“You’re something else, you know that?” Jin asked with chuckle. Leah could only smile in response. One person who’d always manage to make her happy was Jin. It was effortless with him. She loved that. She had to take that moment to recognize that as she listened to his joking of how she could get Ray to do anything for her.1
“Perhaps that’s true…but only to a certain extent with consequences.” She said as tucked a lock of her hair behind her ear. 2
“Well this one will cost you big I suppose?” He asked, still smiling and bringing back that youthful grin he seemed to never have lost. She knew that this was a moment to never be taken for granted. It wasn’t often that her superior showed his pearly whites to anyone. His expression lost a bit of humor after hearing those words and she braced her self mentally for the over protective father onslaught to come her way.3
“What do you mean with consequences? Does he harass you Leah? Tell me now and I will see to it that he-”4
“No he doesn’t dad. Calm down please. It’s fine.” She knew by simply saying that one word, he’d calm him self. It seemed like a comfort for Jin and she could admit to herself that it was a comfort for her as well.’5
He glowered at her, but had obviously let the topic go. This was something else. The reason why she came to his office.6
“We need to talk about you and this mission Leah.” His tone was still stern but had a bit of ice in it. 7
“What is there to talk about?” She asked with a simple shrug. 8
“Play dumb. That’s fine, but I will see to it that you know exactly what’s on my mind before you leave here.”9
She sighed and sat up in the chair, arms folded under her chest and her poker face tightly bolted in place. This was not what she felt like discussing, but Jin was relentless and if she couldn’t respect her wishes as her father, he’d see to it that he used his rank on her and made sure that she’d obey. 10
“Shoot…” She said as she waited. He paused a moment and leaned forward with his hands clasped together on the thick glass table.11
“Leah…” his voice had lost some of its coldness. “You’re all I have left. After you there is no one else for me to come home to. So I ask you this one favor…please give a damn about your life when you step out into that forest. Don’t make this a suicidal mission. I know you are well capable and skilled enough to take down any task placed before you. Do that, but make sure you come back home. Honestly? I’m certain if there is anymore sanity left in me to take another lost.”12
His words had really hit home. She felt a dark cloud descend into his office and hovered over her. Jin really didn’t have to go that far, but he made sure that she knew that there was no hope for him if she was gone. Perfect. Well it wasn’t hard for her to survive. That’s what she always thought, but this mission was different in many ways. She watched his face before she responded. So many emotions flickered over his tawny face that it left her making mental notes of them all. He really was hanging from a thin thread whit sanity. So this one…she had to return home for.13
“Dad…I’ll be fine…and I’ll come back.” She whispered to him. The tension in the room lifted as he sighed in relief. 14
“I’m glad to hear this. I really do care for you Leah…that’s all.” He assured her. Jin didn’t want her to think he was selfish…no that was the last thing he needed. Leah was his little girl now and always, he had to do his vital best to see to it that she survived this epidemic, even though she made it hard on him by wanting to be on the fields when the fight started. She had grown from the meek little girl who shook at the sound of her own voice. So much had changed…15
“If that will be all sir, I have to see Lt. Ross.” She stated as she stood and the chair vanished into thin air. Space was always important to Jin, hence the reason he had the tech team create Hollo Furniture. They only appeared if necessary. His office was full of them.16
“By all means, you are dismissed. I’ll prompt you when it is time to meet for the mission to come.”17
“Very well sir.” She was all business again as the door slid open silently and she strode down the corridor. This sector of The Hall was basically devoted to military heads office space, so she really didn’t have far to go, though she’d loved to have to walk a mile to get to him. She wasn’t into whining especially from Ray…his whining was on a whole different level. Well she’d just have to bite the bullet for what she hoped was only five minutes or less.18
She placed her finger on the scanner and it accepted her print. The machine only did so if you were the scheduled agenda for the person you wished to see on the inside. If your name was not entered into that schedule, well knocking was your next option. The door slid open to reveal the large glass desk in which Ray sat behind of. Leah quickly assessed that there was a knot in his forehead that suggested that this was going to be longer than five minutes.19
“Well…come in.” He said, hid hands still clasped in front of him and his eyes piercing hers. A normal person would flinch under a glare like his but she was accustomed to Ray’s bitch fest face. No way that was about to phase her. She took sure steady steps into the room and stood before his desk. A chair appeared behind her the instant she came to a halt and she took the seat without asking. With legs crossed and eyes staring effortlessly at Ray’s heated eyes, she sighed and clasped her hands in her laps.20
“What is that I can do for you sir?” She asked in a bored tune. The room had gone quiet for far longer than it needed to be. She watched him shift in his seat and then stood with a bone cracking stretch.21
“Leah,” he started to say, his back to her as he played with his trinkets on the stand next to his desk.22
“Yes sir.” She answered.23
“I don’t understand you sometimes…did you know that?” His question wasn’t the one she’d expected to be first on the interrogation.24
“No sir I didn’t know that. Care to explain to me your need to understand me?” She shouldn’t have prompted anything from him but it was kind of hard brushing that one off.25
He turned then to show her the grin that appeared across his face and it made her heart slam against her rib cage. She didn’t like that. Her body shouldn’t react to such a simple gesture. Perhaps it was because she wasn’t acclimate to seeing him so carefree. Well he was from time to time but never did she see this grin before.26
“Perhaps that is a good idea.” He walked slowly to the side of his desk and stared down at her. 27
“Leah, you make me wonder. Sometimes-well most of the time actually-you’re too hard to talk to. You make it a task just to have small talk with.”28
“I don’t like small talk sir.”29
“Well that is obvious really. Then there are times that I feel as if you have the same feelings for me that I have for you.” The room was really quiet then accept for the sound of Leah’s pulse bursting in her ears. Wrong turn, this conversation had taken a wrong turn. She wasn’t hoping for this. Where was the Ray she knew that was short tempered and annoying? She didn’t want to see this soft spoken, understanding and very attractive side of him. No not him.30
“Well? Do you?” He asked prompting an answer. Leah wanted so bad to shift in her seat, but doing that would mean his words were affecting her, and it was nothing Ray loved more than to see her squirm under his control. 31
“Lieutenant-”32
“Leah this conversation obviously has taken a turn from business, stop being so formal.”33
“Then Perhaps we should place it back on track and proceed with business then.”34
“To tell the truth, this was never really about business to begin with.” His words cut off the stream of words that she had piled up in her throat to spit at him. Now she had to swallow them and find something else to say to that. Ray was obviously into taking her by surprise today and that appealed to her more than it disgusted her.35
She watched him take the last few steps around the table and stop before her. She looked up at him through thick dark lashes and dared her heart to be still. That seemed to be impossible at the moment though. She had to take control of this situation before it fell head first overboard. 36
“Ray.” Why did her voice sound so thick and breathy all at once? She cleared her throat and cursed that cocksure grin that turned up the left corner of his mouth in response.37
“Ray I think this has to stop now. No. I know this has to stop. We aren’t fit for each other, except for missions. That’s about it.”38
“So are you saying you’re not attracted to me in the least bit way?” Why the hell wasn’t he yelling at her? Ray was making it extremely hard for Leah to want to get up and storm out of his office enraged. That would help if, if he would only say the wrong thing.39
Leah hadn’t realized that she’d gone quiet for so long. Ray obviously saw that as a good thing. Could Leah honestly say that She wasn’t attracted to him? She wasn’t one to lie about simple things, but this wasn’t simple at all. This was what would either crush them both or bloom something new. 40
“I…well…” She licked her bottom lip and finally had to shift in her seat under his glare. That was all he needed to see. Leah found herself being yanked up from her seat and slammed into Ray’s rigid chest with a force that left her knees buckling. His arms wrapped about her waist just before she could fall and held her tightly against his body.41
She wanted to protest, but that was impossible with Ray crushing his lips so hard against hers. There was the passion she knew he had. The aggression she’d been waiting for from she’d stepped through the door. Ray had bottled it up to show her this way and not with words. She didn’t know whether to be angered or grateful, all she did know was the way he was squeezing her nipple as he sucked her lips was her undoing. Her mouth opened to his and his tongue explored and massaged her mouth. She tasted him and it was like his passion had become a nectar flavor mixed with a tinge of vanilla. Her mouth watered to that taste and she found herself wanting more. A moan escaped her throat when he’d pushed her against a wall and pulled her shirt over her head. Ray’s eyes couldn’t get enough of what it saw. 42
“Mmm…Leah if you only knew…”43
That was all he said, and then his lips were at her throat, playing with the pulse that moved there like some trapped thing. She held him there and panted in ecstasy, feeling the warmth and moisture between her thighs grow. The clasp at her pants had come undone and she felt it being dragged from over her hips and down her legs. Ray moved down her body with hungered kisses as he pulled the rest of her pants of and flung somewhere in the room. He was being so reckless. Someone could interrupt them at any moment. 44
As if sensing that she was thinking too much, he rubbed his thumb over the head of her clit and watched her twitch and moan from the pleasure. Her fingers scraped down the wall as he continued his torture on the little bud between her legs. The fabric was soft but he knew if he were to remove it the spot between her legs would feel even softer. He was so hard and she was so far gone that they weren’t sure if foreplay was possible. 45
He hooked his fingers around the edges of her panties and yanked them away, his eyes never leaving her face. Coming from his kneeling position he pulled down his zipper and found easily what he was looking for. It sprung from him as if it had been dieing for oxygen all along. 46
Leah licked her lips and moaned again as he closed in the space between them and lifted her legs off the ground. Pressing her against the wall made it possible for him to use both hands. He yanked down the straps of her bra and loved what he saw there. Perked and ready for his lips, her nipples called up to him. He grasped them and sucked mercilessly at the little buds. Leah was grinding against his groin, trying to find a way to fit him inside her while he was preoccupied with her breasts. 47
He was definitely teasing her. She felt the stiffness grow impossibly harder, clearly wishing to be inside her, but he wasn’t doing anything about it. She took that moment to reach down and try to pull him into her. Her pussy was pulsing with need, so she had to. She probably would’ve gotten him in her if he hadn’t yanked her hand away and pinned them above her head.48
“Stop teasing me!” She gasped as he licked bottom lip. She heard a deep rumble in his chest and saw soon that he was chuckling. 49
“Damn it put me down Ray! This was a mistake!” She exclaimed, her inpatients winning over her arousal. She wasn’t one to beg, even in sex. Ray should count himself fortunate for even getting his lips on hers. No one else got where he was now…well except for one guy but he wasn’t alive to speak of it. Donnie had taken her virginity at seventeen and shortly after, he had a mission. Never made it back to rat her out. She was glad but was sorry that he had to lose his life.50
Ray kept her hands over her head and was applying a lot of force. He knew that it would like nothing for Leah to worm her way out of his grasp. He moved the hardness against her clit and the sound that came from her would forever play in his mind. 51
“I don’t think you want to go Leah. But I do think that you want this.” He said, rubbing his hard shaft against her clit again. Leah was either going to have an aneurism or she was about to climax from that one stroke. She had neglected her body the pleasures of a man for too long. This is where it left her; dangling by the arms crying out for a good fucking.52
“Don’t you?” He asked the obvious.53
“No! Now put me down!” She was too stubborn for her own good. 54
“Leah, you’re lying. You know you want me, just say it.”55
“Do you burst a nut just by hearing me say I want you to fuck me?!” Her hormones were making her crazy.56
“Yes. Now help me with that…” 57
”Fuck you Ray.” She said from clenched teeth. Her legs slid down the side of his body and she felt him trying to keep control on her arms and her legs at the same time. He strained his muscles to keep her pressed against the wall but that task would be impossible.58
Leah lifted her right knee slowly, fighting with his leg that was trying to keep it down.59
“Don’t.” He said and it was the first time since the meeting that she saw his true features come back. 60
“Let me go.” Her body was still aroused but she could control it. Her voice was steady and hard again. Her knee kept pushing up till she felt the hardness there. If Ray dropped her, then he’d spare himself the pain that would come, but if he kept her there, he’s risk his dick being crushed to powder.61
“Leah stop being a bitch. All you have to say is that you want me to fuck you. I’ll do it.”62
“Fuck you Ray, there that’s one person you could go and fuck. Let me go.” 63
”Leah-aaah!” Her knee was pushing his erection up against his stomach.64
“Let. Me. Go.” She said again her knee moving up a few more inches. Leah’s leg could stay in the position the whole day and never tire. She was sure Ray knew that as well. He was straining to keep from yelling. The pain would soon become too much for him. 65
”Come on Lee, give me a break here.” She had run cold of mercy, and proved that when her knee pushed up harder. They both fell to the floor with him spitting out every profanity in the book. She moved to sit up but felt him pushing her back down and pressing her body against the carpet. She looked up at him with a look equivalent to a blade to the jugular. 66
“I don’t think you’re getting what I’m saying to you Ray…” She said in a low dangerous voice.67
“Why do you find it so hard to be the submissive one?”68
”Because I’m too dominate to be broken. I beg to no one even if it means neglecting me what I want.”69
“You have too much pride Leah, and it will be the death of you some day. You’re acting like a cunt because I asked you to tell me that you wanted me? One day you’ll beg me…”70
“Hold you breath Ray.” She said shoving him off of her and standing quickly. She searched for her clothes and saw her bra hanging off the edge of the table. Her panties were under the table, the pants weren’t too far, but her jersey was under Ray. She collected and adorned the pieces that were easier access and stalked back to him. He was watching her the whole time. The look in his eyes held fire and want. She wasn’t about to look there long for him to trap her again. She bent and pulled her jersey from under him and was surprised that he didn’t do anything. As she pulled it on he had stood and shoved his hands in his pockets. She wished he wouldn’t look at her so intently. If he’d cuss at her or call her a bitch again she wouldn’t feel a tinge of regret, but Ray was out to make this hard on her. 71
“Permission to leave sir.” She said after a moment of staring him down. He searched her face as if he lost something there or wouldn’t be satisfied until he saw it. She saw when he’d given up and was grateful.72
“Goodbye Leah.” He side stepped her, careful not to graze her as he did, and went back to his desk. She turned away from the wall and saw him exhale and run his fingers through his hair. So easy. He’d given up so easily. Maybe this was it for them, the end of Ray’s rope. A knot formed in her forehead as she watched him get back to his paperwork and acted as if she was no longer there. Leah felt uncomfortably ashamed for some reason.73
“Bye.” She turned towards the door and walked out the room. She hadn’t seen that coming. What was Ray trying to do to her? Could this mean that he wanted more than sex from her or was this all just a false pretense? She was too befuddled to really come up with an explanation. She needed a shower as soon as possible, and a meal. The day had gone and she’d forgotten food. But first…that bath. 74
