The fence.

There she was a beautiful as ever. Across the empty street…Over the fence.1

Her fingers were twisted into the holes of gates, and the winter wind toyed with her hair and hospital gown.2

Our eyes met causing my heart to stop for what seemed like a life time, then it kicked my chest, telling me to walk over to her.3

I stuffed my hands in my pocket partially excited that I was going to see her…But I needed to finish what I was going to do, I needed to see if this could end.4

As I cautiously walked across the barren street, wondering if this was a hallucination, I could smell the soft scent of her shampoo. The wind felt my doubt and brought me proof.5

It was her. I quickened my pace and rushed up to the fence, smiling while tears trickled down my face. I tangled my fingers with hers from behind the fence, and listened to her shaky breathing.6

”I can’t believe it’s you…Juliet.” She said with a sad giggle.7

I laughed nervously, while switching the leg I was standing on.8

”Yeah, Autumn it’s me.” My voice was cracking bad…I needed to get of here.9

”You don’t visit me anymore. How come? I thought you loved me.” Her voice sounded like a little girls. All sad and fragile.10

I kicked the fence, which let out a metallic ring that brought a startled expression upon her pale face.11

”Your mom is keeping me from visiting you. I-I’m sorry, Autumn. I do love you.”12

I'm actually surprised she is talking and remembering things. All the medicine and anti-depressants they give her…13

”Why are you even out here, alone. It’s December you’re going to catch a cold.”14

It was new years eve to be exact…Our anniversary.15

”I snuck out. I can sneak you in.” She giggled playfully, her butt waggled like an excited puppy as she bit her lip playfully. Kind of reminded me of the ‘potty dance”16

I felt a frightening jerk in my stomach and my eyes roll into the back of my head; why is this happening now? I quickly glanced across from me at the bridge. I was almost there.17

”You’re sick, what’s wrong?” Her eyes filled with tears, daring to spill. Testing my will.18

”Look Autumn, I need to get going. I love you-“19

”NO. Don’t go…Please. You always leave me. When will you stop leaving me?!” She screamed the last part, her voice echoing off the cold cement.20

”Shh shh listen…Kitten. You need to be quiet, or they will come and get you.” I beckoned her to lean her head forward against the fence, “When you get better…then we can see each other. But right now you’re not well.” I kissed her forehead, getting a mouthful of faded black hair.21

”Promise?” She mumbled.22

My stomach jerked again, causing me to collapse dramatically onto the ground, the pills spilling out of my jacket.23

I clutched my stomach tightly feeling my heart beat accelerate.24

”Juliet? Why are you taking those pills again? Please say you didn’t.” Autumn cried while pacing back and forth behind the fence.25

My head lolled to the side, so I could see her muddy bare feet walking back and forth.26

My body felt numb I couldn’t move anything I could only feel my tears freezing on my face, and my brain kept playing all of these old memory. My vision was clouded with these old memories and my ears flooded with her laughter.27

Memories of me and Autumn dancing in the rain, Sleeping under the stars, skipping down the mall. Our first kiss, our first fight, our first laugh.28

Her smile when I surprised her with a present, the way her eyes twinkled at me when I made her laugh. The way her heart sounded when we were to together…when we were happy29

My vision came to and I saw her beautiful eyes staring at me through the fence. 30

Two men were beside her now beckoning her to come back inside.31

She screamed and shouted at them, kicking, screaming, and biting. She clung to the fence, hollering my name. Her voice cut through my heart about a billon of times wounding me more then I have done. I was hurting her…again.32

A needle was stuck into her arm, and she went limp, and was dragged away.33

My last vision of her…She wasn’t happy. The last time she would see me, and I was almost lifeless on the sidewalk. That’s her last memory of me…A dead, hopeless, pathetic, no one. I couldn’t even wait for her. I gave up on her. I was the weak one.34