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I remember the fairy tales my mommy used to tell me when I was a little boy. One of them said something about a genie who could make 3 of your wishes come true. Well, right now I only have one wish: For today to never happen.1

Let's go back to yesterday, when everything was in he right place. Now it seems to be ages ago. Yesterday ws such an innocently regular day. I woke up at 6 am, ate my breakfast and went to school. Nothing out of the ordinary. When I got to school I saw Jessica, my girlfriend, standing against the yellow wall. I always hated those walls, they always made me think of a dirty hospital. I slowly walked up to Jessica, my sweetheart, and gave her a soft kiss on the lips. She didn't see me until that and jumped in surprise and then smiled after seeing my face. 2

'Jeff, you scared me!' Her voice sounded so sweet when saying my name...3

'Sorry Jess, should I warn you next time before kissing you?' I smiled looking into her big brown eyes. Her brown, wavy hair was resting on her shoulder. She was wearing that hot, red shirt that made her look like a model. I felt like I wanted to tell everyone that she's mine.4

'No baby, I like it better when you surprise me... And I have to teach you to stop staring at my body like that!' She laughed and I looked into those amazing eyes again.5

I think that is one of the most perfect moments of my life, We chatted a little bit longer, but I can't even remember what we were talking about... Maybe our mean teacher, Mrs. Freeman, or a biology test we had a couple days ago, or a play we were going to be in the next day, it doesn't matter. I remember we were both happy, or at least I was.6

The rest of yesterday was almost as perfect, except for the one little thing; Andrew's party.7

I picked up Jess at 6 and we were at Andrew's at 6:30. It was a regular house party, with music loud enough to wake up a dead man and enough alcohol to get everyone drunk while wasting half of it on a wet t-shirt contest...8

Jess went to the bathroom while I was outdrinking some freshman guy trying to fit in. The guy passed out and Jess wasn't back, so I decided to walk around a little. I'm not sure how, but I ended up sitting on a sofa right next to some couple making out like there's no tomorrow. That's when I noticed a shy girl drinking from a red cup in a corner of the room. Her green eyes seem to remind me of someone, and as I was trying to remember if I met her somewhere before she suddenly stood up and started walking towards me.9

'Hey, Jeff, right?' She said, her voice sounding strangely familiar.10

'Um, yeah, do I know you?'11

'It's me! Kate! 8th grade, the girl that always had a peanut butter sandwich for lunch!' Suddenly I remembered the same girl, well, maybe a little bit younger, sitting behind me...12

'Oh yeah, Kate Johnson! I remember you! You went to LP, right?' I couldn't believe I saw a girl that I had my first crush on again...13

'Yeah, and you moved to the suburbs, and I never heard of you again...'14

'Awww, did the little Katie Johnson missed me?' I surely missed her...15

'Oh come on! I'm not that little anymore! didn't you notice? I grew a whole foot! Beat that!' I remembered her complaining about being the shortest girl in the class, now she still wasn't the tallest one in the room, but her height was just about average.16

'Yeah, I can see that, congratz shortie!' I missed teasing her like that...17

That's when Jessica finally showed up. Her face looked green, and I could the jealousy in her eyes when she looked at Kate.18

'Hey baby' She said while trying to compare herself to Kate19

'Um, hi, Jessica, this is Kate, Kate, meet my girlfriend, Jessica' I said hoping Jessica wouldn't be too jealous...20

'Oh, you have a girlfriend?' Kate asked me a little surprised...21

'Hey, I might have been a loser in middle school, but those days are gone!' I said with a smile on my face. Yet for a second I wished she wouldn't know that...22

'I want to go home, Jeff' Jessica said ignoring what Kate.23

'But I just met a friend I haven't seen in 3 years! I want to catch up with her!' I thought she was just jealous and wanted me to get away from Kate. Maybe it was my mistake for screaming at her like that...24

'Fine, I'll ask Hannah to give me a ride home, you can stay as long as you want to.' I thought she just wanted me to say that I'll go with her... Not realizing that maybe she really wanted to go home.25

'All right, bye!' And then she just walked up to Hannah and they both went out. I stayed at the party for another hour, but the only thing I coiuld think about was Jessica.26

Then there was today. Me, Jess, and everyone else who was in our little school play were excused from all the classes and we were just making sure we knew our parts since it was supposed to start at 4:30, right after the last period ends. The play itself was written by one of the students in our school that I never even hard about before. I walked up to Jessica to say sorry but she said she doesn't want an apology since I didn't know what was going on.27

'Then please, enlighten me, what was going on yesterday?'28

'I gotta practice my lines, leave me alone, can I tell you after the play?' She smiled lightly and I thought she wasn't mad.29

During the rehearsal she said all of her lines flawlessly, but I could tell she really didn't care about the stupid love story about an insecure, yet beautiful girl, writen by some nerd in our school. I didn't care much either to be honest.30

Then we were out of time and Mark started singing his opening lines while I looked at the script for the last time. When he stopped singing something about a normal school in a normal city I got on stage and sat next to some other guys pretending to be talking to them about football.31

'And I'm just a normal girl in that normal school in a normal high school with a normal crush on an almost normal booooy!' She sang, her voice sounding even more beautiful then during the rehearsal.32

Then we were playing our roles, me as one of the popular guys in school, and her as a hot, yet unpopular nerd, that had a crush on me but manages to spend some time with me by tutoring me in math and I start liking her... And then there was the begginning of the nightmare, one of the scenes with just me and Jess on stage. She was tutoring me in math when I took off her glasses and loosened up her hair. She looked so bueatiful...33

'What... What are you doing?' She asked34

'I was just curious what you would look like without your glasses... To be honest I was thinking about that since the first time I saw you...'35

'I don't want my hair to get messy, that's why I always tie it up, and my glasses, well, I always wanted to get rid of them, but to be honest I don't want to waste money on contacts, and my brother thinks the same way so I think...' And before she could finish her sentence I kissed her, just like it said in the script. And it was one of our best kisses, I heard some people whistling in the audience.36

'Do you... love me?' She said looking all surprised37

'I do, even though I never really expected to fall in love with you...'38

'No, stop playing!' She said, sounding more real than ever39

'I'm not playing! I love you!'40

'Do you love me enough to tell the truth in front of all those people? When everybody's watching you?' I couldn't remember her saying that line during a rehearsal41

'Yes' I said a little bit confused42

'Why didn't you come looking for me at the party when I was gone for so long?' There were some tears in her eyes and I realized that it wasn't part of the play, she was so mad at me she wanted the whole school to know about it.43

'You said you went to the bathroom! what did you want me to do? Go to the bathroom and kick a door out to possibly find you shitting your guts out?' I couldn't believe she would try to humililate me in front of the whole school!44

'I didn't even get to the bathroom... My mom called me, saying she just had an accident and both my dad and my brother are dead... She seemed happy when she said that. She said that even though she thinks its a tragedy at least she can now finally go wherever she wants to. What I asked her what about me, there was a long silence after which she said that she can spend one year for getting ready while I finish high school. You know how my mom is, she was probably planning to leave right after the funeral. She hated my dad and couldn't care less about me or my brother! And when I wanted to go home you were too busy talking to your new best friend to even ask me what's wrong!' I just sat there shocked, looking at her tears.45

'Why didn't you tell me then? What? you thought I could read your mind? I thought you were just jealous and wanted to stop me from talking to my friend! And why did you have to ruin the play? So that you could tell the whole school what a jerk I am for not being able to read your twisted mind?' Now I was mad at her, why couldn't she just tell me what was going on before the play?46

'You would just tell me I was overreacting if I would talk to you in private, I was hoping that if I would say all of it while everyone was watching you, then you would feel some pressure and want to say the right thing...'47

'If you wanted me to say specific things maybe you should've wrote your own script! Then it could at least be a real play!' I was so mad I didn't even know what I was saying...48

'All right, I'll make it easier for you, I'll give you a huge hint, my mom wishes I would be in that car with her, and I've been having a lot of problems lately, I'm failing all the tests and none of the people watching us right now are making it any easier for me! Yet I try to convince myself that you care enough for me not to let me do anything stupid! Do you?' 49

'Are you threatening to kill yourself if I won't say that I love and care about you in front of all those people? Do you realize how ridiculous you are right now? I know you wouldn't do that, but you know what? I'm so furious right now I wouldn't even care if you'd kill yourself! You're just insane!'50

And then she smiled, the most beautiful smile ever. I couldn't see anythig besides that smile. And then she fell to the ground, and I noticed the blood coming out of her nose and everyone staring at me, waiting for me to do something.51

A couple of hours later some doctor told me that she took a handul of pills right before the play, she already decided to die before we even had a chance to talk. I somehow understood her, she wanted everyone to know that she didn't do it because of me, that if there was one person she could count on it was me. And I blew it, making a jerk out of myself n front of everyone.52

'One more thing, I don't think she was able to hear anything for a couple of minutes before her death.'53

The doctor said to me, and I guessed hee knew exactly what happened. She died hoping I said I loved her more than anything.54

She wasn't mad at me, she wanted to make it more bearable for me, even though she already made her decision. How could she think she could make a hell bearable? How could she think I would be able to even move after something like that? And how could I possibly live as if everything would be ok and today would never happen?55

If I could act the way she wanted me to, maybe I would be able to forgive myself eventually, but for now I guess I can just try to live on. Because sometimes it's better to swallow your pride, listen to the other person and say what they want to hear. If I would do that I would still remember this day forever, but maybe I would be able to eventually move on. I didn't, and I know that I won't ever be able to live like today never happened.