Is this really happening???

So yesterday I found out a very horrific thing about my boyfriend. I have come to the conclusion that I am cursed, I have to be because I can never be happy.1

So what happened was I was waiting ALL DAY for him to get on Myspace and somehow ended up talking to his ex girlfriend and she was talking about him and then she told me something that made my heart drop.2

She told my that he had a Brain tumor and the only thing keeping him alive is medicine. Of course I thought she was lying to get him back but I asked him and he confirmed it. I started crying my eyes out.3

He said thats why he is the way he is,because he is living each day just waiting to die. How can someone want to live when they know that they will never be able to do some things because they are dying. I really can't write anymore right now I am sorry I will try later.4


7/29/08
Well things in my life are like a roller coaster anymore. My boyfriend has been living with me but with me being 17(almost 18) It has been getting very stressful. My parents don't trust me at all aparently and they are all the time bitching at me because they know I hate to not say anything back but I have to so my boyfriend can stay. So I bite my tongue and walk away. Some things have been bothering me and that would be that I am almost 18,in 2 months I will be 18, and I can't even sleep with my boyfriend. I'm not talking about sex either, I am talking about at night when your tired and all you want to do is cuddle with the one you love. Yeah that!
Well for instance last night, My dad went to see my grandma who just had a stroke so she was in the hospital and me and My boyfriend had just gotten into an argument and we talked about everything. He ended up sleeping in my room,which is next to my parents room (my mom being inside) and I had the door open so people wouldn't get the wrong idea. But guess what happened? Yeah we got yelled at,my dad's excuse?
well lets just say his exact words were " I don't care what you guys do,I just don't want you (my boyfriend) getting her pregnant because if that happens people are going to say " well where were you when she was having sex?" and he thinks children service are going to take my brothers away and all other kinds of shit. I know he is lying for one simple fact. Even if I were to be having sex with him and he ended up getting pregnant,no one could do anything and why? Well lets see maybe because I will be 18 in 2 MONTHS! No one would even think of me being pregnant.
I think it's a bunch of bullshit if you ask me,I am almost and adult and what will their excuse be when I am 18? I won't even give them the satisfaction. When I wake up the first thing I am going to do is pack. I don't care if I have a place to stay or not. I am so tired of being treated like a child when I have done nothing wrong and the whole time this is happening my younger brothers are destroying the house,getting into trouble,etc. 5

I will be damned if my own family is going to ruin my relationship. See I have been calling him my boyfriend but we plan to get married,not anytime soon but maybe next summer and how are we going to do that when I have a father who doesn't understand I can sleep better knowing my boyfriend is o.k. He hasn't been taking his medicine for his brain tumor and has been shaking alot but does anyone care? HELL NO!
That just brings me on another topic. My boyfriend has been working for my dad who owns his own construction company and this morning my dad goes and tells him If he is going to be holding his head or whatnot then he would rather not him go to work. I almost lost it when he said that. HE has no medication,no pain killers,NOTHING and my own father has the nerve to tell him that he shouldn't hold his head because it don't look professional. FUCK THAT!
I swear if I hear him be heartless one more time I am going to lose it, I know I will not only lose it but I think if this bull continues I will end up being kicked out. Guess what?!?!
I don't care,I would rather live on the streets with no roof over my head or anything then sit there and have my father treat his future son-in-law like if he dies it don't matter,just don't do it in front of him because it wouldn't look good.
I need help,that is the only reason I wrote this,I am lost and I have no idea what to do anymore.I need some advice,or anything. Just please someone help before I lose my family. I know if this continues the way it has I will leave and won't even think twice about going back.6

11/11/08
yes i know i haven't written in a very long time but i thought i would update everything since none of this is happening now. First of all I am no longer with Sage. I am going to start from the beginning....the end of August I did get kicked out but only for about 2 weeks,in that time frame though me and Sage argued ALOT. I am saying like a everyday thing. We went to live with 2 of my friends,the first still here in cincinnati which only lasted a week because she got tired of Sage's mouth and he wouldn't find a job. The next friend we stayed with lived in Hillsboro where I grew up. We had to leave there because she said she didn't like Sage and that he treated me like shit. So one day we left and went to see my friend Rachel. I only stayed there for a couple of hours before my parents came and made me go home. Sage had to stay there and my friend let him live there for free and was helping him get his I.D so he could get a job. That is until one day I get a phone call from my friend stating that he had stolen from her. He was getting kicked out so I found a different place for him to stay,not before bitching him out and almost broke up with him for stealing from her. He stayed at this guy's house that I knew. He stayed there for I think 2-3 weeks until he went behind my back with several people telling them my business and all kinds of things. I was at a friend's house,and broke up with him. He then called my friends house and cussed out their son. I went off on him and told him to not call there ever again. That night when I was returning home I seen someonein the drive-way. I look at the porch and there standing with my mother is Sage. He sleeps behind our house that night and in the morning shows up on our porch yet again. I was getting bitched at for him being there so I called a person he was suppose to be going to live with. They came to pick him up around noon. I didn't see or talk to him I do believe for 3 weeks. I had a friend take me over to where he was staying and decided to give him a second chance. I stayed there for 3 days went home then stayed for another 2-3 days after that. Around that time my parents didn't want me to be around him and I had already turned 18 so they told me I could see him or I could move out. Now before I get too far ahead of myself,a weeks before I turned 18 I found out I was pregnant. i do think that is why I gave him a second chance. Now back to the stoary, Sage told meo act like we weren't going to see each other or anything. I went home that nightand he was balling his eyes out like he normally did when i had to go home. The next day I find out he lied to me and was keeping stuff from me yet again. I call him to confront him about it and he gets really defensive. We get into a very big fight and needless to say I broke up with him again,after only 3 weeks of more dating. He tells me he is going to kill me and everything else. I go to bed that night with a call from his friend at 3:30am telling me Sage is in the hospital and my friendis in jail. I dont believe him until the next day a friendof minetells me the same story. I come to find out only a week ago that Sage waanted my friend to let him drive and they both were drinking that night and first Sage drove and then my friend wentto park the car and hit a canopy and it collapsed and Sage hurt his leg and now my friend is being charged with aggravated vehicular assault and several other charges.Sage on the other hand is getting no time for any of this. I come to find out after me breaking up with him 2 weeks ago, he is already living with soe other girl. He doesn't care about his child but you know what,I am not upset it just showed what kind of person he is. Me and my baby will be fine without him. I also find out that the whole brain tumor thing was a hoax. So much for knowing someone huh?