Would Rather Die...

I sat quietly in the corner of the dark bedroom, staring at the clock resting on the nightstand beside my bed. The clock lit the room with eerie red light. 1

7:32 AM. 'Three minutes left and you'll know' I thought staring at the test, 'then you can end it all right here.' Enclosed in my hand...a single bullet.2

Pushing back my long brunette hair, I took a deep breath. Quietly I loaded the gun and clutched it against my chest. Tears filled my eyes and the thought of leaving my brother and best friend behind tormented my soul. The lives that I cared about could not suffer because my life suffered. Their heartache would continue and my selfish exit would haunt them. 3

7:33 AM.4

A shiver climbed up my spine pulling at my hidden fear as a creak in the floorboards sent me into a silent horror. Was he home? Did he suspect what went on in my mind? No, he was on duty this morning. A respected man; an abusive stepfather. Two identities, two separate monsters. A criminal and police officer. 5

7:34 AM.6

I stared blankly into the darkness reliving every memory of my agony. The pain, torture, the endless nights of awaiting the violence. Emotional scarring, rape, physical wounds. I would rather die than see his face again. I would rather die than carry his child. Soon, I would know...7

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Leaving the end out, unless I get the nerve to write it. I'll let you all know...but be honest tell me what you think.

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  • Lucifers Seductress
    October 2, 2005
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    Oh my fucking god! I remember this and it was so terrifying. If you write it, it's like healing a wound. I applaud you babe! You've got so much courage!

    love,
    Lexie

  • Kickin Camero
    March 12, 2005
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    That was one of the best poems i have ever read..My stuff sucks but you are really gifted


  • tinydarkgoddess
    January 31, 2005
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    yes, kindred, this is a true story. and that's why it's so difficult to write. but it's been plaguing my dreams for about a week now and i just need to try and get it out.


  • tinydarkgoddess
    January 31, 2005
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    yes, when and if and I finish, that's when the background of the story unfolds.

  • BrokenLilGirl
    January 30, 2005
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    i loved it keep up the great work.

  • SuicidalLover
    January 30, 2005
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    its really kewl. i think u should continue it.

  • puddeloftears
    January 30, 2005
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    This is a sad story but a great write, Katrina. I hope you will finish it. I want to know what happens. However, I understand if you can't. It is hard for some people to write something this sad and kind of dark. But you wrote it so well.
    Hugs
    ~Vicky

  • neurossection
    January 30, 2005
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    Oh God ... so intense. Sooo sad, because it's something that happens everywhere, everyday. Suicide is never the answer, and your character seems to realize this. But there are some places, some people that are too horrible to live through ...
    I'd definatly like to read the end of this, because you seem to have a really good hold on an audience with what you write, very well.
    Much love, hon.

  • Kindredblood
    January 30, 2005
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    Deep

    Very intense painted with agony and sorrow, hope this isnt real, so much pain, and your words have hit a depth notm any can achieve, beautiful poem, even though it radiates sadness, it is still well written.

  • Silhouetted Angel
    January 30, 2005
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    Not cool Katrina.. not cool...
    What happens...
    Does she do it or not?

    And yes you do know me....
    If you really want to know send me an im
    I'll tell ya.

    Please finish this. (and you may want to add some more detail to the story. Like a little prologue kinda thing... just to set the mood give some background something of the sort lol.. my opinion it works either way )

    ~~Silent Angel~~

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