My Guardian Angel and True Love

Being a girl is not the easiest. Neither is finding your true love. At points it get's better and at points it sucks. It's nice to know that your not the onlt one and that true love can happen when you least expect it.1

It all started when geowing up as a child. My parents were split up when i was only three and i had a new step-father at the age of five and a new step mother at the age of six. I switched back and forth between my parents which I did not like. My mother almays to busy with work that she didn't have enough time for me to be in acticities or to even spend time with me. I grew up feeling unloved by my mother never beingthere even though she said she loved me.2

When I went to my dad's. My dad wad working too but i had a stepmom at home. She tool me shopping and alwayshad a freat time unlike with me stepfather who was exactly like my mom. My mom and father never got along and couldn't even talk to eachother without fighting which broke my heart.3

While growing up it was a war between my two families trying to decide what was right for me. My mother and my stepmother was just a war of their own. My mom wold tell me she only bought my love and she would try to cinvince me that while growing up she was there for me but I truely know that she only saw me once a week as a baby. She would never come get me because she would be working. My aunt or my dad had me. Then when I grew up to where I started school she wanted me. Thats because all the baby stuff was done and she didn't have to do much. I had to dit with her when she had classes after school. I couldn't join anything because she couldn't take me. I didn't haveany close friends Because i couldn't do anything with them. I became to dislike my mother very much.4

I went threw school with a boyfriend at my side ever since third grade. My boyfriend I believed were the only love I had. I only got to see my dad two times a week and the feeling of no love from a mother. My boys were the only love I had to depend on and to make me happy.5

At a young age I wasn't the best little girl ever. My mom paid no attention to my life or the problems I had that I never got yelled at for making a stupid little decisions. I was never taught how to match. I wore cheap clothing that want even my size. At my moms I lived a whole diffrent life at schiil then at home that she didnt even know or even care about. She barley knew any of my friends and could onle name two or three of them. My mom was never home to tell me to do my homework but i was good enough to still do it without being forced. It got to points where I was lucky to get threw a whole movie without my mom not to do anything wlse durring the movie. Some times we never even got to watch the whole thing.6

Then one of my ex's knew a guy like me striving for someone to love him. So many of the same problems he has are the same as mine. At first we were scared to call eachother until I got a phone call from this boy Ryan. He was the nicest a guy has ever been to me. It turned out he lived only twenty minutes away from me. Ryan and me aet up a blind date at a near by skating rink. When we met I could see his mouth drop and his eyes full of love. We had so man memories together. My parents sisn't like the fact of the long distance and that I barly knew him. I remember ten days into our relation ship he laughed at me the whole time i watched a scary lifetime movie and he never forgot that! Or even the time when I laughed at him while baking a cake. Ryan would help me with homework and even be there for me when I was down. I grew so close to him that for sure I would pick him over my own mother. His family became my family and basically took me in. They even sent me presents on holidays or just gave me gifts. They treated me as if I was family. My mom wasnt there so it was if they were. Ryan loved me enough that when I told him I cheated on him he tool it calm and acted like it didnt happen and said "everyone makes mistakes".7

ryan had his problems too. Ryan did drugs and was into his gang. He also westled at an arena in real fightings. ryan was hooked on all that until i told him i didnt like that. He stopped the fighting and gang business and even tryed to stip the drugs which he did and i was proud. He still had a past that he couldnt forget which also made him have anger issues. I made Ryan go to a councler to help him control his anger. It worked good too. I feel like i changed him in a better direction. He might not see the change but i did.8

Ryan had changed my life and my mom saw that i was getting serious and she didnt like it. Me and my mom fought so much that i wanted to move to my dads which was an hour and fifteen minutes away from Ryan. I had to make a choice. I loved ryan but i knew if this is love then it would last no matter the distance. Our love proved to be right. Ryan and me still were inlove. We were threw some hardships in the middle but we never let it pull us apart for to long.9

Moving to my dads changed my life. I moved from an empty house where i could do whatever to a full house and where parents who watch your every move and find out everything. Many of my secrets were discovered from my past and i got in trouble alor from not being used to the disaplin. I couldnt talk to ryan as much because it was long distance. That still never got in our way. Ryan was my first date to a high school dance. It wasaround our nine month annivirsity too. I remember that whole night perfectly. My friends trea and Jenn hung with us all night and i still have lots of pictures fsom that night too.10

Ryan das understood me more thatn my parents. He has seen what i been threw and is a more trusting person thatn anyone i know. He has been my own guardian angel. I hope there is more to come.11

Ryan and me have been datting for a year and a half and i love him even more than the begining of our relationship. If we can go threw long distance and so many hardships then we can last forever. He's my angel and my true love.12