Cheating and choices

What the deal1

with my brain?2

Why am i so obviously insane?3

And i watch,so meloncholy4

as our loves goes down the drain.5

Lonley nights, 6

it happened once again7

now its getting unbelievable...8

do i matter that little?9

Am i that insignificant?10

You were my angel, my hero11

but i'm a zero...12

And i search the night for someone to hold onto13

as you pass through.14

And you know it15

you dont want me16

every minutes just a fragment of time17

inching by, wasted crying18

wishing i was dying19

because of your lying20

Get your hands 21

off the boy22

Can you see that he's with me?23

And i cant say i appreciate24

the excess company.25

I cant satisfy26

all his needs27

cant make him happy28

This story's anything but sappy.29

Tell me that you care30

that you'll always be there31

Tell me there's hope for you and me32

i no longer want to be lonley33

Three's too many to fit in this photograph34

but i shake it off and just laugh35

as she flirts, with my boy36

Was stabbing me in the back something to enjoy?37

And yeah, everythings fine38

i'll ignore the fact you just crossed the line39

his phone is ringing40

with her voice41

well, i guess he doesnt have the courage to make a choice42

between me43

and that slut44

In the meanwhile, i'll just cut.45

Everyone's lying to me, 46

my fragile heart their excuse47

i'm a victim of their cruelty 48

and constant abuse49

so loving in my resentment50

Remember me hurting, pretending i'm not51

i hide myself from the truth, and thats all that i've got52

I can laugh all i want53

inside i still am empty54

Todays worth living?55

not with all the pain your giving...56

I'm breaking apart57

with all this love in my heart58

Never thought you'd make me59

break me. 60

the lies around me61

the lies surround me62

Are you trying to protect me?63

Or yourself?64

You wont cry in my absense, i know...65

you forgot me long ago.66

I'm just that unimportant.67

So go ahead and be together68

while my gravestone collapses under the weather.69

His arm curls70

around her neck.71

all i can think is 72

what the heck!?73

'Cause this was not what i was expecting74

is it possible to destroy a wreck?75

And she's sneaky76

a little bitch77

a insecure, fat witch78

But he's falling under her spell79

and i guess i'm just not good enough80

to drag him out of hell.81

A former friend82

she flips her hair83

and the boy, he just stares84

as her shirt stops halfway down her breasts85

What a whore86

apparantly, i'm a bore87

cause i wont expose my chest88

she's really just a pest...89

go away, you little fly90

really, why cant you just die?91

All you do92

is upset93

all my heart represents.94

so yeah, whats with you?95

what am i supposed to do?96

to make him like me better?97

And pretend that i never met her?98

She tries to steal99

my only boy100

Acting so slick and so coy101

as if i havent figured it out102

what this girl is all about103

and yeah, your my friend104

but thats all about to end105

I couldnt care less106

because your just a source of stress107

and whats up108

with the boy?109

I love him so much110

but he never loved me, despite his lies111

i can see she's the apple of his eyes112

and i'm just the girlfriend113

waiting in the dark114

On my arms,115

this blade leaves a mark116

or two 117

or three118

or too many to count119

a rather large amount.120

But who really cares?121

Not you.122