Quote Medley

"I'm not perfect."1

9/15/072

"My friends, you don't know how hard it is to earn the sweetest prize - a parent's pride. It's so encouraging to know you haven't deserted them."3

9/30/074

"Oh! Tell me, is anything better and more poisonous than pride? Indeed, it is the best and worst of feelings."5

10/13/076

"In the worst cases, they don't let me try. No one should get in the way of trying."7

"Don't give me a reputation. Let me be."8

11/19/079

"I fell asleep in darkness. I dreamt confused dreams."10

"How do we know what doings are the Devil's doings and which are Christs? ... And oh, what does it mean?"11

11/23/0712

"I never knew that it was called philosophy."13

"There are theories, but these theories will remain forever so, alas! They are unprovable."14

"My friend, I have always believed in the light."15

"Truth! Light! There is truth in these words."16

"I do not believe that there is physical suffering in hell. The fire there burns the soul."17

12/10/0718

"So often one and one make more than two... You see this phenomenon; it is the basis of life in the universe."19

12/13/0720

"I am thinking about my family of three."21

"We are like three protons, held together by that nuclear force of humanity: love."22

12/18/0723

"I have a secret. I am afraid of the dark."24

"Light is illumination; love is warmth; darkness is blindness; hatred is cold."25

12/31/0726

"Why do I repel people?"27

1/14/0828

"Once, I wrote that no gravity holds down our mind. But now I know that logic is the gravity of our minds. Such it is that God made us with our own will, yet not free enough to stretch into infinite heaven, not even in our thoughts."29

1/25/0830

"I need to find more words for myself. What is the word for these?31

- The feeling of contradicting heart and mind32

- When you know you are wrong but feel you are right33

- A need to explain your point of view, but a stronger reluctance to, because you know your viewpoint is incorrect34

- A need for self-punishment, but a fear of it35

- the knowing that everything that hurts you is your fault, but the need to blame it on someone else36

I'll need these words for my autobiography."37

2/1/0838

"Why does forgiveness hurt more than accusation?"39

2/3/0840

"I am so lonely, but I have you. You who are a listener, who can hear but not talk. Who are only a copy of my self. But I am you and you are me. I am lonely, and all I have is my other self."41

"Nowadays, Fridays leave me shedding tears of the whole weeks burdens. If only I could shed my troubles with them."42

2/8/0843

"They would not talk to me. They showed me no respect."44

"Oh, how miserable! How happy I seem! ... How could she possibly think that I was happy, when inside I drowned in penned tears? I tried to explain, without really explaining, the rue I had inside. How could she think me happy? But of course, it was my mask."45

2/20/0846

"Other poets blossom in fields of happiness. Their poems are songs that tell of life's cheer. ... But I sing of darkness. I drift in shadows cast by light, seeing darkness."47

"Happiness is too shallow a feeling to write about."48

3/10/0849

"Oh why? Why did I make that mistake?"50

"Oh! I'm mad at the world. Actually, I'm mad at myself. But I don't want to take the blame! I just want to be innocent again. I've done too many things wrong. I just want to be innocent.51

But I know I'm not. I'm guilty! I think forgiveness is too much to ask for. How can I forgive myself for messing up?"52

"I'd like to think that these things are not my fault. But they are, and it's tearing me apart."53

4/9/0854

"I made a new friend!"55

"It does get lonely here, so I'm grateful for that."56

4/27/0857

"Once, --- asked me if I ever went to the movies or to the mall with my friends, or if we visited eachother often. I said, 'No.' 58

Then, she asked, 'Do you miss it?'59

I couldn't decide my answer."60

5/6/0861

"Oh, my friend, I did a stupid thing today, but how to tell you? Humans do stupid things in anger."62

5/10/0863

"When I look back on this, will I understand? Or will I even feel ashamed....? I am ashamed, really, I am ashamed. Of a lot of things."64

5/28/0865

"I think that I have found the meaning of life, and it is love."66

6/1/0867

"It seems like everything's going right now, once I realized the meaning of life. Everything's right. Oh, thank you God!"68

6/6/0869

"I don't know what happened. ... I didn't have any friends until the end. Why?"70

"All I know is that it was probably my fault. It's always my fault."71

"But now, that's all over. I'm happy again because I have friends who care. And people who need me and teachers who like me."72

"I can't stop thanking God!"73

6/8/0874

"I'm so happy! I'm in China. I'm home."75

6/10/0876

"I feel rather confused, but I know that the confusement will pass."77

6/11/0878

"What is the meaning of life for self-centered people? ... There is no real meaning."79

"So one sentence I dare to write down as truth: Without love, life has no meaning."80

6/16/0881

"Is love just a type of desire? I would feel guilty to so lower such a beautiful thing."82

6/21/0883

"Love springs from within the human heart, and not into it from without."84

6/25/0885

"Am I afraid to live?"86

"Life is a risk. I have to stop being so cowardly or I'll be silent and alone. I need to go and live. Just live. No matter where I belong."87

7/4/0888

"I couldn't speak. I lost the will to. It actually hurt to talk."89

"In times of silent sorrow, one can only close their eyes and shake their head, so that they can only say one word: No."90

"She asked me what I wanted, and my answer varied from 'nothing' to 'I don't know'. I couldn't say anything else... I didn't know what I was supposed to want."91

7/5/0892

"I am wondering about duty... duty, that kills its servants, that killed Javert, though he followed duty as well as he could. Why did Javert commit suicide? He no longer know what was right and what was wrong. Valjean's unselfishness confused him. Why should anyone spare their enemy?"93

"It is impossible to be irreproachable, just as it is impossible not to sin."94

"Yup, I'm quoting Victor Hugo again... ... ...Truth! Light in every word! Yes, this is it, that is our meaning, it is love. But he also says that it is enough to love someone... why isn't it enough for me? What greater purpose do I seek? What do I want, what do I need?"95

7/6/0896

"My happiness is interrupted, because I have to make a desicion."97

7/20/0898

"I miss everybody!... I want to go to America... not for America, but for the friends I have there."99

"He's voicing his own fears, I think, but it isn't true."100

"Why do all of my happy poems have undertones of sadness?"101

"I feel the meaning of life deeper and truer each day. Loneliness holds me, but I know that I'm never truly alone."102

7/24/08103

"I'm alone104

But not unknown."105

7/26/08106

"There's a reason... there must be reason. There is a reason. There's a reason."107

8/2/08108