Fragment Of Sorrows

Gone.1

Forevermore lost.2

Never again to return.3

I choked on my tears, laying on the cold, hard ground in which I had fallen upon. Tear stains charred my cheeks, only to be replaced by new ones. Why? Why did this have to happen to me? To him?4

Silently the fresh snow escaped the heavens, falling onto my cold, pale face. To lost the one you care for the most... Is it really worth dying for? I still ponder myself with that question.5

My body was numb, so cold. My heart was shattered. Nothing I did mattered anymore. Not as long as he was still alive, I couldn't rest. But why did he have to do this to me? Abandon me. I should've known I was just a tool to him. I narrowed my eyes, sitting myself up, my tattered brown scarf around my neck covered in red snow mixed with slush.6

I shook my head, my tears falling into the snow, quickly becoming ice due to the low temperature. I dragged my numb legs through the snow, my breathing becoming extremely short. Sure, love is an emotion to be played easily with. But did it satisfy him enough to play with me and tear my heart in two? Men always know how to get to your emotions, then to toss you aside. Why did I become a fool and believe that we could possibly be together?7

As I walked forward, my tears stopped and my arm bled heavily, leavinga long trail of red snow behind me. the crimson liquid was absorbed into the snow, only to later taint it with my sorrow and rage. The snow stopped falling, as did the wind but it stopped blowing harsly. Everything was still. Life was still.8

I approached a small, barren pice of land. It was strange, considering that no snow had fallen on it. Following it was a small lake, completely frozen by the ice. Cattails and plants stuck up from the bottom of the lake, frozen in position. I sighed, slowly seeing my breath and walking to the lake. I sat on the edge of it, grabbing my arm and wincing in pain as the blod dripped intensely onto the ice. It oozed slowly from my wound and made some of the ice melt. Unfortunately, it turned black, hard and cold. My blood was dark crimson, basically a black colour.9

I don't know why, but everyone nowadays are just after others' emotions. Is that a game to them? To just toy with one's heart? Is that appealing? Tears escaped my eyes once more, slowly streaming down my face and onto the ice. I heard a faint noise, a very sudden noise.10

A crack.11

My weight must've caused the ice to crack, even though I was onto the edge of it. Quickly I slipped into the freezing cold water, my body shivering all over. My long black hair became damp and some was stained with my blood. I barely held onto the edge, looking down into the water. I saw nothing, only dark objects, which I assumed to stones. I frowned and pulled myself up.12

Footsteps.13

Familiar footsteps.14

And... Humming?15

I looked up, removing some of my hair from over my eye with my free hand. I looked up as my eyes widened slightly. You would think he would be with someone else, to be with a happier person. But he didn't. His silver eyes looked into my frightened hazel ones, only to slightly smirk.16

"Raine." He whispered my name, standing at the edge. He looked down at me, to appear disappointed.17

"..." I said nothing, only continue to stare.18

He held his hand out, smiling softly. I smiled lightly, putting my hands in his. 19

But then, everything changed at that moment.20

He pulled me up, only to hide his dark smirk with his shoulder. He grabbed my hand tightly, only to crack my wrist. I gasped slightly, wincing in pain and glaring at him. I was write. People don't change. 21

"Betrayal is the hearts true essence. Raine."22

The last thing I saw was blood escaping my forehead. I fell back, hitting my head onto the ice and blood escaping my mouth. The entire lack cracked. I looked up to see a trail of smoke go up towards the sky, a silver object pointing towards me. Again, the pain returned. I coughed up more as crimson flew from my sides onto the ice. So many holes were through me. I was a sponge, absorbing all of the damage.23

Slowly I floated down the lake, my eyes closing while blood seeped through my eyelids. Bubbles escaped the side of my mouth, my hair trailing above me. The blood of my many wounds trailed to the surface of the water. I held my hand up, and although my eyes were closed and my hand still cold, I could feel his warm embrace around me. Or was it all a mere image?24

I floated to the bottom of the lake, my body completely paralyzed. I couldn't move. Nor speak. Words were not needed, nor wanted.25

I wanted to be with him... So that, our lives would entwine together and become one. But I was wrong, to think, that that would ever happen. The water surrounding me became warm, as my body was too quick to respond that I was out of breath. I frowned as my lungs ached for air, my insides ready to explode from the lack of oxygen.26

It happened. Everything stop. Nothing moved. My body was dead.27

I didn't feel a heartbeat anymore, nor did I even hear my own thoughts. Iassumed I was dead, considering I have no heartbeat, but how am I still alive?28

This was endless. I was still floating down to the bottom of the lake, seeing images of small children float around me. They were smiling, giggling, as if they were expecting me. All but one child smiled.29

Raine Utomi.30

That was clearly me, as a child, watching as the other children played about. And although this was a lake, I could see the image of a playground that I used to play at as a little girl. I was frowing, kicking a soccer ball into the wall, watching as the older girls swooned over Kizuru. Honestly, was that necessary?31

I can see why people say before you die, you see the image of your life flash in front of you.32

I opened my eyes very slightly, only to see the still image of him. 33

Hallucination. I must have been hallucinating.34

Or did I truly see a tear stream down his cheek?