My Early Death Bed

Tears roll down my face
My heart aches of the pain you caused
You say I’m a disgrace
As you point and laugh1

Suicides are my thoughts
Cutting, hurting is so much pain
While I walk alone
And shut the door2

‘Everything’s going to be alright’
They lie like always
Just so I can clear my mind
Just to fake a smile3

Hurt is my pain
But life going on is no gain
Sickness in health
They beg god for my early death bed4

Still laughing at me
I write this is my death note
Suicidal I think
Then I realize thinking shit5

I pick the razor beside my bed
I stare at the sharp edges
So shiny and sharp I whisper
Its cold as it touches my wrist
I close my eyes in fear
As I cut the pain.6

Slow in motion
Pain, hurt, anger fades away
As I walk to the red glowing light
I guess I’m in hell….

Author notes

My early death bed.

I realized today after writing this that I have become so suicidal... such a shame it brings good poems

I like this but feel free to comment

-Missi

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  • juhi
    July 19

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    nice emotional poem

    i like this poem , the way you discribed all ur agonies , hurts ,anger and disappointment ,it feels that you are in big mental turmoil.and this discription making poem more emotional and touchy . but i personally hate suidal poems and attempts . i think hurt is not bigger then life ,kick them out of your life and move on. keep writing it will vent out all ur stress. beautiful poem ,i like it keep it up .

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  • darkheart
    July 17
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    gess what theirs alot of emos

    i enjoy witing poems that sa how i feel also

  • Shadowed Phoenix
    July 14

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    I myself am not a fan of this type of poetry but I have writen ALOT of it in the last five years of my life. For a sucide poem this flowed quite well and the emotion and background in it were clear and easy to understand. The ending was slightly different in that you didn't fade into darkness but you ended up in hell. That made it seem more origional in a way. A wonderful poem, and I can relate.

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  • KalineReine
    July 14

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    This was a really great poem. I liked the way it had a very nice flow to it, and I can that you are very talented. Suicide is such an interesting thing to write about, in my opinion. I love reading poems like this, because it makes me feel like I'm not alone. But really... We all are. Great job!

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  • MumMum
    July 14

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    i like this alot. u rock.You hav alot of talent

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  • Rosen Rot
    July 13

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    Very beautifully written, with alot of emotion..
    I truthfully loved this; especially the ending- the appearance of a red light instead of a white light was a nice twist.

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  • Lawliet
    July 13

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    I thought this was well written, but it seems that there are just sooo many poems lsike this. They're all written with different words, but end up having the same point. Why write about being depressed, it's only going to bring more depression into your life by helping you realize how depressed you really are by reading the poems. Why don't you use that great writing talent for something happier? ^-^ I know there are some positive emotions in there somewhere.
    So yeah. Really nicely written, but you really could do better, I think

    ♥ Lawliet ♥


  • Black Dragon15
    July 13

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    The poem was beautiful. It described the pain... the hurt, too well for comfort. It was amazing. I know how you feel, so I can relate to this, which makes it all the more beautiful to me.

    Wonderful penmanship.

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  • Hismercy
    June 16

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    Put down the razer...and look at your SW friends


    I am not here to say do this or do that with who you are, yet what I will say that your writing is jus beautiful.

    I loved the 1rst paragraph where you point out the meaning of the pain, you continue to share about suicide and the pain that takes the character there.

    It tickled me to see in paragraph 6 the description by detail of the razer !

    The last paragraph my dear is that allot of people want to talk about the white shiny light....not you !!!...this poem shares of the red light instead, very creative !!

    -Hismercy


  • Autumn.Rain
    June 15

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    This is very good!! Menacing and full of raw emotion. The ending doesn't exactly tie things together, but with this kind of poem, that works out alright.

    Good job and keep writing!!

    ♥Maureen♥

  • Colaca-Lily
    June 15

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    I was a bit scared until I saw that you wasn't going to do this. Nice poem and it shares go thoughts. Really great poem that doesn't just show pain and fear, it is pain and fear. Well done and keep writing.


  • Intrepid
    June 15

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    Im right with you right now trust me...and you would think that knowing what an attempt can bring would scare you of it for life... but the more I think upon it the more I want to cut and cut and cut till all I can see is the hole in the ground.

    Most of it is from being heartbroken and even when I am with people it is still such a lonely place to be..then there is the feelings of wanting to feel the pain my lovers feel.

    All I can say is it always gets better and falls. Keep your chin up..nothing in life is that bad you have to take your own. Belive me... I know

    Blair


    • Missi
      June 15
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      Thank you for you comment and I believe it will end soon 2

      At least hopefully

      -Missi

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