Memories Of War

Memories Of War1

Fear consumes me eating away at my nerves2

Everywhere I look I see fire3

The sound of a bomb exploding4

Causes me to look to the side 5

Gun fire echos all around6

I can hear screaming7

My instincts are telling me to flee8

My men are running for cover9

They return fire10

I can't handle this11

Its just to much12

I don't think anymore, I just react13

All I want is to go home14

To forget and be safe15

Next to me one of my friends fall16

I drop down beside him not caring about anything but helping him17

He's bleeding and shaking18

He grabs my hand eyes full of pain and fear19

A medic appears and tries to calm him down20

He screams in agony21

He yells for his mother22

My body is taunt with pent up emotion23

My control slips and I start to cry24

I can't help it, I can't do anything to save him25

No one ever prepared us for this26

We went through intense training27

But no one ever taught us how to deal with this28

When I signed up I never Imagined this29

I never dreamed this would happen30

We've lost so many already and now we're losing another31

All around the battle continues but i can no longer hear it32

He no longer screams, his body is still33

His eyes are blank and staring, his hand no longer clutches mine34

The medic moves on35

Theres nothing left he can do to help my friend36

I look down at him and close his vacant eyes37

His skin is cold to the touch 38

He was my best friend39

I was the one who convinced him to sign up40

How will i tell his mother41

How will i make her understand42

She never wanted him here43

Why did he have to be the one to die?44

Its my fault he's gone45

My mind is screaming, all i want to do is die46

Its the only way to stop the pain47

Why did i ever want to do this?48

Why did i ever want to come to this place?49

I wonder if i'll make it out alive?50

Or will my fate be like his?51

I grab his dog tags and rejoin the battle52

Tears flowing freely down my face53

Soon this will end and i'll return home54

What will happen to me if i survive?55

Will i ever be normal again?56

How will I ever get over these tourturing memories?57

My body aches, a bullet has found me58

I can feel the fire as it enters59

Tearing through me60

Its heat is excurciating61

Blood pours onto my uniforn staining it red62

My mind is numb now63

I don't want this, all i want is my mother64

I hear myself screaming for her65

I want my mother just like my friends did in the end66

My nerves can't deal with the death anymore67

I hear my mens voices shouting, right before i'm enveloped in darkness68

I'v passed out, hopeing never to regain consciousness69

Hopeing never to feel the pain again70