Cybernetic Dreams

CYBERNETIC DREAMS1

FADE IN:2

EXT. BUS STATION IN MASS. - EARLY MORNING3

ADAM sat alone on a bench in the station. A woman passed him by. She had beautiful flowing hair. It flickered, lighting up her livid features. What was she feeling like at this point? Was she thinking of her life? He shuddered, then another thought popped into his head. Youth. His daughter. Where was she now? What is her position in this grand scheme?4

ADAM: 5

She must have ended up somewhere nice with a lot of money. She must be surrounded with those many companions, and maybe has even found true love. True love! Oh my daughter. What life you lead I shall never know.6

NARRATOR:7

His new job had renamed him entirely. He was another clone: with his black briefcase, black suit, a black tie, and a clean white shirt; and he was the shining orb of capitalism. He was a logo. Put with a spin he was: A man without a plan, even though, God, they all knew just where he was going.8

ADAM:9

The bus is really late this morning.10

Suddenly, ADAM spots a black car moving towards him. The car gets closer. It is right in front of him. Someone rolls down a window. The driver's window is down. A man with dark eyes is grinning at him.11

DRIVER:12

Need a ride?13

ADAM14

I’m waiting for the bus.15

The driver smiles at him, half decently, despite his stained yellow teeth that stick out like candycorn..16

DRIVER17

We like your kind. 18

ADAM19

I'm sorry?20

DRIVER21

Do you want it or not?22

The man’s tone became a little more aggressive.23

ADAM24

No I will wait for the bus.25

Next a guy in the back rolled down his window and said, "Shoot him"26

Adam found himself panting. 27

ADAM28

Wait! What the hell? I don’t want any trouble and I’m just on my way to work. Look, I don't want this.29

DRIVER30

Take his wallet!31

Then there were two man who jumped out of the car. One of the men pushed Adam to the side of the car and roughly searched his coat pockets where he pulled out Adam's wallet. The bus station was quiet. 32

The men took all the money in his wallet and handed it over to the driver.33

DRIVER34

We don't need this piece of shit.35

The driver handed Adam back his empty wallet as the passenger got out with a gun in his hand.36

PASSENGER37

We've been here waiting for you all morning.38

The passenger grinned slyly while fingering the trigger. 39

CARL (PASSENGER)40

Now I’m asking you right now. I’m giving you a bill. See this? This is what you will get if you cooperate. Are you going to cooperate, yes or no? 41

ADAM nodded his head up and down and walked over to the door of the black vehicle. This is it, he thought, This is it.42

INT. BLACK VEHICLE - MORNING43

He opened the back door and got inside the vehicle. It was cool inside, the windows were completely darkened from within. There was a woman in the car beside him. 44

VICTORIA45

Victoria is my name.46

She moved towards him. He moved slightly backwards in the seat. His palms growing hot and sweaty.47

She slid her fingers along to the side of his chest. Then latched onto his wrist. Her grip was strong, and then she kissed him gently on the cheek. She pulled her arms around his neck, as he grimaced.48

He felt so alarmed. Shaking, he began to move back against the seat. But then he froze, something forced him into a state of shock. ADAM managed to collapse along the side of the opposing door. 49

The girl named Victoria moved away from ADAM in the car. The passenger spoke softly to her.50

CARL51

We still need you to cooperate.52

VICTORIA53

I'm too young for this.54

DRIVER55

You know we cannot have her with us anymore anyways. She's a threat. She is still a criminal here.56

CARL/ PASSENGER57

Who gives a damn about the girl? we have him. That is all we will need.58

Carl moved his head towards the Girl. He looked at her in a chilling sort of way. His eyes pierced in her direction. Her body was going cold, her heart filled with panic, then her vision went black and white. She was so afraid.59

She couldn't speak anymore. Carl pulled out gun.60

Carl61

Kill?62

DRIVER63

Yes please. Before she kills us all.64

“Ha-ha”65

Then a gunshot is heard.66

NARRATOR:67

Heidi looked over to someone familiar through her haze. She sprang to her feet, surprising even herself as she ran at incredible speed towards a body that seemed suspended. When face to face she knelt down with her lips to his and kissed his lips, his tongue was cold, though he was not yet dead. She kissed him hard. His eyes peered through to hers and he gazed up as if he were seeing an angel.68

Then he looked up and stroked her arms, she leaned over once more and kissed him, but he struggled to push her away. 69

SAM70

I am safe once more. I am safe at last.71

HEIDI72

You are so far away, but you are not yet gone. No, you are just half asleep... 73

SAM74

When? When? Where?75

“It’s 3008." She smiled, her eyes glittering with tears.76

Then he closed his eyes.77

INT. BLACK VEHICLE- EVENING78

NARRATOR's VOICE:79

Adam mumbled something through his hazy catatonia---ughrhmph--. He was drooling and felt he was in a dream. It was As if in the back of his mind there was an alarm clock going off warning him to “wake up!" Adam managed to force his lids open to meet the frozen gaze in Victoria’s vacant eyes.80

They pulled into an office building that was far back behind an airport. It was very quiet. The drivers parked in the private lot then proceeded to open his door. 81

CARL82

Come with me, you will be pleasently surprised.83

NARRATOR:84

Adam knew he wouldn’t be able to resist this, not with a gun pressed to his back. The men led Adam down a narrow path to an entrance shielded by large bushes. 85

Carl unlocked the door with a tiny metal key. Adam went in first and then all proceeded to follow after him, they quietly locked the door behind him. 86

INT. STRANGE OFFICE BUILDING87

His stomach was empty still and his head started hurting. The man poked him to move ahead down the hall. The hall was dimly lit. Soon they were at the entrance door. One man pushed the door and beckoned Adam to do the same.88

Adam and the other man walked in and the doors slammed shut behind them with an incredible loudness.89

“Sit down.” Someone said.90

The carpet inside was green and the stench was creating in him a sick discomfort. The room was too cold. Everything, every piece of furniture had been placed in such a way that he felt as though nothing he touched hadn’t been previously assigned a position within this room.91

The air felt incredibly gross.92

CARL93

I’ll get you a drink.94

He quickly returned with cold water.95

CARL96

Is this your daughter, Heidi Jenkins? The man pulled out a picture. Adam had no recognition of the face. He had never seen her past her infancy… The man continued “She's been held here for a number of days until we learned that she indeed had a father. Heidi's mother who passed away last year"97

We need you to sign over a release form so we can recover her records and begin the steady process of…98

Adam looked to the man with surprise. He thought of the occurrence earlier and could have slapped himself had he the nerve. Then of course, a pain gripped his gut but he played along. 99

ADAM100

Lilith is dead?101

CARL102

Jenkins, have you ever come in contact with your daughter?103

ADAM104

My wife, Lilith, left when she was pregnant and I never saw her again. I never saw my little girl either.105

CARL 106

You confirm then, that she is indeed your daughter.107

ADAM108

I had a wife for a short time and she left me. Yes, she named her Heidi. Yes, my last name is Jenkins. Yes, then. Yes. I have a daughter. What the hell is going on?109

CARL110

So you must be her father then. You owe quite a fair amount.111

ADAM112

For What? What has she done?113

CARl114

Mr. Jenkins, I assure you it is all being sorted out. I simply need to collect some data for the police report. Your daughter is a run away. We have her in our care.115

Adam stood. He began reviewing Lilith memories. How could he handle this sort of intimidation, despite that his stomach was now turning in knots and he thought he could taste the own puke in his throat? He got up and headed straight for the door.116

Then he turned back.117

ADAM JENKINS118

Where is Heidi?119

Carl opened the door and they escorted him outside.120

NARRATOR:121

She had probably always wondered who her father was and What he looked like. And likewise, he had always wondered about the child that he never got to see.122

And his wife, he’d not even had the heart to file a lawsuit for divorce. He'd assumed she’d left him for good or just got carried away and that was the last he’d see of her. It had broken his heart because in part he was responsible, he hadn’t wanted a child then, he was twenty then. He wasn’t in a rush to have a family, even a wife.123

And now, this girl didn’t even come into his life before she was gone for good.124

“Heidi!” Adam yelled. Was he dreaming as he left the strange warehouse and ugly circumstance.125

Heidi was outside with two men at her side, looking as beautiful as an angel. She didn't look much like her mother, but her eyes were so bright.126

He looked into his daughter’s eyes. 127

'my God', he thought.128

CARL129

But, they will...130

HEIDI131

I'm going to go home!132

Carl let his gun fall to his side. Then Adam and Heidi were led back to the vehicle.133

EXT.-THE SUBWAY-134

Heidi relaxed. Mr. Jenkins kept his focus set ahead towards the highway. Then he spoke, the first clear words ever to his only daughter.135

ADAM:136

What happened to you? I’m sorry. How could I have not known about your, my wife, your mother.Heidi had never seen her father up close before. 137

HEIDI138

How did you find me here?139

ADAM140

I was brought here for some reason.141

HEIDI142

I'm your daughter! Can you tell?143

ADAM144

Yes I can. I can see your mother in your eyes. But who have you been with? What happened to your mother?"145

Heidi laughed146

HEIDI147

I really don t have any answers.148

ADAM149

No?150

HEIDI151

They’re not just the CIA” Heidi said.152

Heidi looked ADAM in the eyes. She reminded him of a fragile little girl. She was a vulnerable girl. Then he admitted to himself, it was his own daughter.153

ADAM154

You are beautiful. 155

HEIDI156

You wouldn’t believe me if I told you what has happened here.157

She continued. Your heart wasn't beating, you were completely unconciouse and your body had lost its temperature, but you weren’t dead…it’s a scienctist's dream! Can I call you dad?158

ADAM159

I am your dad.160

Heidi was definately a strange girl.161

Mr. Jenkins didn’t doubt held given birth to an beautiful daughter. He didn't know who "they" were…he didn't know what "they" did…More than anything he’d never even known why this building had even existed. 162

ADAM163

So you say there's another, many others so they don't even need you anymore.164

HEIDI165

They captured me for a reason...I suppose.166

Adam Jenkins pulled into his quiet peaceful apartment lot, where he parked his car with ease. After he parked the girl yanked open the door and headed up the sidewalk without even being directed to the entrance. 167

Heidi was at the door, waiting patiently. Mr. Jenkins turned the knob. Then they went up the long staircase instead of the elevators to room 4112. Her energy amazed him.168

INT. MR. JENKIN'S APARTMENT169

As soon as he opened the door she headed straight for the couch. There was actually no TV or a speaker system. No, it was just a graveyard. 170

“So, what is do you do?” She asked.171

“My job" He said. “Robot Mechanics.’ He continued.172

He was trying way to hard to talk like he wasn’t 26 years in advance.173

HEIDI:174

So have you invented anything? 175

ADAM:176

I've invented an electrical robotic puppy, but the dog never said anything plus it gave me the creeps. I'd keep it on my desk and its eyes would follow me, so I put it in the closet. It’s actually still upstairs in my room. 177

HEIDI:178

Great!179

ADAM180

Please, just don t bring it down here.181

He looked at her, then went upstairs and pulled out a different invention, not a puppy. He came down and handed it to her.182

She held it.183

HEIDI184

What is this?185

ADAM:186

X-RAY vision.187

ADAM188

Press the small yellow button. 189

HEIDI190

OK191

She pressed it and held it down and from the front a small bulb emitted a tiny thin beam of light. Now angle it towards the lamp. He pointed it towards the light and the light literally lit the bulb right through the glass. This is cool! She said.192

I have to admit I ve never seen anything like this. Can I borrow this? She asked. Sure, he said. 193

Her father had went to bed upstairs and she slept on the couch, not that she cared. She d kept her eyes shut the whole night, to prove she was sleeping.194

Heidi woke up. She blinked twice, before she could fully absorb the everything, the telephone rang, startling her whole moment entirely. She actually got up, walked over and stood over the stupid machine.195

Then, idiotically picked up the phone. "Hello?" 196

JOHN197

Oh. Um. Hi. This is John.198

JOHN199

I m asking for Mr. Jenkins," he's got a package in the post office that has not been picked up. 200

HEIDI201

Ok I ll tell him she said. Thanks, bye.202

Heidi began looking around the kitchen, which was now hers too. Then headed upstairs. She pulled on a coat from the closet.203

She pulled the coat on and headed out the apartment, remembering to shut the door behind her. She headed down the hall towards the backstairs.204

But then, she felt something or heard someone. A door shut and then she turned and it was as if de ja vu...he was staring her in the face.205

SAM206

Hello there.207

HEIDI208

Hi. Hello.209

I don't know which way to put it, but can I come in for a second? My apartments a mess, too much stuff everywhere. I m not sure I know you you haven t even told me your name. I'm just some guy but if you don t mind can I just sit on your couch for a few minutes, maybe an hour? She looked at him questioningly.210

SAM211

I ll make you lunch. He said. I ll also make you a nice warm cup of coffee.”212

HEIDI213

Ok. Fine. Only for amoment but then I'm afraid you must leave. This isn't really my home yet.214

He walked to her door, opened it still aware she hadn t locked it in the first place. She closed the door and before she could offer him a seat he was fishing through the cupboard. Heidi walked over to an armchair and sat down. She thought that might be a risk but she was so tired, and unbelievably full of thoughts that she just needed to sit to sort of wipe away her mind.215

Sam came over and sat next to her, he had two cups of hot chocolate and handed her one. She sipped the hot chocolate and then felt slightly more relaxed. In fact, she felt incredibly better. 216

SAM217

Is this your boyfriend's place and are you married?” 218

The question seemed rude, but she felt she understood. 219

HEIDI220

No, It's actually my father's apartment. 221

SAM222

Oh. I see.223

HEIDI224

Actually, I never knew my father up until now. I just met him yesterday. 225

SAM226

Where were you before you met your father? 227

HEIDI228

I can t tell you. She said. Plus, I don t really know who you are.229

Sam looked seriously down towards the coffee table, but Heidi was looking straight into his eyes230

HEIDI231

Would you believe me if I told you I knew you once? 232

HEIDI233

Nope. And although you seem familiar I have no idea who you are.234

ADAM I could say a lot of things that might convince you of my honesty. 235


HEIDI236

How did you do it? 237

SAM238

I didn't do it all alone. He said. You re not the only one who s been in there, you re not the only one who thinks that there's something wrong with it here.239

Heidi caught the secrecy in his eyes. She thought of something to say then,240

HEIDI241

If this ever stops, when its over you know, whether or not they ever remember. Thankyou.242

SAM243

You don t have to die. I'd never force you to die, in fact I ll do the opposite. I ll make sure you get every chance to live just like you deserve to. And we can be together forever, just like it should be. I am just like you, Heidi, and we are all in the same place.244

FLASHBACK- INT. BUS 245

Her memory was coming back. Heidi had been on a bus with her heading towards a large tower. This was part of the curriculum for chemical and bio-chemical responses. There was a man sitting beside her, he was bald and his eyes were a crystalline blue. She had realized then that she'd been staring him straight through.246

HEIDI247

Sorry. She said. He stared straight ahead. So what brings you here? Then she lowered her voice, ‘If I don t get this credit I ll pretty much be transferred.'248

"Touchy" The man said.249

“Why are you coming here?” She asked.250

“I actually work here and make sure everyone gets in alright, and gets out.” Heidi stared into his eyes.251

They entered a dark tunnel. She seemed unaware of the danger she would soon encounter.252

When they arrived at the factory, guides led all of them through metal fences towards the first entrance, then they were obliged to removed extra baggage, such as backpacks or briefcases.253

INT. LARGE FACTORY254

THE ROOM WAS WEIGHT SENSITIVE. THEY WERE TOLD THAT ANY 255

sudden movements could set off the alarms.256

The main guide was female with a tan complexion and seemed to know what she was talking about.257

She led them into a large room. Within that room were many fascinating invention, anti-gravitational experiments and new technology, books of discoveries and projects no one else knew existed. 258

Many actual working inventions were secured by invisible laser mechanisms. 259

TOUR GUIDE260

This is the place our most innovative works get displayed. The products always give full recognition to the designers. As you see here these metal codes have the product placement number, date of patenting. They have the name of the publisher, manufacturer, inventor and all its requirements. 261

Heidi moved back from the large crowd of students towards a small hovering vacuum cleaner. She went over to read the description but she'd only read up to three sentences when the man she had sat next to crept up behind her. 262

"Do you trust me?" He asked. With that kind of a tone that made her hairs stand on end. Then he led her to where no one could see them.He pulled her arm and led her along a small hallway and picked two locks leading through even narrower places.263

“Here. Look.” He said.264

Heidi looked down from the small glass cube. From that viewpoint they could peer into an enormous room, it was more like an auditorium. Smoke was emanating from random pipes sprawled about. There was a thin layer water, or was it water? It just lay there. Then she saw the boy.265

“That is Bryan.” Sam said.266

Bryan looked to be around fourteen. He was sitting in an armchair in front of a television set. The horrible thing was the set wasn't showing anything, it was completely blue.Then he shut if off. He got up and walked across a bridge between the acres of water and into another section. 267

"That's not even the worst of it." Sam said.268

“The training room” he spoke. The boy entered an open expanse that looked like a maze.Giant soft boards stood up like cards made what looked like a house. The boy traced his hands over a screen willing images to appear directly from his mind.269

The images appeared and then Heida gasped.270

"Holographs!" Heidi exclaimed, "Does he know its not real?"271

“No,” Sam said. "But he must know somewhere deep inside that’s it’s all just part of the reprogramming”272

“What about his family? Heidi asked.273

"He has no family."274

“But you haven't seen all of it.’ Sam whispered.275

Suddenly the ceiling started, and sparks began spewing from the ceiling in the room they were looking in on.276

“Oh no.’ Sam said. Then the boy, Bryan yelled out in a strange voice. 277

" Ow! What was that? "278

The buzzer went off for a moment but they both, Heidi and Sam, could feel the urgency, were queit. The buzzers stopped and the boy made a hamburger appear on the screen.279

He seemed to think he was eating it as his hands motioned thin air into his gobbling mouth. “They've gotten so much stronger.” He said. “Ever since they began” he lowered his voice “kidnapping.” 280

“Kidnapping?"281

“You understand now.” He said, but he knew she hadn’t quite gotten it yet.282

“They wouldn’t agree to let anyone come here without confidentiality.’ Sam said. "You shouldn't have come here."283

"What do you mean.."284

"Are you unlike the others? Were you not selected specifically apart from others in your University? Didn't you find this a bit odd?" 285

“Yes. Well, sort of."286

“You're going to have to get out.” Sam said.287

“You think they re just going to keep us here? To Do what?” Heidi asked.288

“Try not to forget this...ok? Try to listen closely, These aren't regular people we're dealing with here.”289

“They're criminals?” She said.290

“Worse”, Sam revealed.291

“What have WE done?” Heidi asked.292

"They're not human, I mean...they are the scientists."293

Sam looked at her boldly. Heidi looked perfectly calm, but she was terrified, what she saw with the boy made her sick. She couldn't stop feeling it. she felt dizzy. “It can't be legal.” Heidi said. 294

“Actually it is.”295

“...”296

"Why not just tell everyone, then?” Heidi asked.297

“Because of people, like you. I can't bring publicity this soon, I need to target them. That s where you come in. But if we don't get you out now before anyone notices you re gone, terrible things could happen.”298

~*~299

INT. MR. JENKIN'S APT. - EVENING300

Heidi took a long sip of her hot chocolate and Sam stared off into space. The she let him put his arms around her and hold her as he kissed. Heidi wanted to think, to remember what happened next. She wasn’t ready to recall the plans that were made, it wasnt over yet. She reached her hand to his chest and felt his heart thumping.301

She felt what she had been looking for, it was a small diamond object he wore across his next down to his chest. She pressed one finger to it, and felt it.302

Some recollection sent her pressing again through her thoughts, more so than her dreams. But the revelation would not come. She instead felt nothing but the rush of her exhilaration. The necklace heated up, she could feel the heat soaking her up. Then, in a split second..the piece cracked.303

~*304

Mr. Jenkins had planned on going to work that day. Had planned on sitting at work toying with his air pressure mechanism and designing a fuel efficient vacuum for impossible surfaces. He had some pretty impressive ideas. She s my daughter! He thought, Yet, she s unlike any human I ve ever come in contact with.305

"Mr. Jenkins, I heard about your daughter and my condolences," someone he'd barely contacted said, "If it helps I lost one myself."306

Mr. Jenkins managed a thanks and shuffled off to his car. Mr. Jenkins had succeeded in missing two days of work, without proper explanation or notification. But they knew about his daughter so he was sure it would be cleared up.307

That night, before Mr. Jenkins arrived, Sam was laying with Heidi on the floor of Mr. Jenkins s apartment. He was rubbing her back and she was sleeping with her head resting on a pillow. She listened to his heart beat while he continued to run his fingers along her back. Then they heard the car door slam. 308

Sam looked at the clock first, then realized the sudden absurdity of a man with his new-found daughter. Sam looked down at Heidi. Sam left so quickly, but he said goodbye. He shut the door quickly and went back to his own apartment. Heidi quickly snapped awake, she then remembered his exit. He d said goodbye and then shut the door. 309

Sam had left without a sound, but he had brushed everything as if soundproofing her very existence. If any invaders were to come, they d have their own broken limbs to bear and it wouldn’t be hers. Right before he d left he d said something and she could still remember, I love you. He d said. What else was there to say?310

Heidi sat on the couch in the dark. She didn t have any weapons so she was toast if anyone happened to break the lock to their subtle apartment. Creak311

Heidi flinched as she heard the knob on the lower entrance turn. She clutched tight to the flannel blanket. Then the footsteps climb the stairs. Something told her not to worry. She was precise. It was her father, Mr. Adam Jenkins, who turned the key in the lock and entered the apartment. 'Fools' she whispered.312

Heidi then allowed herself to remember the one minute secret that she d not told anyone. The little slice of time she d forgotten. I fooled them. She thought. That whole time they thought I had been taken. Now they'll never get what they're after. Heidi had been born such a remarkable memory that nothing important had ever slipped past her awareness.313

Sometimes she even thought she recalled the moment her real father and mother kissed on their wedding day. It was like two nightclubs had torched another between them and she could feel the heat burning within. But she couldn't recall being that small, or growing out of an egg.314

But as she began to focus she could imagine it. Her new-found strength pressing and pressing calculating her next life. In fact, she was still in the womb as long as she was here. Somewhere she was inside her mother still moving and moving. She would be growing and learning and when she came out then, now, whenever she did she would be the same. 315

Yet being the same didn't have anything to do with physical characteristics or limitations. It was something else, the reason she had the gift and the luck she had to meet her friends. Inspiration, but even more than inspiration. It was a liquid fuel that she feared had already been taken and analyzed by her enemies. 316

It's because they have no imaginations she thought. But it's so metaphorical! It amazed her. Even though they've done such terrible things, they've taken part in the most unimaginable adventure of all time. An undying quest for control. That backfired, literally backfired because of one girl. One girl. Her.317

Heidi looked down at her hands and pretended they were smaller.She was floating mid-level above the couch in the room and wasn't exactly sure how. 318

'I want to go higher' she said aloud. Then she heard Sam, and found him in his apartment sitting on his brown couch looking down at a notebook. 319

Then he shoved the book aside. She was floating above him. Then he was sharply aware of her presence in the room. He made no motion for the light. Instead he did something unpredictable, he took out a small match and lit a candle on the kitchen table by the counter and she moved to the candle. She moved with the candle it seemed to sense a danger in the room.320

Sam sensed it to. He lay there quietly but wasn't asleep. Then he got up and went out the room across the hall into Heidi's. He slowly opened the door and the miracle happened. Heidi glimpsed him and the candle and there was a meeting. There was parallel between the two moments and the two rooms had been connected by completely unreadable lines. 321

In between them Heidi had envision a violet pink flower, it was large and brilliant and she assumed it had an important meaning or symbolism. It had softened the experience so that now she was looking at him with incredibly bright light green eyes. His eyes were still a grey-blue. He walked into the room. His eyes seemed to reflect the empty hollowness and grey. It was a soothing reflection not dead or cold, but of passion. 322

He knelt down beside her and she closed her eyes to cover her stagnant perception slightly so she could feel his thin tongue pressing into her mouth. Now the truth had come out. He pulled her tongue into his mouth but her kiss was so different than any he'd ever felt. So real. He wouldn't admit that she'd meant the world to him...even if she hadn't managed to save the world.323

One night she had been asleep. This was when she still lived with her single mother. Yes she had run away, but for the same reason Heidi had been kidnapped. She had had a short conversation with a black man in a small room. He'd played the guitar and afterwards they began to make plans for something he had said, 'You'll find out how the moon appears.' he told her. Then he had told her about the disguise. 'You won't really be in there.' he said. 'Only a part of you.' 324

She lived a normal life up until school, when she had decided to run away. Her mother had called the police she Heidi was found, but her leaving was kept in a record. When she went back to school she was then seen as a threat or dissident teen. She was treated like she was lower class because she had been on her own for over a year. Heidi changed during that time. That's when she met the group. It was an organization solely for exposing things. Heidi perfected the plan, and proved and amazed them with her capabilities. Time ran short and they knew her mother would eventually find her. 325

While Heidi was in her role, her father Mr. Jenkins became acutely aware of the things that had been going on and made a final decision to step down from his machismo aligning ladder which he'd never quite fit anyways. He'd been doing 'other' research, into the early events of his wife's past and found out some indulging evidence.326

HEIDI327

So I had to do some digging of my own. Pretty soon I'd discovered there really isn't anywhere you can go without being under threat of an electrical tap/hack. Considering electricity can be manipulated by magnetic poles any high tech government facility with loads and loads of support is capable of mind control.'328

So there it was. Of course why else would anyone be so quick to deny the possibility? Those who safeguarded it's possibility were most likely contributing far more than they were even aware of. Case in point.329

Mr. Jenkins had never felt so much energy in his whole life. The articles were so unlike any of the others he had ever read. He hadn't gotten them legally, he was a professional software mechanic and knew enough about hacking. The information wasn't even legally his at all. 330

When Mr. Jenkins had finally made it to his small apartment he'd found Heidi as still as a stone, fast asleep on the couch. He'd decided not to give it a second thought and went upstairs, got changed and went to bed. Heidi had then begun having a vivid recollection of her birth and of actually being in the womb. It was a warm dark place so red and so connected to another time.331

She had thought of Sam unintentionally because she wasn't sure if it was safe and then had somehow managed to find him where he was which was only five doors down. He had even managed to find a place close to hers. But, something wasn't right. She knew it. She could feel the danger. He'd done something extreme, he'd come into her room and kissed her then, after she'd seen him and he'd known she was watching. 332

But when had he left? She couldn't recall. She got up, she knew it could be dangerous but then she thought it was unlikely. The deed was done, God was free. God had been set free and there was nothing they could do to stop it.At that moment, every moment, God was speeding through time at immeasurable speeds correcting and fixing all the damage that had been done. In fact, God had been on her side all along.333

She crept silently along the barren hall and turned the knob of his apartment. It was unlocked. She found him there on the couch and felt a chill. She crept over and in his eyes she saw terror, true pain. But she wouldn't be afraid. She came closer and he moved over so she could sit next to him, but his gaze didn't shift. Then she put her hands on his chest and knelt over him and kissed him. A gentle kiss. The kiss was hers. It was her kiss and she wanted him to have it. Then he kissed her back. And after that he whispered, 'You never knew who you really were, and now I'm going to tell you. You're the golden child.' he looked at her as if expecting a sudden epiphany. 334

Heidi took out from her pocket a small crystal encircled by a metal clasp. 'It only works when I wear it.' She said. because it works out of pure fragile love but also out of friendship. She put the necklace over Sam's head. Sam looked at her with what seemed joy with some regret. He seemed to be regretting something.335

SAM336

I was wrong to ever go there. I was too stubborn to realize what was happening. I thought too selfishly to realize that I was no different from anyone else. I went to that school perfectly aware of the horrors ready to take on the role of the bad guy. I would have done it, you know. I can't live with it. I've done horrible things.' This time he got so quiet.337

'There's no reason to think about that now. It'll only be a matter of time before Americans are outraged. There won't be a city or town within miles without televisions strewn across sidewalks. Pretty soon, there won't be anyone who doesn't know?'338

'How are you so sure?' Sam asked.' I'm not just going to go through all of this trouble and risk without making some permanent changes.'339

'I'm sorry Heidi. It wasn't me who did this.' He let Heidi left up the sleeve of his arm. all across his wrists and along the front of his hand were long red lines. 'When did this happen?'340

'The moment I left you right before your father arrived. I was trying to focus but was suddenly gripped with something I'm not quite as used to. I reached down to pick it up and throw it out. 341

This thing was electrical, it shocked me blind. I went cold, then it struck me again. After that I can't recall much. I woke up lying on the floor and the black thing was gone. My right hand has been dead, numb, and now this! He turned his palm over on the top of his hand his veins were collecting as if bacterial, she could see them searing from the very midpoint of his front hand.342

'I'm afraid to touch you.' He said 'I won't leave you. I can't let this happen to me or to you Heidi.'343

'Do you know what it'll do?' She asked.344

'It'll erase everything.' He said.345

'It could kill me.' He continued346

'It's already happened once.' then he spoke lower. "It makes you sick. It makes you so...so I'm so sorry.' His eyes were whiter now, his words became slurred.347

Heidi had to think of something and fast before it was too late.348

She couldn't leave his side, not now, but staying here watching him like this without helping was a crime too. She put her head to his chest and he breathed, relieved she could feel his warm heart beating fast and then, there, she confessed.349

'I don't want to do it again!' She cried. 'I won't! I promise! I can't!' She cried. 'I love you!' She cried. Then she said something else. 'What if it is true? Or what if you don't have to be? You're better than them. You're better than that.' She felt sick to her stomach. All these times alone and here she was a perfect example of human weakness. 'Stop.' He cried 'Go away.' 350

She wanted to say, leave him alone. She wanted to say and felt like saying get away from him. But she didn't understand at all what was happening. Just that if she didn't do a certain thing fast it would be over.351

She had to use her strength that she knew she had and reach farther than the limits before her. The words were perfect already, all she had to do was to use them, to leap. With her voice she lifted out from ground a steady hum a rumble and a growl, then the earth shook and it wasn't raining but snowing. She could feel the snow as she was looking up and it fell over her and she looked with the snow. Then she saw her heart.352

She realized that it was not just her heart, it was his because he was cold. She realized what it all meant and filled herself with light even though she thought it'd died or had been waiting for someone else to make her feel it again. Then it lit as if a torch and he coughed. She saw him from her piercing gaze he was breathing. Then she saw him somewhere else. She found him somewhere dark and crowded where the initial arrangements had been made. 353

Two magazines with identical covers were on the tables and the ads weren't definite but mocking. She soon realized he was in a bar. He looked extremely tired and his face appeared drained and pale. His eyes much darker then earlier. Suddenly, she wanted to call his name but wasn't sure if it was safe. 'Sam!' She called. He'd heard her somewhere deep within him. It startled him and he gazed up at the counter and was struck as if he was completely impressed. He told some people he was going home and they didn't say anything back. He walked out into the street and down an avenue towards a different house. 354

He went in and locked the door. On the calender it read, July 5th 2006, one day after independence day. He went up to the calender and wrote a message on one of the squares. Heidi was in complete amazement. She couldn't make out what he wrote it was too blurred. He sat down on his low cot-like bed and she felt a short cool breeze enter the spaces between the walls. He was happy and she'd known he was truly happy. In fact he had seemed happy before but actually deep down he had seem miserable. He'd seemed sad. It wasn't possible to be happy then. 355

When the government had managed to confiscate so much of people's hopes, dreams, and land. The practically owned the dust in the corners that the citizens had to keep clean. The worst of it was, he had, Sam had tried to or might have imagined the ending. He imagined what it would be like. Heidi didn't tell Sam she'd imagined it long ago, and that's what made things so impossible. Heidi had made a decision. Even if it would be the end of the world and everything might sink into the ocean like the old Fable of California. When WW-III occurred because of a massive resistance and outrage. Her mother would tell her stories that her mother had told her despite its dangerousness and social disapproval. 356

Stories of a time when you could look straight at the sun and it wouldn't burn your eyes, when the air was so clean Spring came in a matter of a week. How people survived during the flu scare and Anthrax. 357

Her mother had told her about the ElectroHolocaust, but her mother hadn't come up with the plan. Heidi had read a lot, she ended up stealing some Civil Rights novels and basically anywhere she went she was analyzing and recording each document and detail draining the truth from the false. Being so lied to and hidden, it was so easy and incredibly thrilling to try to find out the truth when it was so illegal. She'd think the most likely thing was there was something. Something so amazing or horrible they didn't want her to find it out. Obviously many and many were working so she wouldn't discover. But then it was so hard to admit it, it had been love.358

The most basic and universal language, but with the abilities they had to conjure up such farce and catastrophic suspicion and mind control, the main ingredient they had to eliminate to prevent a world shift, an evolution so great of human awareness it could make them look like little children riding around in toy cars. That was the horrible truth, the one no one could bring themselves to admit.359

To act like others were so full of it, and they'd destroy each-other. They'd literally destroy each-other based on chaos, misinterpretations, biases, twists, racism, sexism, prison, detention and turn around and put people on trial like Salem. But the terrorists just kept appearing, they kept wearing different skins- Muslim, Asian, Latino, chines, British, french, Japanese, American, even Costa Rican. They never wiped out the terrorists. 360

The terrorists were wiping out themselves along with children and mothers. Yes they killed and even intentionally murdered children who had no defence against the grip of military control. The weirdness of companies just got weirder and weirder, people got weirder and weirder until nobody walked through the halls without being stalked by someone. People tempted people to seem threatening using conviction and laying out perceivable flaws. But people just were too smart.361

People were too beautiful weren't they. They had to do something. That's when the plan came, the plan that would put these brilliant people out of the way for good. 362

The powers shifted their rage, murder, and militarism back towards their own country. Yes their own citizens were exposed to toxic harmful substances so the government might eliminate them or scare them so they wouldn't keep resisting and resisting. 363

They were either for the war or against it, 'Us' or themselves, none of it made sense. They were either making a lot of money or put on life support so they'd never make much at all.364

And then, there was a crash, this was an intentional jam. It was planned by quite a few million people. Suddenly even radio reporters were spewing out the truth. The truth that their companies didn't want them to tell. 365

They were there being recorded so they began subtly revealing the details. The government hadn't wanted that and that's where the factory came in. A Nation's last defense against complete overthrow. That was after the electroholocaust.366

So that's how I knew all this. Heidi thought, because so many people wanted others to know. Because of those novels, artists and journalists, because it was so great and vast that even the sky had to be restrained from its outrage. Then Heidi looked over to where Sam had been sitting, his eyes looked like flames. ' Whether or not you'll ever remember or this does make any sense. Sam pulled up his sleeve. 'You just saved my life, so I think we're even.'367

He looked ahead, ' You know what's coming next, don't you?' Heidi didn't speak, ' They're coming for us. They're coming to rescue us.' 'Who?' She asked.368

'The others. The other was a ploy.' then he smiled in a strange sort of way.369

'You'll understand soon enough.'370

In Heidi's apartment and began thundering. Sam woke up from his vision. He looked embarrassed. They both stared ahead and then at the window as the rain started pouring. 'What year is it?' Heidi asked.371

'1987,' he said, 'The year you were born.'372

'How?'373

'Birth is more than a biological advancement or a plan. It happens with or without a mother. You were born because you are free. No one can take that away from you. You weren't born out of another's ideals or hopes. You were a substance within but also without.'374

'I don't know what you mean.' Heidi said.375

'If you know what it's like inside, then you know what it's like outside. If you can imagine winter when it's spring then you can be born before conception.'376

'How is it possible?' Heidi asked.377

'Christ wasn't born out of conception. He was born from something but not his mother. He was born of his own will.' 'That is freedom.' Heidi simply stared on. 378

'If you choose to die. You can be born again.' He said.379

'That is possible for me?' She asked.380

'God would want it to be.' He said, 'Your strength and love has been so fruitful to this world. Your incredible ability to know and not kill or lie has earned you this reward.'381

'How could I be anything but overflowing with joy.' She said.382

'There's something wrong about not admitting fragility.' she continued.383

'I'd rather see you for your weakness which is compassion, then see you as strong with deception.' Heidi said.384

'What would I say to admit I shall not die, that I shall be one with God and go to heaven?'385

'Who is Christ?' Sam asked.386

'A man who was born without sex. He was a boy who was born under a star when there was much destruction and danger in the early world. He set an example of great love and healing and then was set as an example of what cruelty does to man. He was nailed to a cross and he had perceived is fate. At the last supper he was with the Apostles. 387

Some betrayed him. There were others beside him on other Crosses, under penalties of crime. Women cleaned his wounds. He wore the two planks of wood on his back all the way through the onlookers up to his final resting place. He died overnight and then was brought down to hell- a permanent death and destruction, then forced his way above into heaven which was the truth.388

He went into another realm beyond physical suffering and there met the father of the Universe. Then he was sent at his own will back down to Earth to then be an example of true bravery. Some were afraid and coward to see Christ again. He resurrected from total death into the complete reverse of total death- total life.'389

'Have you met Christ?' He asked.390

'I believe I have met him many times but not as I'd meet his actual physical identity.'391

Sam looked at the window and then into the room. 'I'm a messenger.' He said.392

'I'm an angel.' Heidi began to cry. She was crying because she felt so much sorrow for those that were lost. 393

The tears were of sympathy. 'They will not let me fly.' She confessed.394

Then Sam took a cold hard stare at the floor. 'Why?' He asked.395

'Maybe they see me as ill.' she said.396

'Maybe to them my wings are poison.' 397

'Maybe I am being punished for being weak or fooled. I feel like I've killed someone.' She said. 'I feel like my stubbornness to hide, to sleep has killed someone.'398

'If you have killed someone.' Sam said. 'You've saved them.'399

'Death is not the end. Even if your powers were used and you unknowingly had assisted in killing another. 400

The simple fact that such energy and strength from you has touched this person is enough so that when impacted they probably didn't die, couldn't die anyways. If they had, you've brought them to heaven.'401

'How is that possible?' Heidi asked. 'I've brought so much to myself. How could all this be without anyone getting hurt.' 'Do you really believe they are gone.' He said. 'I don't want to.'402

'Then don't because it isn't true.' He said. 'Heidi. Listen to me, stop abusing yourself like this. Tell me who it is that you're afraid has died.'403

'I won't say his name. He could be many. He could be anyone.'404

Heidi's head began to hurt. '405

This pain is so personal, so inside of me that it's my responsibly. Yet I know it's not being caused by my actions but the results.' 'When I saw you in the past you were different. 406

I want to walk through a hall for hours because it won't change. I need a narrow place where I can force myself forward with eternity blooming behind me. I need a reason to be relied on or believed in. I can't keep hiding in here. Where? Where am I? 407

This could be a dream, would I accept it if it was? I don't know my past. I don't know where I was from. It's as if I literally appeared and there had to be a reason. Where am I from? Where was I from? Am I fully human or something else? There's a part of me that longs to know. And an even deeper part of me that must. And it's not because of the world or you or them, or those poor slaves. It's for me. I need to find out before it's too late.'408

'Do you want me to tell you?' He asked.409

'Because I may not know. And if what I say is wrong ..'410

'If you give a hint that it's not going to end,'411

'I think of colors, shapes, forms. You touch things and its like they remember you. You have the capacity to heal yourself at will. When you force from within that incredible energy you absorb within your hands. You've studied the way your energy and thoughts change your hands and affect your abilities. You weren't brainwashed. You were unsuccessfully taught a lesson. You can see into a person's heart and even soul. You can talk through pictures like windows in different times. You go mad because you don't want your one life or moment in time412

to become permanent and immobile. Because you want the world to be inspired. Also, you don't want to lose what you've grown with for so long. You dream of the past but you make up the stories. You want to know what it was like before you were born, but are afraid of what you might discover, 413

that the truth is deeper than you ever knew yet you won't forget, you won't give in. And the truth will come to you with or without time. You love and you love to love. You aren't afraid of others seeing within you because you've grown so you have nothing at all to shield or hide. She don't want to shield yourself, or your mind. You feel as though throwing yourself into another's ocean might lift you into another's arms. 414

You're right most of the time and yet when you're sick or cold and sense something suddenly you become a victim. Which is the opposite of the truth because you set an example of strong will and independence. You dare others to prove you wrong when fact is a stable occupancy. You throw things in the air just to prove that gravity isn't a total failure. You're impressed that introspection is seen foolishness or as an undesirable quality. You hate to exaggerate or seem like you're exaggerating but you speak as if the next final touch will bring a complete revelation to the past sentence you spoke.415

You use energy to make you stronger, to keep you motivated and don't let it overwhelm you. You can't help being funny and humorous despite no one might be laughing. When you're hurt you ignore it and just enter into a new dimension of love and strength over idiocy. 416

Your words can't be categorized because of foolish men and those that want to interrogate your voice until it makes them nauseous usually become impressed at your capacity to keep improving your life.'417

'You really are an angel,' Heidi said.418

'You're honest and you're empathetic, but most of you is invisible. It's hard to describe it. I've never seen you fly and I don't know if Sam is your real name. You talk as if you are hearing my own thoughts but you're objective and in a complete other form. I can't imagine you gone because the idea seems like betrayal to everything you've done. You've saved my life. And now I'm being flooded with insight and it's frightening at the same time. I'm scaring myself because now I'm antagonised, I'm no longer within the digital manipulations or staring out a window above the largest darkest city. I'm no longer a sad pale eyed woman sitting at her computer who just realized the fault and joke of her profession.419

I don't sit and stare all day. I'm not waiting for a subway or in a cold forest somewhere. I'm in no one's mind or property. Yet I'm still the same, and that doesn't scare me. What scares me is worrying about going back or going anywhere at all. I don't want to go anywhere. I just want to learn until I know everything. Why should everything hurt me?'420

' I would tell you that you know everything. But you can't tell me what it means to know everything.'421

' When there is a book or a knowledge written so far but so close. You perceive its signs in various guises or forms. There is an out-pour or outflow of something vivid and tangible. You can taste it and use your strength to feed it as it feeds another. Everything is matter. To know everything means to exist knowing every form within your perception. Not to reach beyond and perceive other things or to want what another perceives. To understand a limit. 422

To know everything doesn't mean to know the identity or physical qualities of every substance that you know of, imagine of, or seek. It means to know as in a friend knows their best friend. To know everything means to understand everything. 423

Knowledge is understanding. If you know how a machine works, then you understand the mechanism in part. If you can operate a machine you can read which button to press and are directed in way so you can use it. It doesn't necessarily mean you know anything about the machine or how it functions. If your directions were false yet you were satisfied that your machine did what you wanted it to, you might forget the fact that it still doesn't mean the machine can't also be doing the exact opposite of what you wanted it to. 424

If no sentence is under any obligation to be honest, since we are all people of freedom and status usually makes for an imbalance in true liberty, those directions might tell you the wrong button to press and if they were in obligation to be in part or slanted truth, they could be telling you the wrong button to press but you'd get satisfaction or your money back. A guarantee but not usually without filling out paperwork.'425

'What I don't understand is how it is that when I relate all of these beliefs, when I begin to speak of them suddenly I am tired.'426

'I don't think it's necessarily anything to do with your mind but those before you. Possibly it's doubt or possibly you stop out of sympathy for stubborn minds. Don't soften your words for them because it only strengthens their dependence. If they so choose to treat you with cruelty or as if you are some baggage they have to carry, then don't bother to soften your will or beliefs so they have more space, more leisure time in place of your own home and stability. Don't let them try to turn you into someone you're not or they want you to be. 427

They could tempt you in every way which is what Satan did to Christ in the desert along the Nile. It is a story and also a deep metaphor that only the temporary can come to terms with. They accept it even if they are slightly misdirected. 428

You stand for others who would likely turn you into a machine. It's their tiredness that makes you tired, they're hate and pointing and selfish demise. 429

You'd stand up for them and it makes you sick because you stand for them as they seem to walk all over your footsteps. Don't wait for the right moment to say how you feel or admit that you're good. 430

Why should you be hated and ridiculed for being right? Why should you be turned down or mocked or lied to? Why should your own words be spat at and reversed for another's sake of damnation or control. No one own's your words, your mind, no one has a right to! No one had a right to chase your mother. If you've been cast out from your family out of circumstance and some stupid idealistic folly then the fault is on the man who's bones were so brittle he could not assist you when you stood alone.'431

'They'll laugh and act the part of anyone who ever stood aside. They'll play along with your teachers or classmates, they'll hide in corners when you're looked at.432

They'll say you're too intense before they scream at you and try to scramble your brain with faulty misinterpretations and bad advice. They might lie their tongues until they literally drop from their mouths. You have no obligation to save them and should feel no guilt if you let them die. You have no obligation to rescue those with such 433

innocent starvation in a perfect paradise. In a world so equipped to handle anyone or anything. The Earth shouldn't feel guilty for not allowing a cruel leader into heaven.434

Who tortures, oppresses with many forces of terror. When Christ returns to judge the living and the dead.435

The dead- the true sinners won't be allowed back.436

If Christ forgave a terrible man and let him feast with him in the holy land of the prophets and that man turned around and caused fire and war on that temple, that man would never be allowed to return. Those who were innocent will not be punished nor abandoned, they are seen within eternity and without.'437

'You are Christ.' Heidi said.438

'And are you not?' Sam asked her.439

I wouldn't step aside if not for trembling in the face of real danger. Pain and eternal death. I am afraid of a silence, of my heart stopping and my mind going numb or blank and then not returning. I might want to know how it would be if I didn't return. I imagine the world would still move on and be safe, there would still be miracles and flowers and candles would still hear music.440

I imagine that before my death their might be angel tears raining from the sky. If the fate is I must die I wouldn't rush into it. I am in no hurry to die or to leave when I've been move to such deepness. I can feel vast halls of stone echo. Is that where the longing souls go?'441

'They stay there and await. A time before all of this so entwined like thread beyond and behind any furious grip or iron clasp. Even after plowed over or bombed and shattered it still exists in a time before death and war. There are still rooms you can go to. There are still walls and houses that do not lay in ruins. Be happy you are still with them.'442

SAM443

You have seen the end.'444

HEIDI445

I've seen the end.' 446

SAM447

But not the total end. There was magic. I have died too.'448

HEIDI449

I didn't really die.It was part of the plan.'450

SAM 451

No.You did die.'452

She remembered her vivid dream but it had been a ploy, and aversion.453

SAM454

Death is an aversion Heidi.455

'They see are watching us. They witness you decaying like the priests in their tombs. You die as a reason to those who would kill. You die as a punishment to those who insist on tearing away at the last bits of my world, my teachings. But you don't lose yourself Heidi, they lose you. They tear and tear at these bones, the artifacts of progress. You die so they may know an end to their tearing.' 456

'You die so they may release their hold on you. You are buried so that the stars might find you and build you a new form out of a cell. You come into a seed but there is a seed. Your seed, you. This is what makes you real.457

'I have no children. I have no daughter or son.' She said.458

'You're a mother. You feed the earth, children, and animals are happy in your presence. You're so good they'll try to find some terrible flaw that makes up for your incredible empathy will and endurance. They think you're apologizing when really you're thanking. You could be the same every second and your words may shift so that the prophets will read your words. You're still young but we're the same age. Yet I am ageless and you, you are timeless.'459

Heidi had not known those words would impact her so much. She'd never thought much about time only that she was obedient to it. She imagined a pulse, a red line screaming across a machine and her on a bed. She heard the red line go flat and heard and saw her relatives talking and looking down at her. 460

Their acceptance that she was gone and refusal to look at her again, closely, made her sad. Then she was gone and they were moving on. They could mourn and forget. But would God even have wanted a funeral? They worshipped a God who didn't even support burials. She lay there, looking up through hollow eyes. 461

If I come back now then how will they learn? She felt the chord, the black jolt and then it was like a black out. She woke in her bedroom but was beside herself and there it was, that foolish machine! The one that caused such confusion! She knew it hadn't been all her. It wasn't right there but it was far enough, probing and analyzing. Till finally it just stopped. 462

And it was silent that day. 463

The machine had grown tired, she had tired it out. Heidi moved as a body but without actual solid recognition and remembered when she flew her hand in front of her face and moved it with such incredible speed, had went to turn the light on but was pulled by some invisible cord back into her bed. She began to recall lucid dreaming, her mother had mentioned it once. When she had met the 464

dark man.465

Why all of this? Why can't it just be revealed to me? Why can't it just be shown? If I shouldn't stop. If I shouldn't lay down so that they may feel safe that what should I do? 466

Suddenly she felt a steady hum, Low but with an incredible vibration. 467

It maintained its grasp because it seemed as though pressing for something, some agreement. She fell through the vision and jolted as she was steady within her own self staring into Sam's eyes which hadn't formed any marks but seemed bloodshot. 'You haven't died.' Sam said.468

'I love you,' Heidi said.469

"But those people, the ones who kidnapped the children, they're evil. They basically are draining the children through electricity...hooking them up to machines to keep them satisfied, the children are immortal and the 470

Scientists? God, Heidi, the scientists are not in power over us. We may be young and confused about life, but therer has to be some explanation. There has to be some reason for it...for all the mind games people keep putting us through, and you especially! Heidi. We will get it right. Just take my hand, let's leave this apartment and go to the place where it all started...471

EXT. A GOVERNMENT OFFICE BUILDING - EVENING472

SAM473

This is where they operate their surveillance cameras and spy on the terrorists. Or in other words, this is where the people who watch us watch us. Those are the people, who are watching us right now and there they go in and out of their offices. See them?474

HEIDI475

SAM, what are we doing on this planet? Why are you here with me and what are you trying to tell me?476

SAM477

Nothing, Heidi, simply the truth of what I know.