Me, my Soul, and my Heart (a Hiei story) Chapter 12

---In your house---1

Tsume~ Where the hell have you been?!2

Ruby~ And why are your hands covered in dirt?3

Siji~ I tripped outside of the pool area which was a little muddy.4

Hiei~ Me too.5

Ruby~ Ugh huh?6

Tsume~ Go wash your hands and eat.7

Siji~ Feh.8

You and Hiei washed your hands and went back outside where everyone else was eating lunch. When you went to the table, your father gave you a suspicious look. You ignored it and sat down to eat. Everything was ok, Tsume was telling the guys what happened earlier with Rattles and Botan fit perfectly with your girly sisters. You started to feel cold and headed back inside to put your clothes on. When you got up, so did Hiei. Venom became very suspicious about the 2 of you and told Ruby to go inside and see what you have been up 2. Ruby went inside and saw that you went to your room and Hiei went to the bathroom. Ruby went back out and sat down next to Venom.9

Ruby~ Siji went to her room to change and Hiei went to the bathroom, doing his own business. Why are you so worried about her?10

Venom~ I don’t want anyone to hurt her.11

Ruby~ Hurt her? She’s a big girl now, dad. She can take care of herself.12

Venom~ You don’t understand. I don’t want him to hurt my little baby’s heart. For she is strong on the outside but her heart is just fragile.13

Ruby~ You think Hiei is going to bring her down when it comes to the tournament? He wouldn’t do that before a big event or at all.14

Venom~ That’s what you think. Siji is strong but there are times when she becomes too childish and that will annoy him. I just don’t want there to be a strong relationship between them. They should just stay as friends and nothing more.15

Ruby~ Dad! Siji is 15! Her birthday is coming up and she’ll be 16! She isn’t a baby anymore!16

Venom~ I know she isn’t a baby anymore but she’ll always be my little girl.17

Ruby~ Stop looking at the dark side of things cuz there is no such thing. Just look at it an opportunity for Siji to live a life she wants.18

Venom~ Which is that?19

Ruby~ To be safe and to be loved. And happy.20

Venom~ She had always had love from us, her family.21

Ruby~ Stop doing that! You don’t even understand yourself! You are so overprotective that you caged her in her own home! Now she went beyond the house and school, she is free. “Love?” You didn’t even let her go out to watch a movie with us! You had treated her as a prisoner! Like if she had met someone new, its dangerous! “Love?!” Its more like “loveless”!22

Bones~ Hey! Hi Siji!23

Ruby~ Huh?*looked at the door to see you surprised* Siji, let me explain.24

Siji~ You don’t think I’m meant for Hiei?25

Venom~ No. I think he is not meant for you.26

Siji~ Why?27

Venom~ I don’t trust him.28

Siji~ Well, because you never really got to know him!*tears rolling down cheek* I love him! And he loves me! Nothing will change that!29

Venom~ Kisses and apologetic words don’t mean “love”.30

Siji~ And you’re saying “your love” is any different! I had to sneak out of the house many times so I could breathe! I felt like I was choking in my own home with all these boundaries and all! I hated “your love” and this house! It does nothing more but take my soul away from me! I was like, “if I stay one more day in this damn house, I’m going to kill myself”! That’s the “love” I felt here in this house! You made my life a living hell! I hate you! 31

You then ran away from your house, out of your property, as far as your legs took you. When you finally stopped to take a breather, you were already at Koenma’s mansion. You had ran all that 55 miles by yourself. Just as you were about to open the door, you blacked-out on the steps of the mansion. Hours had passed and you finally woke up in your room. You were to weak to even get up, and that’s when you heard a voice in your room. You try to look to see who is was but the voice told you not to. That’s when you heard a chair move back and there you saw the face that hold that voice…Hiei.32

Siji~ Hiei?33

Hiei~ Ssshhhh. You shouldn’t be talking so much. Now drink this.*handed a cup to you*34

Siji~ Heh. I can’t even move.35

Hiei~ Here, I’ll help you up. *grabbed another pillow and laid it under you so can get up more easier* Now, drink this.36

Siji~ *took cup* What is it?37

Hiei~ Orange juice.38

Siji~ Why?39

Hiei~ You were in the water to much, so I thought if I gave you water, you might drown.40

Siji~ Ha. Ha.*drank the juice* Its too sweet.41

Hiei~ It is? Let me see. *kissed you* Yeah, you’re right. Its too sweet.42

Siji~ *giggles*43

Hiei~ Next time, I won’t put sugar in it.44

Siji~ *laughs*45

Hiei~ *smile* Better?46

Siji~ Huh?47

Hiei~ Are you feeling any better?48

Siji~ Just a little. I can feel my strength coming back but I’m not too sure about my stamina.49

Hiei~ Its ok, you should rest anyway. You had a long day.*kissed you on the forehead* Good-night.50

Siji~ *put cup on table* Night.51

So you sleep through the night well. You had no dream that night, oddly it was but you were too tired to even think about it. That’s when you hear someone callin’ you. You get up a little curious but cautious, for you never heard that voice before. The moment you were about to speak to ask who was there, you saw your own breath. This scared you a little bit because you don’t even feel cold. As soon as you put your feet on the ground, you felt the coldness in the room right away. The voice then called your name again.52

Siji~ *shivering* Wh-who’s t-there?53

Voice~ Siiiiijiii.54

Siji~ Wh-who’s th-that?55

Voice~ *chuckles*56

Siji~ Hiei?57

Voice~ Nooo.58

Siji~ Yusuke?59

Voice~ Nooo.60

Siji~ K-Kuwabara?61

Voice~ Hell no! You’re not even close. Think other than your friends.62

Siji~ S-show yourself!63

Voice~ If you say so.64

That’s when something flew down behind you. You look to see someone about Hiei’s height, he had short blonde hair, blue eyes, a purple headband with a picture of a skull on it, a black short-sleeve T-shirt with a purple torn-sleeve jacket, leaver pants, and purple gloves with a skull on both of them.65

Siji~ Wh-who are you?66

Scar~ I’m Scar. Thank you for freeing me from that damn prison.67

Siji~ “prison”? I never went to jail before.68

Scar~ *chuckles* Of course not. The prison was your mind.69

Siji~ My mind?70

Scar~ *jumped on the table* Yes. You can say, I’m your inner demon.71

Siji~ My inner demon is a snake. The Pythra. Not some guy named Scar.72

Scar~ And that’s where you’re wrong. I should be a little more clear of myself. *ahem* I’m more like a curse than a inner demon. For I am Scar, the devil’s son.73

Siji~ The d-devil’s s-son?74

Scar~ Yes. And to complete my “mission” for me to live a very long youthful life, much longer than any demon in this world. I need your love, your soul, and your heart.75

Siji~ W-what do you mean by “my love”?*backing away*76

Scar~ *chuckles* I guess you are timid and it s cute. What I mean is, I need you.77

Siji~ M-me, my soul, and my heart?78

Scar~ it’s the only way for me to live like forever. So, if you come with me with no problem, I’ll make the progress less “painful”.79

Siji~ N-no.80

Scar~ “No” as in not painful? Ok, I’ll make it as painful as you please.81

Siji~ No! Stay away from me!82

Scar~ Ssshhhh. You’ll wake up the others. *moving closer to you*83

Siji~ *backing away from him and heading towards the door* No! Stay away from me! Hi-84

Scar~ *covers your mouth* Now, that’s not a good idea for you to call “him”. Since it’ll be hard to remove you from this room, I guess there is no harm to do it here.85

Siji~ *trying to remove his hand* No!86

Scar~ Ssshhhh. It will be over soon, just you see. *slowly removes hand*87

Siji~ *bites his hand*88

Scar~*sarcastically* Ow. That really hurt. *chuckles*89

He then grabbed your neck, lifting you off the ground. He put you at eye level so you are able to see his eyes directly. You saw desire in them and this scared you even more.90

Scar~ Are you “scared”? You should be. For I don’t do kitty play.91

Scar then tightens his grip on your neck making you yelp in pain. He then kisses you and this shocked you. You then can feel his tongue go inside your mouth. You struggle to break free but you couldn’t even move. You then try calling Hiei through thought but Scar entered your mind and told you that it won’t work. You couldn’t think of another way but you bit his tongue and hard. He let go right away, giving you the chance to scream.92

Siji~ HIIIIIEEEIIIII!!!!93

Scar~ *wipe mouth* You shouldn’t do that.94

Siji~ HIIIIIEEEIIIII!!!!95

Scar~ Lets get this over with.96

Siji~ HIIIIIEE-97

Scar~ *kissed you again*98

You fight back anyway you can but then Scar threw you to the bed. You were very scared now and you run to the door but he caught you before you were even able to reach it. You scream and kick, anything to get him to let you go. You were so scared that no one came to help you. Almost if Scar had done something to them. You cried at the thought that Hiei is dead but you kept on screaming his name anyway. You then summoned black flames on your hands and started to throw them about. That’s when you kicked Scar in the mid-section and that he let you go. You ran to the door and tried to open it but it wouldn’t even budge. You kept on pulling and turning the knob but it wouldn’t open. You looked back to see Scar getting up again. You started to scream anyone’s name and that’s when you just broke down the door. You did hurt your arm but it didn’t matter to you. You then ran to Hiei’s room. His door was also locked. You banged and screamed out his name through the door. You then tried to break down his door but you just hurted yourself. You kept on banging on his door, asking him to open it. But nothing happened. You then felt an embrace on your waist, you look to see Scar. You were now so terrified, that all you can do is kick and scream. Just before Scar took you back to your room, you screamed out Hiei’s name 1 more time and from there, you know what happened.99

---The Next Day---100

Everyone wakes up thinking that they slept for a month. Hiei was the last one up, when he closed his door he saw dents on his door even a slash impression leading down your room. Hiei got very worried that something had happened to you and ran to your room. Everyone was at your door which was on the ground. They all had a feeling something happened and entered your room with caution. They all were shocked when they saw black flames almost all over the place but were almost out. Your room was terrorized almost like a war took place. Hiei then went to your bathroom and saw you all curled up in the corner. He became shocked when he saw all these scratches, bruise marks, and hand impressions on you.101

Hiei~ What happened to you, Siji?102

Siji~ …103

Hiei~ Siji?104

Siji~ *looked up*105

Hiei~ What happened to you?106

Siji~ *got up and cried on his chest*107

Hiei~ Who did this to you?108

Siji~ *talking to him through thought* Scar.109

Hiei~ Who’s Scar?110

Siji~ *thought* He’s the devil’s son! I thought I lost you!*cries more*111

Hiei~ Why are you not talking with your voice?112

Siji~ *clenches harder to his shirt*113

Hiei~ *shocked* He…114

Siji~ *cries*115

Hiei~ *embraces you closer and mad* I’ll kill that bastard!116

Kurama~ Hiei, whats wrong? *sees you* Siji!117

Yusuke~ Siji! What the hell happened here?!118

Kurama~ Now its not a good time to ask questions, we have to take care of Siji first.119

Hiei~ Lets go to Yukina, ok?120

Siji~ *nods*121

Everyone went down stairs where the girls are at. When they saw you, they were very shocked and asked you but Hiei had spoken for you. Yukina had healed your wounds but she couldn’t bring back your voice. While everyone was eating, Hiei was just jabbing the food with his fork and got up and went outside. You knew he was mad but you followed him anyway. Hiei went all the way to the lake that’s by Koenma’s mansion and started to throw rocks into the water. You kept your distance but still watched him. You can see that he was mad at himself for not saving you from Scar but he couldn’t do anything, Scar put them in a sleep spell which is really difficult to escape from. When you thought it was ok to talk to him, he told you to stay away from him. You were confused and started to walk towards him.122

Hiei~ I said don’t come near me!123

Siji~ *stopped walking and gulp*124

Hiei~ I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to yell at you. I’m just so mad at myself! I could of done something to protect you but no! I left you alone and this happens!125

Siji~ *moving slowly towards him*126

Hiei~ I should of stay with you that night and none of this would happen.127

Siji~ *talking through thought* Hiei.128

Hiei~ I’m so stupid. If I stayed with you, you wouldn’t have gotten hurt.129

Siji~ *talking to him through thought* Hiei-130

Hiei~ Why did he do it in the first place?131

Siji~ …132

Hiei~ Why did he do that to you in the first place, Siji?133

Siji~ He needed me, my soul, and my heart so he can live a youthful life forever.134

Hiei~ What? I don’t understand.135

Siji~ He needed my love, my soul, and my heart so he can live as a young person forever.136

Hiei~ As in to…137

Siji~ *nods*138

Hiei~ And to take your soul and your heart?139

Siji~ *nods* But he didn’t take them.140

Hiei~ But he sure did take something.141

Siji~ *looking down sad*142

Hiei~ I don’t understand, why are there people that want to hurt you?143

Siji~ I don’t know.144

Hiei~ I don’t even know if I’m able to protect you from this guy. 145

Siji~ He is the devil’s son, so-146

Hiei~ Its not the same. He’s a demon. How did he find you in the first place?147

Siji~ He’s a curse.148

Hiei~ I don’t understand.149

Siji~ He is my curse that was trapped in my mind.150

Hiei~ How did he escape?151

Siji~ I don’t know.152

Hiei~ We need to talk to your father, he might know a thing or 2 about this Scar guy.153

Siji~ I think I’m not even allowed to get near his house anymore.154

Hiei~ Why did you say that?155

Siji~ He doesn’t even trust you or like you. He even thinks you’re not meant for me.156

Hiei~ So, what is he suggesting?157

Siji~ Someone among my kind.158

Hiei~ Another snake demon?159

Siji~ *nods*160

Hiei~ That’s ridiculous! They don’t even know how you feel about this.161

Siji~ He is just doing whats best for me but I don’t even like it. He just wants our clan to continue on. I want to start a new beginning, live out a life I desire.162

Hiei~ What are we suppose to do then?163

Siji~ All I can think of is our love for each other. Our true love for each other will get rid of Scar.164

Hiei~ That won’t be enough.165

Siji~ *moving closer, confused* What are you saying? Our love is stronger than his dark ways.166

Hiei~ I need time to think about it.167

Siji~ *shocked and about to cry* What are you trying to say? That you don’t love me anymore?168

Hiei~ I’m full of rage right now. You think I don’t love you? I still love you but you have to understand, I need my space when I’m angry.169

Siji~ *tearing up* You said before that when I’m sad, you’re sad. But look at you! You’re mad and I’m upset. There is a difference you know. How can you say, I’m part of you if we don’t even share the same emotions?170

Hiei~ *walking away*171

Siji~ *runs to him and hugs him* Don’t leave me confused. *crying* I need you to help me live through this. I need you to help me survive through this pain. Don’t leave me alone in the dark like my father did! He never helped me get through my pain from seeing my own mother die right in front of me. Please, don’t turn out to be like him. Please, Hiei, don’t go.172

Hiei just turns around and looks at you. He sees your eyes full of pain and fear. He then hugs you back. There you two sat there crying away the pain. You both then headed back to the house and Hiei told everyone to start training for the Dark Tournament.