The Secrets of Topaz Eyes

Thursday 1

Sometimes it's like she can see right through me, straight into the depths of my soul. So how is it that she doesn't seem to know that she is my world, that I couldn't live with out her. When she looks at me, her eyes shining like liquid topaz, I melt in her hands. 2

"Elli!...Elli?" I snap back to reality. "Were you even listening to me?" Lola asked. 3

I nodded, even though I had no earthly clue what she had said. 4

"You are such a liar, you weren't listening to me," she just looked at me. "Anyway back to what I was saying, so what do you think about me coming over for the weekend?" 5

"It sounds awesome, we can get Alex and John to come over on Saturday and hang out." Alex and John were our closets guy friends, and as weird as it is they were both my ex's. 6

"Sounds fun," she said. Then I saw an evil grin cross her beautiful face. 7

"Okay, you're planning something, tell me, now." I laughed I knew it would be funny, at their expense, whatever it may be. 8

"I say that we play," she paused for dramatic effect, she's always done that for some weird reason, “poker.” she said as her evil smile transferred to my face. We were both great at poker, and we knew it, but the guys didn’t. Strip poker, the ultimate game of torture, for them. 9

“It’s perfect,” I laughed, “but just to be safe we wear double layers.” 10

She gave me a look that clearly stated I was being a dumbass. “Well duh Eleanor.” 11

The bell rang and all you could hear was the rush of people headed out the door. 12

“Anyway Lola,” I said as I put my notebook back in my bag, “ I have to go straight home today.” 13

“Why? she asked as she followed me out the door and to the parking lot. 14

“I have to pick up the midgets take them home, cook supper, and then I’m babysitting to night.” I groaned. My life had been so full lately, and to top it off I had been so confused about every thing the last month or two. I mean I was asking my self things that no one should ever have to ask themselves. I was questioning every thing from if I was bi to if I was really in love with Lola, to what would happen if I told her. 15

But I couldn’t think about that now, now I had to go pick up my little brothers and sister, get them home and feed them, and then go to work. 16

Saturday 17

I woke up at seven on Saturday morning, and crawled out of be without waking Lola, who was drooling on my extra pillow. I grabbed my robe off of the chair by my door and went to the bathroom to get my shower. 18

I had no sooner stepped out of the shower and wrapped myself in my robe than someone knocked on the door. "Elli, let me in," Lola's voice came from the other side of the door. 19

"Just a second," I said. I tied the belt of the robe around my waist and opened the door. "It's all yours, I'm going to go get dressed and then go get John and Alex." 20

"Okay, I'm coming too," and with that she shut the door and I went back to my room. 21

I once was told that you can tell a lot about a girl if you look at her closet, well I don't think so. I have this huge walk in closet, which would make me seem pampered. Also I have almost all black and hot topic brand cloths, which would make me seem Goth, and the thing is I'm neither. 22

I pulled down my favorite shirt with Captain Jack on it tossed it on the bed as I started searching for a pair of pants. Finally I just pulled down one of the only preppy name brand jeans I had, a pair of faded American Eagles. I got dressed and went to the hall closet to find a pair of shoes that wouldn't kill my feet. 23

I had just put on a pair of my mother's flip flops when Lola walked up behind me. "You ready?" she asked me. 24

I straightened back up, "I am if you are." 25

She looked me up and down, "What prep dressed you this morning?”26

"Oh haha Lola, come on lets go," I looked around, checked my pockets and added, "Did you see where I put my keys?" 27

Lola pulled her hand from behind her back and shook the keys in my face. I took them and headed for the door, Lola right behind me. 28

While I had taken my shower I had been thinking about when I was going to tell Lola, and I had decided that it had to be today, before we got John and Alex. I got in the car and turned on the radio, Three Days Grace started playing. We both started singing, a natural reaction. 29

My mouth was forming the words to Pain, while my mind was trying to form the words I would soon have to explain.30

The song ended and as the next one started Lola reached out and turned off the radio. "Elli, there's something I have to tell you," Lola's voice was forced, she didn't want to tell me what ever it was but felt that she had.31

"M-m..." I stuttered. I paused, composed my self and started again, "Me too."32

"Well you go first," she said in relief that she wasn't alone in the keeping of secrets.33

"No, we go at the same time, okay?" I asked, I knew we could argue over who went first for hours; hours that we didn't have.34

"Okay, on three?" she asked. I nodded. "One, two, three."35

I felt my pulse quicken with each number, and then, "I'm bi."36

“I'm in love with you," Lola's voice over lapped mine. Then everything seemed to happen at once, my heart stopped, dropped into my stomach and started racing, Lola's jaw dropped, as did mine, and I pulled over and put the car in park on the curb.37

"W-w-what?" what was with me stuttering today, but I couldn't believe what I had just heard.38

Lola just blinked, I didn't know if her shock was a good thing or a horrible one. Then her face softened, and her eyes turned back into the liquid topaz I got lost in. "I love you," the words slipped into my brain right before it turned to mush.39

Next thing I knew I was dreaming, I had to be because she had kissed me. Just a peck on the lips, but she had kissed me. I blinked dumbly, before my brain kicked into high speed. I reached out, cupped her chin in my hand and kissed her, and she kissed back. It was a passionate kiss that could cripple the heart and enslave the soul.40

I broke the kiss and asked, "How long?" How could it be that all of my dreams where coming true, there had to be a catch, somewhere.41

She just looked at me, what was with us searching for words like we couldn't speak English and then, "For longer than I can remember, since before John, before Alex, before anyone. I can't keep it from you any longer Elli, I'm bi, and I love you."42

I felt my cheeks turn red, but at the same time I smiled, "Then lets make this official. Lola Diaz will you be my girlfrien..." I was stopped in mid-word, mid-thought by the feel of her soft lips on mine. She pulled back and looked at me. Then I saw it, the glint in her eyes that could hypnotize the moon, before that moment I had given it a second thought, now I saw it for what it was: love43