the end

My hands shook as I pick up the large, kitchen knife. This was it, the end. But it is not my fault. Everyone around me wanted it...Mom told me to disappear when I wrecked the car. Dad told me to go to hell when he got drunk. And my girlfriend told me to die when she found out I went to 1

Tylynn's, my friend’s house... 2

What can be so wrong with ending your life before your body ends it? Why not? WHY NOT?? Salty tears tingled down my cheeks while blurring my vision. The knife hovered over my vein.... 3

I ran it slowly along my arm. Dark, red, smooth blood ran down in a thin line. It hurt and itched a little. But it was not deep enough...I took another scratch. Then I screamed. 4

Blood pooled out as an intolerable pain throbbed into my hand. My body shook & lost balance. Falling to the floor, the knife slipped out of my hand and fell with a clang. 5

I turned my head to glance at my arm. More and more blood flowed out like floods...this was seriously it...the end. It wasn't so bad...Feeling my hand throb with pain, I winced. Soon this would all be over.....I must have my good-bye thoughts.6

Sorry Mom, I was a bad son…7

Sorry Dad, it wasn't your fault I was annoying...8

Sorry Marci, you only thought I was cheating on you with Tylynn...9

Sorry everyone...I was to die anyways...10

I picked up my unharmed arm and dipped my index finger into my blood. I wrote in on the kitchen floor. I'M SORRY EVERYONE.....I DID'NT MEAN TO BE SUCH A NUICANCE....FORGIVE ME. I closed my wet eyes for the last time. One last thought entered my weakening mind...11

I'm sorry.....12