet of mine that no one was allowed to view, because then I would just die of embarrassment. In the end though I found the courage to let my grandmother read my poems first. I think it is always the ones closest to us that makes us the most nervous. I guess it's because they have the power to praise you or condemn your poem as trash....as does anyone else, though, I feel that it is because of your closeness to them and their importance to you. haha, but for me either way, anyone reading my work makes me cringe too! I liked your passage above though. It showed both your confidence in yourself, your self doubt, and vulnerability. Good write! Also, my advice to you...if i was you i wouldn't worry about everyone reading your stories. You write very well!
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Yeah I did that too for a long time... but then people at work wanted to read them... so finally I started letting people read them. I still cringe tho... I always get this fear that someone is really going to trash my work. No one really has yet tho.
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Hey, everyone has fears Full of thoughts. Showed clear way of thinking of something hindering then trying to spike it back up...a true mind at work. very good. Thanks for entering!
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nice image
this sounds a bit postmodern but needs a plotline to further engage the reader
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