Dirty Girl 4

For Lee, who I’ve known for years, but only recently seen as the guy I want to be with.1

At first Lee and I didn’t tell anyone from the group that we were dating.  I don’t know if we even had a reason, but we didn’t.  We have liked each other within the group, but nothing has ever come of it.  And I guess we never each other as much as Lee and I do.2

When we went into Kenzie’s basement a week after we’d started going out, I kind of forgot that they all didn’t know.  I guess Lee did, too, because when we sat down he put his arm around me.  The guys didn’t notice that fast, but Kenzie’s little brother did.3

“Are you guys boyfriend and girlfriend?!” he squealed and pointed.  Lee took his arm away before the guys looked.  They just shrugged and we got back to our huge-irrelevant-to-anything conversation.4

Except I was just a tiny bit worried that maybe Lee didn’t want them to know.  Like maybe he was embarrassed or something.  But that part didn’t make sense at all because I wasn’t bitchy or stupid or bad looking.  I was actually kind of pretty; long blonde hair and dark blue eyes.  I didn’t even have a huge nose.  And I wasn’t fat or anorexic thin.  I just didn’t understand why he didn’t want them to know.5

Lee went upstairs to get more pop.  I decided to come, too, to find out what was the deal.  We grabbed a few pops and I whispered in his ear that I wanted to talk to him (I had to whisper because-yet again-our mothers were having a get-together).  He nodded and motioned me to go downstairs.  We put the pop on the floor and I followed him into the bathroom.  6

“Hey” he said and smiled.  He slipped his hands around my waist and pulled me towards him.  That was still such a novelty.  I turned my face up and met his kiss.  It was soft and sweet, a hello kiss that lingered on my lips.  “What’s up?”7

I smiled, loving how close we were.  It reminded me of slow dancing, only not when you’re in grade six, slow dancing when you’re older and it means more than excitement over actually having touched a guy.  I didn’t want to sound like I was nagging or anything so I tried to start innocently “You know Quinton and Andrew and Kenzie and Nathan and Robin?”8

“Yeah…?”9

“Well are we going to tell them?” I hoped I didn’t sound desperate.10

“Hmm…yeah I guess they have to know.  I didn’t really think about it much.  I was kind of focusing on our parents not finding out” he laughed.11

“So you aren’t embarrassed about us?” I blurted out.  Ooops.12

He hugged me really tightly and kissed my hair “No way!”  I smiled and kissed him, this time a longer kiss, where we allowed our tongues to dance.13

And that’s when Quinton opened the door.14