Taking a Chance for a Change (RikuxAxel)

Sighing, I leaned back against the crooked chimney and looked out at the lights of Twilight Town.1

The small town was so beautiful and bright at night; the urge to share it with someone else always made me feel lonelier than I actually was. However, at the same time the idea of companions made me sickeningly ill with memories of Sora and Kairi.2

Kairi… I always thought I’d loved her, but Sora always made it worse. His ability to accept me back after everything I put him through just for Kairi, whom I didn't even care about. All the strife, danger, the sacrifices... I was just trying to one-up him, as always. Trying to prove myself better than him. Even now, when he is still so willing to accept me back as a friend... as an equal... My own selfishness would never allow me to grab his ever-extended hand; The overwhelming humiliation and pity was unbearable, and The guilt for doing what I had done to them still plagues my mind every day and night.3

Ever since we were all sucked out of Destiny Island, things went downhill for everyone, especially me. I got pulled onto the wrong side; I lost the ones I loved all because of myself. I could never blame the darkness for what I did to Sora and Kairi. It was all me.4

So now left in the cold, I’m lonely, homeless, and wallowing in an ocean of self-pity. Still staggering under the weight of grief I had just experienced for myself, I gaze down wearily at the ever-reflecting lights on the windows of the large jewelry shop. Leaning harder onto the brick structure and looking out into the main square of Twilight Town, I make a decision- Something that I’ve been planning for a while.5

I need a change, and I’m going to make that change tonight.6