Am I Really Alone?

There is a bit of Japanese in here, so.. I'll have what they mean at the bottom.1

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It was a regular day in the Janino household.  Aiyana would get screamed at by her mother, beat by her father, and ridiculed by her siblings.  Aiyana was the object of their torment.  3

They set their day off tormenting her, causing her pain, making her bleed.  They slap her, whip her, even beat her with whatever they found necessary.  It was awful, and she wanted out.  4

There was no way for her to leave, however, as she had nowhere to go.  She tried suicide, but always failed.  Life seemed so meaningless now, but it had always seemed meaningless to her anyway.  5

She'd been through so much, it was unbearable to even listen to her story.  The daily beatings, the tears, the blood.. overwhelming in any ones ears.  It is now, that you will hear her story.6

Aiyana was at the age of thirteen when it began..7

Linkin Park's 'Lying From You' was blasting, as Aiyana Janino danced around her room, her head swinging around, singing along with the music.  She was dressed in her normal black clothes, and her spiky choker around her neck.  Her violet eyes were covered in dark make up, and her eyes held a cold glare to them.8

Her mother had come into her room, turning the music off, making the teen very pissed off.9

"Mom!  Turn it back on!" She growled.10

Her mother's hand collided with her face, sending her across the room.  "You will not speak to me in that tone of voice, Aiyana Karia Janino!"11

Aiyana glared, and picked herself up from the floor.12

"Do not glare at me," Her mother hissed, punching Aiyana straight in the face, causing her nose to bleed.13

'God, I hate this.. Every fucking day..' She thought.14

Aiyana stumbled backwards, until she hit the wall.  'Shit..'15

Her mother approached her stalkingly, the stench of alcohol on her lips.16

'She's only drunk.. she'll pass out soon.. She always does..' Aiyana hoped.17

"You filthy little bitch.." Her mother cursed, before falling unconscious on the floor.18

Aiyana sighed a sigh of relief, and quietly crept from the room, and slipping out the door into the fresh air, making a run for the park, her favorite spot to go to after this happened.19

She sat on the swing in the secluded park, the rain pouring down on her, muffling her sobs.  She did not notice the stranger approaching her, growing closer each second.20

"Aiyana.." The stranger spoke, his deep voice ringing in her ears.21

Aiyana looked up, and stared into the green eyes of the stranger.  "W-Who are you?"22

"You will know soon enough." and with that he was gone, though those green eyes still lingered in her mind.  Those eyes.. those entrancing green eyes... they would not leave her mind.  It was as if they pierced her very soul.  She shivered at the thought, and got up, heading towards her home.23

'What was that?'  She thought as she neared her house, praying her mother hadn't awakened.24

She opened the front door, and tip-toed into her room.  Seeing her mother was still laying unconscious on her floor, she grabbed her blankets and pillow off of her bed, and went into the living room.  Setting her belongings on the couch, she turned off the TV that her father had left on so carelessly when he left for work, and fell into a deep sleep.25

"Aiyana, you little bitch!" Her mother staggered from Aiyana's room, her hands holding her head, obviously suffering from a major hangover from all the alcohol she'd dranken the night before.26

"Yes, mother?" Aiyana asked, rolling her eyes.  She was used to this and didn't give a damn what her mother called her anymore.27

"You just let me sleep on the floor of your filthy room!  What the hell is wrong with you?!  You're so stupid!  I can't believe you're my daughter!  Go to Hell, fucking whore!" Her mother growled, calling her every name her drunk little mind could think of.28

"I am sorry mother.  I would have moved you to your own bed.. if you didn't have such a large ass." Aiyana spoke, mumbling the last part, hoping her mother wouldn't catch it, but she had.29

"What did you say to me?!"  Her mother grabbed her by the collar of her shirt, pulling her closer.30

'I'm gonna get hit anyway, may as well tell her.' "I said, I would have carried you into your bed if you didn't have such a fat ass."  Aiyana told her, then wincing as her mother threw her into the wall.31

"You bitch!" Her mother continued her assult, her fists crashing down on Aiyana, as she struggled to get away, only to run into her father, who'd just come home from work--and was quite pissed off at the moment.32

"You started without me?" Her father asked.  Her parents always thought of beating Aiyana as a game, so when the other parent would be late, they'd think the game had been started without them.  33

"Hn.." Her mother mumbled, walking to the basement.34

Her father smirked, and her eyes widened. 35

'No.. not this again..' Aiyana's violet eyes were wide, and she started shaking, as her mother returned from the basement holding a katana in her hands.36

"Roll up your sleeve," Her mother commanded, her voice raspy from alcohol.37

Aiyana nodded fearfully, and rolled up her sleeve, revealing scars from all the other times her mother had cut her with the katana.38

"Oh, how I love this.." Her mother whispered, smiling sadistically.39

'Oh, God, please help me..' Aiyana thought, tears forming in her eyes as the katana cut through her skin, blood seeping out of the newly made wound.  40

"That should be enough for today," Her mother walked away, her father following behind, as Aiyana walked slowly back into her room.41

'What the hell did I ever do to them?  What did I do to deserve this?  Am I Really Alone?'42

Aiyana lay in her room, glaring at the bandages that now wrapped her scarred arm.43

'That damn blade has taken my blood so many times...' She thought, pulling off her sweater, revealing a black tank top and scars covering both arms. A bruise had appeared on her cheek from the night before, and a cut lay beneath her eye from her mother's fingernail.44

"Why do I keep living like this? Am I Really Alone?" She asked herself, running her fingers over the scars.45

She threw her sweater back on, and lowered herself out of her one-story window, running for the park again.46

The park was dark, as it was night, shadows looming all around.47

Aiyana once again sat at the swing, her thought on that green-eyed stranger. Would she see him again?48

She sat there until the sun began to rise, spreading hues of brilliant colors through the sky. She hurried home before her mother came into her room, lest she be punished.49

She pulled herself back into her room, and got ready for school.50

Her mother opened the door, pushing Aiyana down. "You stupid bitch, you snuck out again!"51

"No I didn't! I-"52

"Silence!" There was a gunshot. Darkness engulfed Aiyana as she collapsed.53

Aiyana opened her eyes, her vision foggy at first. What had happened? Her memory wasn't completely clear. She remembered a loud noise, and then darkness. Oh, yes. Her mother had shot her. Aiyana's vision completely clear now, she looked around. Where was she? The surroundings were not familiar.54

"You're at my house," A deep voice from behind spoke, sending shivers down her spine.55

"Who are you?" Aiyana asked, as she turned around and gasped. It was that 'green-eyed stranger'.56

"My name is Midoriiro Metsuki," He whispered, leaning against the wall.57

"You.. you're that guy... the one I met in the park that night.. Why did you save me? How did you know to help me?" He put a finger to her lips to silence her.58

"Do not question me, just accept that you were saved, and move on. So, is your mother always that much of a bitch?" He asked, backing up a little to make more distance between them.59

Aiyana just gazed into his eyes. The green orbs were so entrancing.. She felt her cheeks flush and she looked down, and covered her face - hoping Midoriiro hadn't seen her blushing. He had.60

Chuckling a bit; he spoke, "Think I'm sexy or something?"61

Aiyana felt her cheeks heat up even more. 'Baka...[1]' 62

"Obviously you do.." He brought his face close to her's. "So, let's see those wounds, shall we?"63

Aiyana nodded, keeping her eyes diverted to the side, as he checked her body for any unseen wounds. 64

Midoriiro glanced up at her every few seconds. She was keeping her eyes to the side, avoiding his eyes. He smirked, and grabbed her chin and turning her head towards him. "Why don't you ever look at me?"65

Aiyana turned her head, avoiding the question. 66

"Aiyana.." He whispered her name. 67

"Hai?[2]" 68

He said nothing, but turned her head once more; pressing his lips to hers.69

Aiyana's eyes widened, and she pushed him off. "What the hell was that for?!"70

Midoriiro shrugged and walked away, leaving the girl alone in the room. 71

'That baka... Why the hell would he kiss me like that?' Aiyana pondered the situation, then brushed it aside. She decided she'd rather sleep in a bed than on the floor, so she climbed into his empty bed, and fell asleep.72

"Aiyana, why are you in my bed... without me?" Midoriiro grinned as the girl blushed and slapped him across the face.73

"You hentai[3]! What is wrong with you?!" 74

Midoriiro sighed, "A lot of things, Aiyana. A lot of things."75

"Oh, Midoriiro, don't say that. There's nothing wrong with you. I'm just overreacting.." Aiyana said, touching his shoulder gently.76

He shook his head, and walked away. 'There are things she'll never know. I'll never let her know my past. I won't let her get close to me... I won't fall in love again... Not after what happened last time....'77

~*~Flashback~*~78

"Midoriiro, promise me you'll never leave me..." A young girl spoke, laying her head on the boy's chest; her eyes closed peacefully.79

"I would never leave you, Kira. I love you too much for that.." Midoriiro ran his fingers through her long, brown hair. He'd never leave her. Never.80

The sun had gone down, all was dark, all was quiet - or so they thought. Seven men ran in the room, dressed in black, and armed with many weapons. 81

"You'll die today, Metsuki!" One called, shooting at Midoriiro, who dodged the bullet and pulled out his own gun. 82

"Kira, get out of here!" He shouted, pushing her from the room. 83

"You! Get the girl!" One of the men called to another. He nodded and left the room after Kira.84

"No, Kira!" Midoriiro tried to leave the room, but one of the strangers hit him in the head with a rifle. All Midoriiro heard before he passed out was a shot of a gun and a scream. Kira's scream.85

~*~End Flashback~*~86

'Kira.. I promised I'd never leave you, yet I let them take you away from me... because of this... I shall never love again... I belong to you alone.. I miss you, Kira.. I'm sorry for letting them hurt you. I love you, Kira..' 87

He sighed, leaning into his chair and closing his eyes; an image of Aiyana floating into his mind. 88

'Aiyana? What's she doing in my head? I'm overreacting... I'm probably just worried about her safety. I don't care about her.. not like that.. right?'89

~*~Japanese Words~*~90

[1]Baka - Idiot, stupid, or fool.91

[2]Hai - Yes.92

[3]Hentai - Pervert.93

~*~Shall Be Updated Soon~*~94