1
i sat in the stupor2
rationalizing the ideas3
-i knew 4
that if i were to ask him5
[I KNOW]6
that i would know 7
where it would lead8
...as would he9
and so... 10
i've rationalized 11
not to ask at all12
-but then 13
i'm left with14
that irrisistable longing for15
the 16
[something]17
to fill the empty 18
[something]19
-a drink20
-a snort21
-a smoke22
-a fuck23
wayward and wayward down 24
and still25
no... 26
[whatever this is lacking]27
fill up on more pills28
(i could)29
but i don't feel the immediate difference (anyhow)30
all the associates in this ward-box31
pass time with the television32
and computer33
and the television34
and sleeping35
and secretive drug-use36
and drinking a bottle of cheap wine37
(to sleep immediatley afterwards)38
my despond is overwhelming in the slough of 39
each day spent with no change to show40
to spare41
to hold in your hand42
in your mind43
and say44
DAMN! 45
(what a great day it is to be alive)46
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