My Goodbyes.

Friday evening... I'm sitting in the car waiting for you and my dad to come out of work.  Co-worker comes running towards me.  I knew something was wrong right away.  I ran inside, and I see you in my father's arms.  I was shocked, scared, didn't know what to do.  I called for an ambulance, and just looked at you in my dad's arm, passed out.  I can hear you still breathing,  but not moving or concious.  I wanted to cry, but im grown up, I can't cry, all i can do is just watch... and let myself cry inside my body.  I went to the hospital with you.1

Saturday, staying at the hospital, I only got an hour of sleep.  I see all your friends, and most of my friends as well.  I call everybody I know, and told them what happened.  You have collapsed at work, and I saw everything before my eyes.  Most of them came, to see you in your little hospital bed, in the small room on the 5th floor.  You just sleeping there,  cold hands, and pale face.  I was tired, but yet couldn't go to bed.  I did not know why, but i just couldn't sleep.2

Sunday,  6:00 A.M.  I wake up from a 2 hour rest, having only 3 total hours of sleep for the weekend.  I couldn't eat anything or drink.  I see you, still not moving, resting.  The doctor comes in, and asks my family if we were ready.  He reached over, and took out the Respirator, the only thing that was keeping you alive.  It was the hardest thing to see.  You dying right in front of my eyes.  I tried not to cry, and I didn't... but deep inside my heart just shattered.  You are now in a better place, called Heaven.  Please wait for me there.3

This is my goodbyes to you.  It was hard living with you,  but it's harder to live without you.  I felt depressed for 4 weeks straight, feeling all the guilt and how bad I treated to you. I'm sorry... I was just a bad kid.  4

R.I.P Mother5

12/19/1953 - 06/27/20046