A Second Chance -3-

Keilan.  January 20.1

Hate dad can’t think don’t want to.  I don’t know what to do anymore.  I walk to Josh’s but his parents meet me at the door and ask me questions2

Parents: What are you doing here again?3

Me: I was hoping to see Josh?4

Parents: (exchange glances) You can’t see him.  He’s not allowed to see girls after this hour.5

Me: It’s really important.  Just a few minutes. Please?6

Parents: (glare) Do we look like people to be overridden? What’s your name?7

Me: Keilan8

Parents: Keilan…?9

Me: Stanton.10

Parents: He’ll get back to you when it’s not such in indecent hour11

Me: (looking, I’m sure, desperate) It’s really important.  I’ve had a problem and I need to talk 12

to Josh.13

Parents: (curious) What would this problem be, Keilan?14

Me: (still desperate, and pleading now) Uum… I really don’t like to talk about it.  It’s not something wrong I did or anything.  Or Josh.  Something… Uh… in my home-life.15

Parents: (looking a little confused) You and Josh can talk on the front porch.  I don’t want you two to leave this area.  Understand?16

Me: (SO grateful) Yes. Thank you so much.17

Parents: (grumble a bit to each other and walk upstairs to fetch Josh)18

Josh comes out and looks really angry with his parents.  He tells me that they’re overreacting and that they’re being stupid.  We sit down.  I start talking and venting and end up crying.  I hate crying so much so I get all mad at myself and digging my nails into the back of my wrist.  Josh makes me stop and hugs me until I’m done.  I haven’t cried in at least a year.  I’m ashamed but he tells me that it’s kind of relieving and that he does too sometimes to relieve the stress.  That makes me feel better.  His parents are watching from the window.  They look sad now.  I hope they’re sorry for making me answer so many questions.  19

Me and Josh talk a little more.  He talks about the movie that he saw with Aiden.  He still likes her, but she doesn’t want him anymore.  How sad… Boo-hoo-hoo.  Josh’s parents come outside and apologize to me.  They say that I don’t look well and maybe I should stay over there instead of going home at this hour.  I know that they could take me home in one of their cars.  I wonder if they’re just lazy or they want to watch me and make sure I’m real.  They must think I’m a little weird.  A lot weird probably. |:K:|20

Josh. Thursday January 21.21

à Keilan came over again and my parents gave her a hard time.  I explained a little to them that she had a bad home life and they finally let her stay over.  They thought we were together and ‘doing stuff’ in my room.  Right.  Me and Keilan.  She’s more like a sister.  But oh well.  My parents are odd.  She stayed the night and went to school with me this morning.  Then she had to go home so her dad wouldn’t get even more mad that she didn’t come home.22

à Aiden and I went to go watch a movie a few nights ago.  It was actually more fun going as friends than when we were together.  Neither one of us had to try to impress or anything.  It was great.  Well, it was only a movie.  But we talked through the whole thing and didn’t really watch much of it so much as passively listen and piss of the people sitting by us by talking.  Until about halfway through when some guy went and talked to one of the security people… Crazy old man.  Then we had to shut up and watch the rest.  We got out of there and started cracking up.  The movie was terrible.  But we had a good time making fun of the old guy on the way home.23

à I’m going on vacation In a few days.  My parents didn’t tell me until last night.  I think it’s some kind of camp type thing.  Something stupid like leadership camp.  Oh well.  I can practice my prep-annoying skills.  That’ll be fun.  And I’ll get out of school for a few days.  I don’t know why I’m going… I think it’s a school sponsored thing but I couldn’t really tell you for sure.24

à Anyways, I’m half asleep and it’s near midnight.  Wahoo.  My parents haven’t come to tell me to turn off my light yet.  What do ya know?  Maybe they’ve had a change of heart.  I think I’ll sleep with it on and get them thinking I stayed up all night.  Haha.  --==[Josh]==--25

Aiden. 1 – 21.26

I hate Kyle.  Stupid football player.  I hate him so much.  I’ve never hated anyone as much as him before, which is saying something.  The stupid bastard.  He thinks he can just come up to me and start a normal conversation like nothing ever happened.  I beat the crap out of him.  He deserved it.  No one in the world deserves it as much as him.  The ass.  Grr.  We had a chance meeting at the movie theatre.  And we were both going to see the same movie so we sat together… A movie that was full of smaller kids (the movie was PG-13 so a bunch of kids were there).  And he started holding my hand, which was ok.  He used to be pretty cool, and we were kind of friends.  Then he started poking his other hand into my shirt and feeling me all around and his other hand went to my pants.  The asshole.  I pulled my hand out of his and told him to stop.  He did.  For a few minutes.  Then he started again and I got so pissed at him.  All these little kids were watching.  So I stood up and punched him in the nose and walked out.  Then I had to wait for the movie to get over so my dad could come and pick me up.  I didn’t want him to know what had happened so I waited until everyone from that movie came out and looked for some change to call my dad.  Kyle came up and started to talk to me.27

“Hey.  You need a ride?” – Evil Bastard28

“No. Not from you.  Leave me alone” – Me accompanied by an evil glare29

“Look.  Can we talk?  I want to … “ – E.B. let that trail away30

“If you can tell me right here and keep it to under a minute” – Me.  I hated him even then31

“Fine.  I’m sorry.  I don’t know what came over me and I hope that you won’t hold it against me.  I want to make things right?” – E.B. I guess he was trying to apologize??32

“What? You?! Make things right with me?  Do you know what you did in there? In front of KIDS!” – At this point, I’m exasperated and trying not to yell.33

“They weren’t ‘kids.’ The youngest was probably 13.” – E.B. tries to redeem his actions?34

“Oh, and that means that they should have seen that??”  - I was  almost yelling35

I started to walk away and I passed in front of a side exit door.  Unfortunately for me.  He noticed it and pushed me out of it.  Of course, it had to be the generally unused side door, so the area was empty.  He kept a hold on my shoulders and shook me hard.36

“LOOK, Aiden.  I don’t care what you say.  I did what I did because I felt like it.  Do I need to justify everything I do with everyone around me before I do anything?  Just because of THAT?! No one even noticed!  And don’t tell me you didn’t like it.  You didn’t leave until after two times.  You must have wanted something.”  - He yelled and I got ready to run as soon as he released me.37

“I think that you’re an inconsiderate asshole.  Any decent guy would never have attempted that.  Never.” – I still waited for him to let go of my shoulders.   There was no way I could have gotten out of his grip without his ‘consent.’38

“I’ll show you just how decent I am.  You’ll see.  You’ll see.” He growled into my ear and pulled me way too close.  He started crushing me against the wall and kissing me and feeling up my shirt and down my pants.  I wanted him to die.  Every time I tried to bite him he’d grab me so hard it would hurt.  When I tried to kick him he stood on my feet so I couldn’t knee him either.  And he pinned my arms to my sides so I couldn’t punch him.  I just wanted to kill him.  To make him feel what I was feeling right then.  He threatened to knock me out and take me to his house if I didn’t stop fighting and trying to scream.  I was really afraid.  And it hurt.  And I wanted him to die.  He was crushing and invading my whole body and it felt like I was going to die.  Finally a man came out the side door and made to walk the other way before he saw what the Evil Bastard was doing to me.  He walked in and a second later came out with a few other really big men.  They beat Kyle up until he was on the ground and then one guy gave me his cell phone so I could call my dad.  The other man called the cops.  I thanked the men and they waited with me for my dad and the police to come.  Dad got there before the police and the police wanted the whole story so Dad heard it too.  I was afraid at first but he gave me a hug and the police put handcuffs on Kyle and put him in the police car so I would feel better.  I told them my story and they said that they would call us back.  They asked the names of the men who beat Kyle up and said they’d be calling the men too.39

They called us back a few days later and there was going to be a court hearing.  Kyle was 17 so he couldn’t really be tried as an adult but that could be a kind of rape they said.  But the jury didn’t want him to go to jail for a very long because he was ‘too young to be tried as an adult’ So he went to juvy fo a year and he had to pay a lot of money and do a whole lot of community service.  He just came back to school.   He’s a year behind which makes him in my grade.  I requested to have no classes with him and I’m transferring out of the one I found out I had.  I’ve learned to fight really well since then and he talked to me.  I don’t know what he was trying to say.  But I beat the crap out of him right there in the hallway.  I went to the office and got sent home but I told Dad and he understood.  He said he would have done the exact same thing.  I’m going to burn this entry or take it out… -Ade : -(40