I just don't want to live a lie


Verse One
No I don't know anyone by the name of me
I never knew how hard it could be for me to breathe
Lying inside the person I used to be
Telling myself that everything would work out fine
Never being true to myself, makes me wonder if I lied1

Believe me when I say its hard
Nothing has ever left me this scarred
You deserve so much better than me2


Chorus
Oh then everything began to pull me in
The truth inside won't let me sin
I can't be the girl that you once loved
Not this I can't...no more
Baby I thought that maybe I knew who I was
Just hear me only because
I can't be the girl that you once loved
No matter if we are fine
I just don't want to live inside a lie
Not this... I can't no more3

Verse Two
Sometimes you picked me up when I fell
I never had a love like your's love before
Living inside the forgotten truth in me
Crying out to everyone for the power to scream
Never accepting this in myself, makes me wonder if I dreamed4

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Believe me when I said I do
I thought I'd spend my life with you
You deserve much better than me6

Bridge
There was never a time when I said no
All those moment when I couldn't let you go
Pulling my inside out when your not there
So afraid that if I was myself that you wouldn't care
Oh baby please learn to see
I know you will get over me7


Chorus
Oh then everything began to pull me in
The truth inside won't let me sin
I can't be the girl that you once loved
Not this I can't...no more
Baby I thought that maybe I knew who I was
Just hear me only because
I can't be the girl that you once loved
No matter if we are fine
I just don't want to live inside a lie
Not this... I can't no more8

Just hear me one more time
For I know that you will be fine
No matter if you still want to be mine
I just don't want to live a lie.9

Author notes

It is so fucking hard being someone... someone for so long, then realising no matter how you try to fight it or what you hide behind you cannot lie to yourself. You are who you are.

It is the pain and the heartbreak that brings me along that makes it so hard to let someone go. Because I know part of me still loves them, but I am being strangled in my sexuality.

I know who I am...what I want... I always have ~ Iv'e just been afraid to admit it.

Never meant I never felt that love... for the majority fo the time I did, but it got to hard to explain. Justify why I felt that way towards women.

I don't want to have to hide.

I want to be me.

I Love women

Blair ~

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  • Girl Anachronism
    July 6
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    I forgot these.


  • Girl Anachronism
    July 6
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    This was amazing. It really hit me. If only all of us could be so strong.


  • B0b
    June 12
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    i am completely speechless....i so wanna hear it with music behind it....i love it


  • DarkOneShadow silver member
    June 11

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    I feel for ya

    Everyday everyone tries to find themselves and the strange thing is that we find a little of ourselves in everyone that we meet and call friends... it's interesting how we are influenced by people and they are influenced by us. Thanks for bringing that issues to the surface... the gods know that we need that more and more.

    DarkOne


  • Gary Alexander silver member
    June 11

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    Yes...The pain and the heartbreak...and the realization come through. It is difficult to critique lyrics for many reasons. First, the form is so much freer than anything else...second, it speaks to an audience I am MOST unfamilar with...another generation! Those people are looking for and seeking different messages than past generations...for the different world they live in ...NOW! Also, and, for me, I wish I could hear the tune. This would clarify a lot. This is what brings loft to the lyrics...lilt! But the message...comes through. And that's important.
    G


  • RegalAngel
    June 11
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    all i have to say is when is it being released with music? i love it!


  • Lawliet
    June 10

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    Line 2: "breath" should be "breathe".

    Line 7: you meant to say "scarred", right? As in having scars? Not scared, right? I thought it was supposed to be scarred, but I guess you could've meant scared too ^-^

    Okai, I thought this was pretty good. I'm not that great at criticising lyrics because I never know the tune of the song and that usually kind of just pulls the meaning away for me sometimes, but the topic was still easy to relate to, as I'm sure it is for many on storywrite. I can definately say that I liked the chorus the most, I feel that it had the best flow out of the whole song.

    Good job ^-^

    ♥ Lawliet ♥

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