.Your Ciggs And Perfume.

The smell of your perfume and cigarettes still linger in my sheets.
I need to feel your touch again.
The way your lips feel when they brush against my skin.
I love the way you move,
The way you speak.
I need to have you next to me,
I want to hold you close.
To be able to feel your heart beat against my chest once more.
You keep my body near you as you stare me down.
Enveloping you into my arms, I scream with pleasure and joy.
You kiss me tenderly, being sure to enjoy the time that we have.
I miss your soft skin, your calm ways.
As you touch me I want to tell you everything that I feel.
But I don’t.
Fearing that I might just be falling for you more than the lust I feel.
And that can’t happen, not now.
I can’t get too close to you; I don’t want to get hurt.
Although, when you say you love me, it’s as if I can’t even hesitate to say it back.
You want to be everything to me;
You want to be something special.
You should know that I’m trying, but I can’t make any promises.
My feelings for you are growing.
And I hope to god, that they’re real,
Because I don’t want to use,
Or lose you.
But I can’t get too close,
And I never will.
You’ll end up w a l k i n g away.
Just like the other one did.