Forgiveness Is Bullshit 1
“How the fuck could you do this to me? again,” I screamed throwing my hands up in the air, knocking my chair backwards as I pushed my father away.2
He was drunk his body rocking back and forth. His blood- shot eyes screaming at me begging me for forgiveness.3
“I didn't mean to,” he slurred, “You don't understand I had a really bad day.”4
I laughed mockingly. Did he really think I was going to take this self pitying bullshit again? If he did he was severely mistaken I was not accepting self pity as an excuse anymore. I had been dealing with his shit for the past eight years of my life. I was damned if I was going to be made to feel guilty for something that was not my fault.5
“So what just because you have a bad day that gives you the right to go steal from me, to steal from your wife and children? Do you think that gives you the right to take the car and disappear for days on end without even one single phone call to let us know you are alright? Did you think just because you came back and apologized that everything would be alright?” I screamed feeling my chest becoming tight with stress.6
He shook his head falling to the floor. His face in his hands.7
It made me sick more than anything watching him crumple into a little ball in front of us all. No one being able to say a word or daring to interrupt me.8
“You know what forget it this is bullshit and I've had enough, you're pathetic,” I spat, tears now blinding me from his hideous truth.”You can do whatever the fuck you want, but don't you ever expect me to forgive you... EVER... as far as I am concerned you don't deserve my respect and forgiveness is bullshit especially for someone who has no real remorse for what he has done whatsoever.”9
I looked away picking up my chair, nodding to my mother and siblings before I walked out of the room, wiping the tears from my eyes.
Author notes
This is based on my life
I don't know if it will make your cry ~ But it is emotional dealing with an Alcoholic....
Blair
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this is so well written and I think wow as I read it. This is such a brilliant piece thank you for entering it.. Great Job
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Handled right
If this is the way it went down...then good for you! Alcoholics thrive on pity and forgiveness. that way they never have to face their addiction and especially what it does to others.
beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.
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Very Strong
This was very strong and sort of struck me as a 'healing' or inspirational type peice. I did relate to the story and felt strongly connected throughout reading. Very well done with this. and Sorry for the situation in your life. In P5 ; needed after mistaken. Or even just a break in sentence.
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this is so GOOD! i wish i could do that...
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Thanks for your entry. I think this is a peice you should continue to work on and expand. You are right. It is tough to live with someone you love destroying themselves and everything around them.
Your story has a raw honesty to it that anyone who has been in similar circumstance can relate to.
Best of luck in the contest.
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this was so powerful and It was very emotional, I guess this is love as it has something to do with family love so love is the same.
I really enjoyed this and thanks for entering.
Good luck!
-Missi
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Wow that was one powerful piece. Very, very good. I love the anger you express, one I could only imagine since I've never been in this situation, but one that you're helping me imagine through this piece.
I do have a few grammar/punctuation pointers... keep in mind they're only pointers, just my humble opinion!
P5: If he did he was severely mistaken I was not accepting self pity as an excuse anymore. -> If he did, he was severely mistaken; I was not accepting self pity as an excuse anymore.
P6: So what just because you have a bad day that gives you the right to go steal from me -> So what, just because you have a bad day, you have the right to steal from me
P6: my chest becoming tight -> my chest become
P9: You know what forget it this is bullshit ->
You know what? Forget it, this is bullshit
It would be nice to end that line with an exclamation mark, to emphasise the anger.
P9: forgiveness is bullshit especially for someone who has no real remorse -> forgiveness is bullshit... Especially for someone who has no real remorse
Hope you don't mind me suggesting stuff!
Keep up the great work!
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This was extremely good.
Raw and deep emotion got me hooked.
Sad, but very well done.
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This is a pretty emotional story. I like it a lot, but.. You might want to work on some of the grammar issues. There were a lot of sentence structure problems, but other than that it was good.
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that actually made my eyes tear up.
Vey emotional i loved it
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Strangely enough, as I was reading this I had that weird inner feeling that this was dealing someones life (yours)
The way you wrote shows the anger and fustration from the innocent, and even what a true drunk is like.
I seen that this was posted in many contests....and I see why !
beautiful job Prodigous !!!
-Hismercy
beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.
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Man this brought back memberies of myself dealing with a alcoholic and made me cry. This was to strong and bold my little vampire queen. And so real
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WOW!!! This is awesome Blair....I really enjoyed it...
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Well-written as always.
Just a few issues, 'cos I'm a grammar-Nazi. xD
Line 2, add a ? after "me".
Whoa, watch the periods, and commas, Blair.
"Your" = "you're" line 9.
Wow...this is so horribly sad.
Ugh, hate drinks in general...reduce humans to animals.
-HT
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