"The Loss Of Reason" Amy [3] 3

“You fucking slut!” my mother’s screams rang in my ears like white noise. Normally she left me in tears when she started shrieking at me like she had gone completely insane, but this time I couldn’t have cried if I had wanted to. Over the years I had taught myself how to not feel anything.1

Now was when it finally came in handy, I looked her dead in the face and with no emotion said, “So that’s it, the truth finally comes out?”2

I saw it coming the fury building behind her eyes, I could see straight into her blackened soul. I felt her hand connect with my face, my head turned so fast I felt my neck pop, I turned back to look at her. I could feel the blood rushing to my face, forming a red hand print on my cheek. I didn’t dare touch it, I didn’t dare let her know it hurt, that would be giving in, and that was something I swore I wouldn’t do again.3

She looked at me waiting, wanting me to say something else. It was my privilege, “So I’m a slut? Any other hidden feelings you would like to let out? Am I a bitch like you?”4

She was shocked, the tears didn’t well up in my eyes like she had thought, it just proved how little she knew about me. “Don’t you dare speak to me like that, that’s not how I raised you.”5

She had just put the blade in my hand and I cut clean to the bone, “Of course it’s not how you raised me, but then again you didn’t raise me, well not really.”6

“What the fuck are you talking about? Everything you are you owe to me.”7

I laughed, I couldn’t believe her ignorance. Did she hear herself? “That’s not saying much on your part, seeing as of how you just called me a slut. But yea, for once you’re right I do owe everything I am to you, for teaching me what not to be.”8

“Get your shit and get out of my house!” It was all she could do to keep from crying, I had done more damage than she had and we both knew it, and I knew it wouldn’t be long before she called me up apologizing for everything, but it was to late, it had been to late. She had just set me free, and I was never coming back.