The diary of a Tolkien Nerd

I know that life can never be perfect, I know that it isn’t fair. But do you think that maybe just once,  it could try and be fair to me? Murphy’s Law has seemingly become my best friend I suppose.  My name is Vana Lorien Granting.  My mother had an obsession with Tolkien. She even has a shirt that says o nit “Tolkien Nerd.”  I am not even that obsessed. Well anyways, I have a little sister named Nienna. She is super annoying. You would think after a certain age, people would mature? I am a sophmore and Arda High School. Think these names are weird? You haven’t heard the half of it. When I was seven, my mother introduced me to the wonderful world of Tolkien and moved us to Arda, a Tolkien obsession town. But I guess having people to educationally argue with is fun! I have a lot of friends so I won’t waste paper naming them so I will name the closest ones to me. Anastasia (Anya) is my game-nerd friend, I love her to death. My big sister/Freshman is Lauren, she is awesome and always ready to lend a helping hand! Boy is she beautiful! Despite the fact she is in college, we still keep in touch almost daily. One of the best friends I have ever had. Flower, my hippie homie, well what can I say about her. She is awesome and a genius, straight A’s and everything but we are best friends through think and thin, it is hard to remain mad at her. Last but not least, Attila the Hun, well that isn’t her real name but I call her Attila so I win I guess. So as I mentioned I go to AHS and am in all honors classes! I love performance arts and History (especially law)! I used to be in choir (did I mention I sing and play guitar and Piano), but it wouldn’t fit in my schedule this year which upset me a lot sing I want to be in Madrigals (audition only choir) so bad! Music is my passion and I don’t know anyone who wants it as badly enough as I do! This would be a great time to tell you about my day. Let me just give you some key people. Mrs. Hadhod (Mrs. H.) is the choir teacher. There is also a guy named Jess who I am friends with. Last year, me and Anya had a bet that he liked me. Well at the dance the other night, he told us he never liked me which hurt. So I thought I started liking him. At play practice, I decided that maybe if I talked to him, I would find out if I really liked him or if I was just being hormonal. This is where my story begins.1

I was at play practice and Mrs. H  was rehearsing the songs with us. After I decided to talk to her about Madrigal auditions because I wanted to audition really badly! Here is what happened:2

Me: Hey Mrs. H!3

Mrs. H: Hey Vana! Are you doing choir next year? I really want you to!4

Me: Of course, Why wouldn’t I? But I really want to audition for Madrigals!  Is there any possibility that you could open up auditions to play students, it would be great it you could!5

Mrs. H: Oh, I wish I could but it would be unfair if I just opened it up! I would feel guilty! But you are just a sophomore, you can audition next year! 6

Me: (feeling extremely crushed and trying not to cry) Yes of course!7

Mrs. H: I want you to do treble choir!8

Me: Ok, I shall9

I then leave the room and I see Jess.10

Me: Hey, Jess!11

Jess: (He doesn’t even turn around) Hey! (Keeps walking)12

Now my that time I was really upset! My friend seems to be avoiding me lately and I have no idea why! It is really starting to upset me. So anyways, when I got home I couldn’t stop crying. Although they were silent tears, I couldn’t help but cry. My dreams had just been crushed. To top it all off, earlier In the week, my voice teacher told me I might not be good for Madrigals and I should sing Alto if I do it. I love being a soprano. I am a high soprano, and I love being one. Why should I be an Alto instead of a Soprano. Well according to my voice teacher, it is easier to control your voice being an alto. It is sort of annoying and upsetting to hear this right after she takes your part away from you (I was going to sing my favorite song) and giving it to a senior. But I have a science fair that day anyways so I guess my life just sucks major right now. What my teacher has to learn is that I hate doing easy things. I will tend to get bored quickly. I sang Soprano in a choir before and blended (except if I was needed to sing louder). I love doing anything challenging. But I am positive singing as a Soprano will prove pretty simple. I am committed and ready to work hard if need be. But it does sort of hurt when your voice teacher and choir teacher had promised you a spot in Madrigals your senior year13

~~For every silent tears that falls,~~14

~~Another piece of my heart is ripped out and killed.~~15

-->Until later16

Lorien of Dreams<--17