avoidence

Avoidence.1

Your shadow sends me running though a maze2

I wont meet your insistent gaze3

Your smell sets my soul ablaze,4

liquid fire overflowing from my eyes.5

You hurt me again and again with your lies6

but somehow my feelings remain unchanged...7

A single look at you8

makes my heart ache.9

The suns never coming up, so take this stake10

and bury it in my chest11

Remove the illness of emotion, destroy the pest.12

How i long for blissful apathy13

instead of this constant pain.14

I want no trace left of you15

but my heart will always have a stain...16

where your posion graced it17

a few stitches where you slit it18

a few bruises where you hit it19

holes where you bit it20

cracks where you smashed it21

a few cuts where you bashed it22

sore where you lashed it23

And still my abused heart yearns for your touch...24

A kiss? I could only wish for as much.25

Afraid of hurting me more,26

you cut the last thin strings27

setting me free28

to drown in the cold dark sea29

I miss you30

despite all you did.31

all the pain you caused.32

I love you.33

Even if you dont love me.34

As long as your happy, i can suffer through being lonley.35

"Can we still be friends?"36

An impossibility.37

Because a single glance38

breaks my heart in half.39

A smile kills, the pain caused by youre laugh40

is unbearable. 41

I cant stand to be near you42

without wrapping my arms around your neck43

giving your cheeks a affectionate peck.44

Laying my head on your shoulder45

looking into your brown eyes as they smoulder.46

I love you too much47

to be near you.48

So forgive me...49

because this is the way it has to be.50

For the pain to dull51

To fall into the lull52

of isolation.53

Drown out the inflamation.54

So i'll love you from afar55

keep my emotions in a jar.56

But i'll always love you, always miss you57

my broken angel, my only, my lover, Mykal...58