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Ben walked away from Sam’s apartment with a slow rage pulsing through him. He had really never been so angry and was sort of scared of the way he was reacting at the moment. 2

Watching Sam fuck that guy, watching him kiss him, lick him…fucking touch him…it was enough to send his emotions to the sky and he didn’t know what to do for relief. 3

If only Sam had been honest and told him why he left. He knew that Sam was semi-afraid of commitment and he knew he had been too clingy for Sam’s taste, but to just leave? Come on. And another reason he was so frustrated was his own inability to leave the situation. He had a perfectly capable and gorgeous guy who obviously loved him, but Ben just couldn’t stop comparing Jax to Sam. Sam was so strong and dominant where Jax was slightly weak and more feminine. Which wasn’t a total turn off considering, but after Sam, …well, there was just no comparison. 4

Ben wiped at his face angrily as another tear rolled down his cheek and whipped out his cell phone. He knew that Sam wouldn’t let that little fucker out of the house until close to morning, so he had time. He had time to try and settle before he did something totally stupid and rash. He hit speed three and sent out a call to Jax. 5

“Ben?” Jax sounded tired, as if he were sleeping. He had only left Ben’s place a few hours before and Ben knew he was most likely catching up on sleep. 6

“I need you,” he said looking up and down second street. Despite the time, the street was deserted so he used his skill and dashed quickly to the other side of the road, waiting for Jax to reply. 7

“Baby, your so going to give me a complex if you keep callin like this,” Jax teased. When Ben didn’t say anything, he turned serious. “Where?” 8

“Come to my place, no, wait…is there anyone at yours?” 9

“Ben, honey, are you ok? You sound upset. What is it, baby?” The softness in Jax’s voice went straight to Ben’s stomach, again reminding him of Sam. Though Sam had been so hard, on occasion that subtle softness had showed. Ben had cherished those moments. 10

“I just need you, Jax. Now is there anyone there?” 11

“Ki. But he is leaving; come over,” Jax said, “I’ll make you some food.” 12

“No,” Ben interrupted, shooting down Main and heading toward the small house that Jax and two other of his friends shared, “I’m not hungry. For food.” 13

“Just get here,” Jax said still sounding worried. “Hurry.” 14

‘I’m already on the way,” Ben said not wanting to hang up. Talking with Jax was enough to calm him down and he didn’t want to break the connection. He didn’t want the rage to come back. “When does Ki leave? I want you alone.” 15

“He’ll be gone in an hour or so. Ben?” 16

“What?” 17

“Baby, you sound hurt. Or like your …uh, crying,” Jax hesitated. 18

“Don’t be a fucking idiot Jax, and don’t make me change my mind. I’m almost there.” He snapped the phone shut, hating that Jax knew he was crying. And fuck him for crying. Sam obviously didn’t fucking care. His eyes teared up again as his heart screamed, wanting to turn around and bust in on the two fucking love birds and show them what was what. He wanted to toss that little bitch over the balcony then fuck Sam. Fuck him like he never had been allowed to do before. Just to punish him for making him so upset. 19

God. That would piss Sam off. To be put on the bottom. To be ruled over. But Ben knew he would take it. He knew he would take it and work his anger into pleasure. And when it was done, he knew Sam would turn the tide and fuck him twice as hard, maybe even biting into his throat like he had done with shitfuck tonight. 20

‘Jax. Jax. Jax. Think Jax. Calm down….don’t be stupid…calm down…clear your head…’21

Even his thoughts were muddy. Sam had complete control over him. And if he didn’t get him back, he was going to lose his fucking mind….’Jax. Jax. Jax….God, Ben, calm down…’22

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