A Bantam Man Defined

To you, who took all I had left-
I hope it made you sick,
While I sat crying in my room with scars of what you did.1

Did you smile as my tears flowed? did you chuckle and laugh?
Did it fill that hole inside, to take what I had left?2

I was just a little child, you were old and gray.
Did you think youth would return or did your mind just stray?3

Hatred runs down through my veins, your face, in mind, destroys.
Did you find plesure in your loins to treat me like your toy?4

In my memory you will remain as but a twisted mind
Forever now with my disdain a bantam man defined.5

Tell me now,
What do you think ? Did it make you a man,
To force a small child on a bed and take her at your hand?6

Tell me now,
For I can't see how, in the mirror, you can look.
Do you see a man so tall or do you see the truth?7

I hope that hole inside you filled, for my heart it destroyed.
The years of hatred in my heart somehow left a void.8

My life was lived insensible to everything around
No smiles or tears could make me feel and so the knife I found.9

I was cutting to find pain, the only proof of life,
While you sat smiling, lying, cheating on your loving wife.10

My own reflection appeared to me as a repulsive scene,
Did you delight when you had found I hated to be seen?11

As I washed and scrubbed until pain to rid myself of you
Did you sit and take your time to commemorate what only we knew?12

Think now,
Are you still a man after what you've done,
After you took a little girl just to have some fun? 13